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[Rainshiny]

Ttc— wow, that’s a BbbbFfffPPPPPPPPP unmistakable!!! Congratulations and hoping and praying for you that the lines keep getting nice and dark...!!!!

Mikki- gummy sounds like a peach!! Your stories sound so CUTE!!

Ask- glad the ex didn’t respond as it were, and I’m sure your boys will love their little sister. Provably a little hard to imagine for them yet. Glad you are feeling better!! Any scans up soon?

Little girl is doing great on the potty! We will focus on boy when she’s a little more self-sufficient. I’m so excited to put fewer diapers in the landfill.

Terri- how r the new clients going? Any trips planned? Tell me some adventures please!

 

[terripeachy]

Rain- No adventures here. Just working all the time. Blah. My friends and I were supposed to have our fantasy football dinner on Saturday but we got snowed out. We're trying to reschedule for the end of March.

Ask-congrats. Glad everyone is talking things in stride.

Ttc-congrats!

Miki-thanks for checking in. Glad things are getting better.

Emma-welcome!

 

[Wicky78]

Hi ladies,

I'm glad to hear all the good news:
Rain - yay for potty training going well!
TTC - that looks like a definite BFP to me! Congrats!
Ask - into the 2nd trimester already... woohoo!!!
Miki - Your decision to switch gears with BF and do what was best for you and gummy is so awesome and I love that it's had such a positive effect on you and him
Wish - sounds like things are moving along with the boys. I can't believe how well it sounds like you and they are doing... makes me even more excited for my own baby to be born!

Welcome to Emma! This is a really great group and I hope you get your BFP soon

I am so sad about the challenges some of us are facing, or our country/state...
TTC - so sorry for your DD's CP. It's so hard to see that line and then it fades. I hope she gets her sticky BFP soon.
The shooting in FL has really upset me, but I am so grateful that it seems people are finally (!) reaching their limits with this violence and calling for change. I don't really care what the change is, exactly, as long as it keeps our children safe (and adults!).

AFM, it's been a rough couple of weeks. Nausea has been worse again and I've missed a lot of work. I feel pretty dejected about the current situation because I feel useless and I'm worried about money (since I don't have paid time off at this point). Last night, I had a breakdown and just couldn't stop crying for a couple of hours. DW was super supportive, but I still feel pretty overwhelmed and useless at the moment. I am also not looking forward to DW going to MD tomorrow to see her mom. I want her to go and take care of what she needs to, but I don't really want to be left alone for two days. At least it's just two days this time. I normally don't mind, but it's been a difficult week. At least I made it to work today for part of the day. Ugh.

On a happier note, I had another OB appointment yesterday with growth ultrasound. Baby is in the 18th percentile for her age, which I'm very happy about. Some might worry that's too small, but with my diabetes, I am happy for small, as long as she's not in the bottom 10%. I'm still fluctuating on my weight, so I'm not surprised she's on the petite side right now. Still haven't made it back up to my pre-pregnancy weight yet, but the doctor said it's not a problem as long as I'm less than 10 lbs down (I'm only 3 down right now) and the baby is growing within normal limits. But they do want to see me gain about 10 lbs above my pre-pregnancy weight before the baby is born, so about a pound a week from here on out. On Saturday, I'll be 27 weeks and baby is supposed to be born at about 39 weeks because of my risk factors, so just over 12 weeks to go!

Anyway, I'm feeling pretty anxious about my diabetes and its impact on the baby, as well as my whole stress level/feeling overwhelmed by everything. I am hoping it's just situational, from being sick so much lately, and that I'll bounce back to feeling happy/excited once I feel better. Plus, I have a shower to look forward to on 3/10... just a few weeks away. I can't believe how fast the milestones are coming up now... If we could just get our house in order before the baby arrives, we'll be okay LOL! I'm so glad to have you ladies to listen to and get advice from. You all give me so much hope!

 

[TTC74]

Hi guys. I’ll comment on others’s posts later. I’m feeling too bummed right now. I had a blood test last night. Hcg was 15. So, definitely a CP.

 

[Ask4joy]

I’m so sorry, TTC. How many dpo are you? Is there any chance? CPs are heartbreaking.

Miki - I’m so glad to hear that you are enjoying this time with Kai and that you’ve put the breast feeding stressors behind you. I keep having dreams about our baby and in the dreams I am so in love with her - I can only imagine how you are feeling as a new mama!

Wicky - I’m sorry you’ve been having a tough time and that you are still dealing with nausea. It sounds like baby is doing just fine and you are in the home stretch! Be gentle with yourself - you’ve been dealing with a lot!

Rain - congrats on the potty training! And good luck with your little boy!

Terri - thank you! It’s still kinda surreal but my growing belly is definitely making it real!

Wish - how are you? I’m sure yo are busy busy busy with the twins!

My next appt and my first with my OB is next Wednesday. I’ll be just over 15 weeks. I’m not sure if I’ll have a scan? I hope so! We’ve been using a home fetal doppler once a week for the last 2 weeks to find baby’s HB, just for a minute or two. It’s a great reassurance until I can start to feel her! Still dealing with mild nausea here and there though it has vastly improved. Also dealing with daily headaches. Trying to drink a lot of water, but maybe I’m not getting enough protein?

Here’s my most recent bump pic...it really popped in the last few days! I feel like at this rate I’m going to be huge!

 

[TTC74]

I’m going to get my doubling rate on Friday and Monday to confirm but my first hint of a line was 5 days ago. So, I don’t see a realistic way that my Hcg would only be 15 at this point.

 

[Wish2BMom]

hi all!! sorry, yes - very busy with the boys. Even right now, juuuuust as I was going to start typing, Malcolm woke up!! I think he's just having his beginning fussings, though...let's see how far I can stretch this!

first off - TTC - my friend VERY recently just had an IUI and it came back as BFP but with an HCG of 9. They basically told her to go home and wait for her period b/c it was a CP. She hadn't gotten it in a week and took another test and it came back with a dark line, so she went in. It STUCK! She just had a scan this Tuesday and you can see her little gummy in there! Hang in there!!

miki - again, SOOOOO happy you're back to normal and you can enjoy your new family now without getting caught up in those rabbit holes. At least for now! HA! THere are so many to fall down into, right? They DO change so much, so quickly. I'm trying to savor every second and completely enjoy each milestone. We're getting real smiles now!

ask - congrats on 2nd tri! your bump is ridiculously cute, I love it! Big or small, who cares - embrace it all!

wicky - I'm so sorry for all you're going through. You do have a TON on your plate right now. Try to take things day by day and as someone else said, be kind to yourself. If there is a daily treat or something you can give to yourself, try that. I went for Starbucks decaf Java Chips with whipped cream Course I know you have to watch your diabetes so whatever fits into that regimen.

Malcolm's blowing up - brb!

 

[TTC74]

Negative hpts. Temp dropped. Massive cramping. So ready to move on!

 

[Wish2BMom]

Ugh I’m sorry TTC

 

[Ask4joy]

So sorry TTC.

 

[Rainshiny]

Hugs ttc... I’m sorry it didn’t work this time. 😥

 

[Wicky78]

TTC, I'm so sorry about your CP.

 

[Wicky78]

Hi ladies,

Just checking in to say hi to everyone!

Ask, I'm so happy to hear you're already 15 weeks! I hope your first OB appointment goes well. At my appointments that early, they had to do a quick scan because they needed to document fetal heart tones and couldn't do it with the doppler yet... Fingers crossed they do a scan for you! How often will you be seen at your OB? I am high risk, so it feels like I'm there all the time LOL. At least in that case, you get to know the practice really well!

Wish, the boys sound like a handful, but a happy handful! I hope they let you get some rest every now and then...

AFM, after I posted last week, I was really struggling with feeling overwhelmed and hopeless. I decided to call my doctor and they diagnosed me with antepartum depression. The initial diagnosis made me feel like a failure or something, but now that it's had a chance to sink in, I think that it's helpful to know what's going on. Plus, my doctor now has a plan to help me with my low mood, which hopefully will improve things in the next couple of weeks. My poor DW was in shock because she knew I was having a hard time but didn't realize that there was such a thing as antepartum depression. She was all ready to be on the lookout for postpartum depression but had no idea about this. I still feel like crap warmed over, but at least there's a sense of hope now. I have also been told that the depression/anxiety aspect of this can exacerbate nausea, so there's a bit of which one is driving which - the morning sickness leading to feeling blue or the depression making me nauseated. Anyway, it doesn't really matter if it's being treated since things should improve somewhat in the next couple of weeks. Right now, my doctor wants me to focus on remembering that my job is growing another human and also to try to get as much nutrition as possible to make sure baby and I both stay healthy. That seems manageable. Everything else, not so much, but I don't have to worry about all things right now... Thank you all for being so supportive on this crazy journey!

 

[TTC74]

From my 25 year old DD. SO sounds like me!

Symptom spotting I think it's called? Had heart palpitations earlier for 30 seconds. Sore breasts, mild crampy feeling. I may test again tonight

 

[mikihope]

I’m so sorry, TTC. Hugs to you. Fx for you and your daughter!

Rain- Glad that potty training is going well with your little girl! I hope that your boy follows suit pretty soon. Thanks, gummy is such a load of fun. He has so many different ways of laughin -- giggle, guffaw, coy, fake-sounding, evil -- so cute!

Wicky- Thanks, it really has had a wonderfully positive effect on us! I still have to struggle with pumping, but it’s still a lot less stressful. I’m so sorry to hear that you’re feeling so down these days. I remember how bad I felt emotionally when I was feeling queasy, I think it just adds to the horribleness of things. I hope that your nausea goes away! I understand how you feel about your baby’s weight. I was terrified I would have a big baby, and that my baby would have low blood glucose at birth. I believe that since you have been so aware of things from the start, and you have been working so hard at controlling your diabetes, that your baby would be super healthy! You are being a great mom! Oh, I just read your update… I’m so glad that you are getting help. I read up a lot about antepartum depression, as I was feeling down and queasy a lot in my pregnancy. It seems that it often goes undiagnosed as many people haven’t heard of it, so it’s good that you’re getting help for it. I hope that you feel more upbeat and like your old self soon!

Ask- Yes, I’m really enjoying my time with Kai, thanks! My phone is so flooded with pics and videos of him that I ran out of storage. Aw… you are not going to believe just how much in love with your baby when she is born Your bump pic is so adorable! Enjoy your growing belly, it really is a magical time.

Wish- You must be so busy with the boys, I think you are a superwoman! Thanks so much, I am so pleased to no longer going down that rabbit hole. I think that BF is a biggie, because it’s the first thing we new moms are doing for our babies, and we want to do it well. Plus hormones and sleep deprivation drive us crazy… Yay for getting smiles from your boys! It’s so adorable to see them smile. Once gummy started smiling, his development seemed to accelerate by leaps and bounds. He’s imitating me when I say “hello” to him, and sticking his tongue back out at me. I love how cheerful he is. He was crying hard the other day while I had him lying on my lap, and I saw that his nose was clogged with stuff. It looked too tempting, so I got the mucus sucking bulb out and tried to suck the stuff out of his nose. He immediately started laughing. He chuckles when I spray saline solution up his nose too. Silly boy!

Terri- Thanks! I hope that you get more play and less work pretty soon!

AFM- I’m soooo dreading going back to work and leaving gummy. I was in tears thinking about it recently, and wondering how I would cope with not only leaving him, but also putting him in daycare. I spend so much time with him, and he usually sleeps near me. It will be so hard, it’s really unbearable to think about

 

[TTC74]

Miki - I remember that feeling well. I was horrified by having to return to work and leave my LO “to be raised” by strangers (that’s what it felt like to me!). I know that nothing I can say will ease your anxiety, but just so you know . . . LO and I both adjusted within a week or two (she adjusted VERY quickly. It took me a few extra days!). Now, DH and I are grateful she’s in daycare. She learns so much from watching the other kids, and she is quite the social butterfly! At any rate, sending you support during this difficult transition.

 

[Wish2BMom]

Wicky - wow, I’m so happy that your doc diagnosed you quickly so you can get ahold of this depression. I’m so sorry you’re going through it though! I hope you’re able to feel a shift in mood soon. I’ll be thinking about you.

Miki - I’m dreading going back to work too - 1.5 weeks from now. I’ll be able to work from home for 4 weeks though which is great but I still dread it. And daycare - forget about it! It’s like I don’t want them having other favorite people hahaha! I’m a little territorial I guess. But I know it’ll be good for them and I know it’ll be a huge help for us.
I love your stories about Kai! He sounds so adorable!

Afm - things here are still good. Have had a couple tough days where my hormones took over and I had to cry, but I’m ok. My sister and her family came up and that was a challenge hosting them while still being so sleep-deprived and my niece potentially coming down with a cold. My sister and I had it out after they left bc they all felt unwelcome in our house by DH bc a) he had to keep telling my niece to pull up her face mask (we had her wear one as a precaution) and b) he wasn’t overly friendly to my sis and BIL (I didn’t think he was unfriendly, just not going out of his way to talk to anyone. And to be fair, he doesn’t really care for either of them). I told her that I thought it was pretty unfair to judge our behavior during a visit now, with 5 week old babies and being sleep deprived when they come to stay with us for 3 nights with a sick kid. But whatever. She blew it up to be a ‘it’s been like this for years’, which is not what I feel like tackling at the moment. Christ, we are trying to survive 2 new babies, like I’m going to also tell my DH that he wasn’t friendly enough to them during their visit they insisted on while ‘the boys are still little’. Sighhhhh.

So other than THAT messing with my head for a full weekend, things are great!

 

[Rainshiny]

Starting in reverse—
Omg Wish, that is so infuriating! No one who hasn’t been on a battlefield or have multiples should judge twin parents!! I mean, you and DH are really really low in Maslows hierarchy now... the nerve! No one should come through the door who isn’t willing to help or at least be understanding and supportive!! A plague on her house. Hope she has triplets heh heh heeeeehhhhh....

Wicky- I never heard of antipartum depression either! I’m sorry you’re going through so much. For some folks pregnancy doesn’t live up to the fairytale version we thought it would. Aren’t you a few weeks away from your due date? I like that advice on your job being to grow a human and stay healthy. Sometimes you gotta narrow down to the essentials and muddle through as best as you can!!

Ttc- the Apple doesn’t fall far... lol. Hope you both get to compare pregnancy notes soon.

Any other newcomers to the board have any updates??

DS decided he was done w diapers this morning- we will see if it lasts!!! I’m not going to keep track of two peepee schedules though- they will have to pee in synchrony!!! Yay, everyone together...

 

[Rainshiny]

Forgot to respond to Miki thread- gummy sounds so delightful!!! I love how you describe him.

I was ready to work pt after four months, but I wish I could still work part time.

 

[mikihope]

Thank you so much, TTC! It really helped to hear of your experience. I feel the same way, leaving gummy in the hands of strangers. I’m sorry you had to go through the heartbreak in the beginning, but it sounds like it gets better fast. It’s so good to know about the socialization. I thought that this would be an upside of sending gummy to daycare, but I wasn’t sure.

Hugs, Wish! I’ve been there before, where family came over and I was sooo sleep deprived and hormonal and not able to deal with their nonsense. The only difference is that I have this unhealthy way of never confronting my sister, and she too doesn’t say anything to me. It sucks that you had to deal with your sister being ridiculous. Obviously you would be barely surviving with 2 new babies, and you would only have energy to give to your sweet babies. I hope she realizes that she was being less than understanding, and it all blows over. Anyway, it gets easier… people were saying that to me, and now I can say that to you! Oh, you’re also returning to work soon. Poor us! Nice that you can work from home, it may be a good way to transition. Wish I could do that.
Thanks for your compliments, I am so glad that I can now enjoy gummy’s adorable silliness, and be a better mom for him. I get to interact with him much more. We suck at tummy time, though! I couldn’t bear to see him stuck there, making groaning noises, so I probably didn’t do it enough. He’s progressed since then, but still spends most of the time lying there and sucking on his fist. Tummy time is both our least favorite time together!

Rain- I hope your little boy is following suit! Thanks, gummy is delightful indeed. Babies are a riot! I'm having so much fun, even if it is hard work. I have no idea how you moms with twins manage. You are amazing!