Being approached by twins!

[vickielm]

Hi all,

I still have had no AF!!! Great!

After my twins died i had so much grief to deal with then when i got my BFP on Feb 23rd i was extatic. but it has turned out as a chemical pregnancy they think as i had BFN on 30th Jan, then BFP after this.

I have to wait for AF to clear me out then we can try again. But i feel nothing! Anyone else like this?

Before all i could think about was babies, but now i feel empty, like i want babies, but NOW, and waiting for AF is horrible!

I alswo work in the middle of a shopping centre and prams / toddlers are everywhere - i even have two regular visitors who keep coming to see me. Identical twin boys at 3 years old called Josh and Leon! They are adorable, but when the come over to talk to me everyone (work colleagues) is on egg shells and does not know what to say, its like they think i am going to burst into tears! But for some reason i am not!

Is this normal to feel like this?

Head is trashed - thanks for reading my rant!

 

[Aidedhoney]

Hello,
Sorry for your loss, i lost twins @ 16wks in Aug 08 so know how you must be feeling.

I think its good that you are able to chat away to the twins at work, when i lost mine i was very scared that i would become the woman who hates kids and anyone pregnant (dunno if that makes sense) I didnt want to become all bitter and twisted and thankfully i didnt.
Works a good focus keeps you busy and your mind off things saves you from walking around in a daze!!!
I know when i lost mine i felt very alone, found it hard to get out of bed but i have a 9yo so that was reason enough to get up and get on with things.

Hope it gets better soon x

 

[Chilli]

I had a good friend who abandoned me for 2 weeks after my mc because she is heavily pregnat & didn't want to upset me. Funny how people react isn't it? But then we're all different too and I think some women do find it harder to see other babies and children. I think it's really positive that you can chat to these boys and am sure they'll be you own one day. Look after yourself and don't worry about going loopy - at least you have good reason!!

 

[mazza2003]

I am in the same boat waiting for AF and I think it could be a long torturous wait! I had suspected MC three weeks ago, but a week ago it turned out they made a mistake and it was ectopic which ruptured on the way to theatre. I need two AFs before trying and I CANT WAIT!!!! It already seems like a life time!
I have my fingers crossed for you. It will happen. Hugs XXXXX

 

[Shelby2007]

Vik.. Im now sending the to visit you.. hope she gets there SOON!

 

[mama2connor]

So sorry you've had to go through this again hun, I know the feelings all too well of feeling empty. When my twin babies died and then i gave birth to them all i felt inside was emptyness and still do now. I sometimes find it so unbearable, but i'm lucky in the sense that i have my son to keep me going and i just hold on at the thought that we will be blessed with another baby very soon. Since loosing my babies, i've seen quite a few sets of twins out and about and i find it very hard, but have been quite good and have managed to hold it together. All of what your feeling and going through at the minute is totally normal! xx

 

[QTPie]

I am so sorry for your losses.

Not much to say really, but give yourself time, patience and understanding. You could still be in shock - it is all such a huge thing. Your mind will get back together, just give it time.

Take really good care of yourself.

Lots of and best wishes.

QT