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[Wish2BMom]

rain - yahoooooo for no more diapers!! did it last? that will be an amazing transition, for sure. Though again, I don't want to wish away ANYTHING b/c this is the only time it's happening. Trying to remain in the moment as much as possible. Though that's probably b/c I have a closet full of diapers and haven't had to buy any since they've been born. Once we start shelling out for those again (plus the formula), I'm sure I'll be pushing for toilet training!

miki - I knew you'd relate about hormones/sleep-deprivation and family visits! I thought of you. Oy, these families of ours!

thanks for the understanding everyone - seems everyone I've talked to about my sister agrees with me. WEIRD. I hope it'll blow over but at this point, I honestly don't care too much. I've always had a ton of pressure from my family to be this amazing sister to my sister and I've done what I could. But I can't seem to get that back in return. We are completely different people, see the world differently and react to it differently. Her 'concern' over my marriage and whatnot is misplaced and makes her out to be a hero of sorts, where I don't need anyone to be concerned over me and my relationship. She ended the call with 'well, I hope he treats you like a queen b/c that's what you deserve'. Well, you know what - I don't want to be put on a pedestal and treated like a 'queen'. I want to be treated like a partner in crime, like a best friend. So your wishes for me are off on what I want for me. Such a deeper conversation than I can handle at the mo so I'm good with not talking for a bit if that's the answer. I'll still send pics and videos of the boys so no one is left out but that's all I have energy for.

anywayyyyyy - the boys are still awesome, though getting more challenging. Home by myself with them during the day is SO challenging. DH has gone back to the office but still comes home early if he can. Yesterday I was going out of my mind - they would either be awake and needing something at the same time or one would wake and be needy RIGHT when the other fell asleep. So I got zero downtime. They are both napping now, I should be napping too!
Only another week doing this myself and I might have a little help from a couple of friends 2 days next week. Then I'm back to work and my folks are up so things should be more manageable.
We had some challenges at night this week with Timothy where he would have a witching hour (or 3-hrs - from about 7-10) where he was so fussy and just inconsolable. Turns out, it might be attributed to changing his formula brand during the day. I breastfeed him but sometimes that doesn't seem like enough for him so I'll still supplement with formula a bit. Well DH had bought a different brand by mistake. That did a number on T - went down to one poop/day and then this horrid spell at night. I changed back yesterday and, though I think this is a coincidence and more due to his not really napping for long yesterday, he was passed out by 8 last night. And was happy and normal when eating in the middle of the night. Hopefully the witching hour spells are done, though - we'll see tonight! Everything I had read online said switching brands was harmless. Apparently not for his system! I didn't want to use Enfamil anyway - they use palm oil. Anyway, hopefully all is good now. Such a learning process, every step of the way!

 

[TTC74]

DD got another ! Fx for a sticky bean! Today’s test is on the bottom.

 

[Wish2BMom]

FX’ed TTC!

 

[terripeachy]

Hi everyone!
It's snowing here again. It looks so nice in the mornings when I take my dog out for his walk. Then he ruins it all because he has a cone on his head. He had an infected scratch on his toe. It's getting better but it's funny how he acts like his cone is his collar now and gets anxious when I take it off.

How is everyone doing? Any updates? Have a great day!

 

[Wish2BMom]

Oh I laugh at dogs with cones only bc their personalities change so much!! Poor guy, I hope it heals quickly! What do you do with him all day - just crate him or does he go to daycare?
You’re getting the snow now that we’re getting in a few hours. We’re expecting 12-18”!! Man I hate these March storms just days before the first day of spring gets here!!

 

[TTC74]

Looks bad again for DD. I'm trying to get her to get her progesterone checked. She told me the other day lots of info suggesting that she has high estrodial and low progesterone. It explains the repeat chemicals.

 

[terripeachy]

Fun's personality hasn't changed. He forgets about his cube and bumps into everything! His cone had turned into a duct tape fine instead of plastic. He can't fit in his crate so he's been free for the may week and doing wonderfully. He dies like his crate though. When he's on my nerves I can't say 'crate up.' that's one downside. He is almost healed though. His growth looks like a scratch now so I'm happy about that.

I hope the snow isn't too bad for you. We had a few inches but nothing terrible.

Ttc- is your daughter on bnb? Sorry to hear she is having trouble.

 

[TTC74]

Actually, she is Terri! She is ttcteacher.

 

[mikihope]

Terri- How cute, I love seeing dogs with a cone, and Fun sounds adorable! I’m glad his toe is healing. It sounds cold where you and Wish are. DH and I are already calling it cold here when it’s in the 50s!

Wish- I’m glad that you have sorted things out with your sister, even though the situation is less than ideal. I’m also the exact opposite of my sister! She’s the prim and proper one, but one thing I really like about her is that she doesn’t judge how I live my life. I’m sorry that your family feels that you need to be this amazing sister to her (I’m sure you are already!), and that it isn’t returned. But then… you’ve got your lovely and adorable twins in your life now! Luckily you’re going to get some help taking care of them, though. I am still in awe of you and how you manage to take care of two little babies on your own! How do you feel about going back to work? I’m delaying my return by a couple of weeks, it makes me feel a bit better!

TTC- I’m so sorry about your daughter’s chemicals. It’s great that she has your support, I hope that she has a sticky bean soon!

AFM- Gummy gets funnier by the day! He’s easier for me to deal with alone, now that he can just chat and laugh to himself while I get some stuff done. He’s a very slow eater, and he is still very bothered by his farts. This means that it takes a pretty long time to feed him, and I am left with little time to do other stuff once I am done putting him to bed as well as pumping. He's going nuts mimicking my expressions and words now. He’s decided that his favorite words are now “I love you”. I was doing the “I love you” massage on his belly to try to get rid of his fartiness, and I realized he was repeating the words back. He especially enjoys saying “love” in different silly ways, most of them involving a long drawn out sound and changing it to two syllables – Luuuh….uuuuuh. Sometimes it’s a joyful shriek, and other times (his preferred method) it’s a crying voice. The first time I heard his crying version, I thought he was really crying. He really gets into it, with the sad and crying face. He’s not a cryful baby, so I wonder why he enjoys saying it this way! So he’s taken to saying “hello” and “I love you” first thing when he wakes up and also when he’s falling asleep while I’m holding him. He looks up with these shiny round eyes and shyly says those words in a very sweet, soft voice It’s like he knows it gets my attention, it’s so hard to ignore. I’m not supposed to engage while trying to get him to fall asleep, but I always do. He greets me when he wakes up with the most amazing joy and excitement -- his arms and legs fly up and his face breaks out in this humongous wide grin. What a great age he’s at, I’m enjoying it so much! I hear that they learn to shriek loudly later on, and I’m not looking forward to that…

 

[Wish2BMom]

omg miki, your stories of Kai melt my heart!! the boys have started smiling and Timothy chats a lot and I love it so much. He's also a morning person and has huge grins for me.

back to work today and couldn't care less about my work. this is going to be frustrating.

 

[mikihope]

Thanks, Wish! Timothy sounds like Kai, chatty and smiley. Love the incredible smiles when they wake up and see you there Kai has now included an angry version of "I love you" in his repertoire. He likes mimicking so much that he'll repeat stuff even when he's feeling distressed from his fartiness. It's just done in a very upset tone. His latest thing he likes to work on is "Oh yeah!"

Wow, back at work. I'm so dreading that, how is it for you? But... you're at home, right?

 

[Wish2BMom]

haha - at 4am this morning, after waking up hourly for the past few hours, we had to get up AGAIN with them. I usually get up with Timothy and DH has Malcolm but we had switched this time. DH picks up Timothy and he has the BIGGEST grin for him. DH is holding him against his chest and just laughing and Timothy smiled even bigger from the bouncing and I swear he almost giggled too. It was incredible!

work - 2nd day is better, I have been able to concentrate more and figure out where projects stand/where I can jump back in. Seems like not a lot was completed while I was out so a) I didn't lose much ground and b) I can take the bull by the horns and hopefully start to get stuff done. Which will make me look good in the long run, right?? My boss and I also talked about potentially making a permanent work from home schedule. Yes, right now I'm home for the next 4 weeks unless it makes sense to go in for a meeting better off having in person or whatnot. But after that, she said having a permanent situation is possible and to figure out which days I'd want to do that. YES! So that doesn't mean less daycare, unfortunately, b/c who can watch 2 kids AND work fulltime? But it does mean that there could be a few days a week with less rushing in the morning, more thoughtful meals at night, laundry done during the day... that would be great.
Re: being back at work and the boys - it's hard hearing them squealing on their mats or crying when I can't get to them. But my Mom hands me T when he needs to eat, or if M is crying and they can't get him to stop, they'll pop in for Mommy. Truth be told, I'm a little relieved to have something else to concentrate on for a bit since having both of them is such a handful. I don't always feel successful with them (when they are inconsolable or just both need the same thing at the same time and I have to make one wait a few mins longer) but there are places at work where I can feel successful so that's good for the soul.

 

[Wish2BMom]

I've added my birth story into my sig if anyone is curious! I wanted to get it 'down on paper' before I forgot!

 

[mikihope]

Wow, what a birth story, Wish! I can’t imagine losing HALF of my body’s blood. So glad you fared so well, you’re so strong! M and T must be big boys by now. Isn’t it so precious when they smile at you? A baby’s smile is just the most awesome thing. I think that giggle you heard was real. I too thought I was imagining it when I first heard gummy laugh. Turns out they can indeed start laughing quite early. Their laughs are just the most contagious in the world!

Sounds like your work is going great! Lucky you, having the option to work from home. Although, now that you describe it, I think I would find it tough too – hearing your babies cry when you can’t get to them. Luckily you have help right now. I’m inspired by how well you’re managing with two little babies to take care of.

How is everyone else doing? TTC, Fx for you and your daughter for BFPs soon! Wicky, Ask, I hope you’re both enjoying your pregnancies as much as you can. And MsR and Vonn, I hope you are enjoying time with your little ones!

AFM- Gummy has decided to be very awake in the middle of the night and sleepy during the day again. Argh! Last night, I finally got tired of his wakefulness and placed him in the rocker while I tried to rest next to him on the sofa. He then proceeded to talk to himself for almost an hour! So I took back out and I fed him, and he finally drifted off to sleep at 3:30am.
Gummy loves to talk to himself before falling asleep. The sounds are super cute, with squealing and different voices (sad, pained, happy) thrown in. He also works on his words du jour, which happens to be “oh yeah” right now. And when he’s getting close to falling asleep, he gets gigglier, laughinger, and louder. And then… silence.
He says “hello” when he wakes up and sees me, and when he wants to get my attention, and it’s the last thing he says in a soft and sweet voice if he’s falling asleep in my arms and looking up at me. I love how much he interacts now. His expression of joy when he wakes up and sees me is priceless – mouth wide open in a big grin, shout of joy, arms and legs flying up. It’s like his whole body is happy. I guess he’ll tone the joyfulness down as time goes on, especially after he goes to daycare and others look after him. Oh well, I’ll enjoy it while it lasts. It’s so fun and hilarious – makes my day! Uh oh, gotta go…gummy is saying hello from his rocker… he’s woken up and he wants my attention.

 

[Ask4joy]

Hi ladies!

Wish and Miki - I love reading your baby stories!

Miki - it sounds like Kai is going to be an early talker! I love how you describe his joy when he wakes up and sees you - that must be one of the best feelings in the world!

Wish - That is great that you get to work from home for the next 4 weeks and will hopefully have a permanent work from home schedule! I’m glad to hear you are feeling generally positive about returning to work.

AFM - I’m 17w4d today. BeeBee (as we call her) has been kicking up a storm. I just love to feel her kick or move! Last night I was lying on my back and felt movement on my left side - I looked down and my bump was lop-sided! Lol. DH hadn’t felt her kick yet but he could feel how hard the one side of my bump was where she was hanging out which was cool.

I’ve been feeling pretty good lately. Starting to get some back aches if I’m on my feet for too long as I think my center of gravity is starting to get thrown off. I’ve gained almost 8 pounds as of today, but it looks like I’m still within a healthy weight gain range. I was on the petite side before starting all this TTC / fertility drug business. I was at my heaviest before my FET but still within a “healthy” weight range for my height - albeit on the upper end of that! I’ve been slowly stocking up on maternity clothes and I must admit, I’m loving how this little bump looks! My breasts have gone from a 34C (pre IVF) to a 36DD! I hope they don’t get much bigger because I’m only 5’5”. Even my mom made a comment about them lol!

We are heading to Florida with my step-sons the last week in March and I cannot wait to plop my pregnant butt on the beach and drink some yummy beachy mocktails. I am so pale right now and would usually go tanning a few times before a trip like this but I guess I’ll just have to try to get some rays while I’m there! I go from being so pale in the winter to golden brown in the summer. I used to go tanning a lot in my 20s but realized I was probably ruining my skin so I cut it out. I do prefer being tan though!

How is everyone else doing?

 

[TTC74]

3 DPO today. DD got a prescription for progesterone.

AND . . . We’re within 2 weeks from walking!

 

[Wish2BMom]

what a crazy girl, TTC!! we are in trouble when our boys start walking!

ask - so glad you're feeling good! I LOVED - L-O-V-E-D - feeling my boys moving around and seeing my lopsided belly. I'm so glad you're enjoying it. You have the full anatomy scan soon right?

Had their 2 month appointment (complete with shots ) last Thursday and the boys are measuring as such:
Timothy - 12.075lbs
Malcolm - 9.15lbs

T is about average and Malcolm is a peanut still. But he's starting to cluster feed and get grumpy so I know he's hitting growth spurts. They are only an inch apart in height but 50 percentiles apart?! weird.
I think we've worked through T's witching hour issues - we head up to bed around 6:36/6:45 and get things done early, then he's asleep by 8 or 8:30. Seems to have worked a few times. Sometimes he'll still wake up and scream bloody murder but if I swaddle him with his arms in now (we have been doing it with arms out since we brought them home b/c he didn't like it -still hates it), he sleeps well for the most part and calms down quickly with me SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH'ing in his ear.

Kai just sounds so amazing with his speaking and such now! I do love hearing T and M is starting to chatter a little bit. But T has the high-pitched squeals (along with his ear-piercing screech when he's PO'ed) that are to die for.

Work schmerk - I am going to apply for another job today, back at the company DH works at/where we met. It's one of the biggest around here and I was there for 12 yrs, so I know the culture and such. This role was made for me so hopefully they feel that way too. Fingers crossed I'll be out of this boring IT/government defense contracting job in the next couple months... I just wish I worked there before I got preggo b/c their maternity is 16 weeks fully paid!!

how is everyone else?

I do want to say that I think my time on BnB might be coming to an end or at least a drastic slow. It seems like this thread is very quickly slowing down anyway. I have been so thankful to have this outlet - I could not have stayed sane without the support of the INCREDIBLE women I found on this website. I even found actual friends for life!!
I love you all and I hope you get even a fraction of the support out of this site as I did!! I'll pop in every now and then to check on things!

 

[terripeachy]

Wish-i thought you were going to be able to work from home full time now but you aren't happy? I hope you get the job at your husband's place if that's what you want though. It's so hard finding the perfect workplace. Every job has its pros and cons. Glad to hear the boys are doing well and it's funny that T is such a big baby. Hee hee. I can't wait to see/hear how their personalities develop over time.

Miki-Kai sure is an alert baby and so aware of everything. I'm glad he truly makes you happy. That's what babies do.

Ask-you're getting there! Have fun on the beach over break. Enjoy.

Today I'm snowed in, so I'm happy. I needed a break during the week so I'm enjoying myself. I didn't think this storm was going to be serious so hubs and I are eating junk food. I will be able to make dinner (thanks blue apron), but it's only 11a. Hee hee. Junk food it is. Opening day for the Orioles is next week and yesterday I had a flashback because I was pregnant during opening day a few years ago. Womp womp.

Now I can say I'm glad it didn't work out though because I only have to worry about myself, my hubs and Fun. That's plenty. I'd be stuck in a rut at my old job because I'd have to care for baby and my fun adventures would be severely diminished. I am really good about living vicariously through others with kids so I'm ok without. Not sure how my day off story turned into melodrama about being a DINK but so be it. Stay warm everyone.

 

[MsRipple]

Hi ladies - sitting reading everyone's updates. Well somewhat, I'm only up to early February and need to go back for more. I miss you guys and sorry I was so out of it. Moving and getting back to work was a major time suck, but it's done now. Enjoying a snow day at home with my 6.5 month old (!) little girl. She is a bit cranky have received her vaccines yesterday, but is generally amazing.

Edited to add that my ticker has baby as a 15 pound turkey! almost, she was 18.5 at the doctor yesterday!

 

[TTC74]

Hi ladies. Glad everyone is doing well.

Wish - I hope you check back in occasionally, but I agree that this thread has slowed down.

AFM - I took a FRER this morning, and I'm not sure if what I see is an evap or a vvvfl. Thoughts? This is the original and a super saturated - because usually when I super saturate an evap, I get an obvious blank spot without a line. IRL it is very faint and I cannot tell if there is color.