Wish- I cant believe how close you are to meeting your little boys! I'm so excited for you! Doesnt time fly? It almost seems like yesterday to me that we were newly pregnant. I cant wait to hear about your adventures with your twins! Hehe, I still call Kai gummy, just like my sister who still calls her kids blob and peanut (after their shapes on their first scans). Thanks, gummy really does make my heart melt. I fell in love with the little guy instantly, and since then Ive been wondering how Im going to return to work! Ive considered not going back, but I wonder if its the hormones making me feel this way.
Youre lucky that your family is actually helpful. I hope that your sister can somehow make it.
Ask- I know how you feel re the nausea and lamenting the lack of food enjoyment. It was very hard for me as I live to eat, and I eat everything. I didn't enjoy eating during my pregnancy. Right after I gave birth, my appetite returned in full force. Its amazing how it works that way. Thanks for your kind words. I truly adore Kai, its hard not to fall in love with such a sweet newborn! Newborn facial expressions and the noises they make are just so incredibly adorable!
Terri- Thanks! Yeah, its been hard to check in, but I try to as the people on this thread have been such a blessing in my life. Its also great that you check in with updates of your life. Yup, DH has been patient for my sake. But he has been very grumpy and short with me during the trying times with my family. I dont blame him, but it does suck that I cant have a more normal and well-adjusted family. It's not my fault they're that way!
Rain- Theres a three day weekend? Im so out of touch with the working world now. I hope that you have an easy (as possible, anyway) time with your little ones. Im looking forward to funny stories, though! Thanks for the encouragement regarding my struggles with breastfeeding, I really needed it.
AFM- I had yet another appointment with a lactation consultant yesterday, and I almost lost all hope after that. She told me I was doing way better than expected, given my risk factors, such as age. But she also made it seem that I had no hope of increasing my supply, and she also asked me to increase the supplementation to 2 oz per feeding. He had gained 4 oz in a week, and she said it was not enough. I started out supplementing 1 oz, and she has made me increase it to basically all bottle feeding. I was in tears when feeding gummy the first 2 oz bottle yesterday, because it felt like I had given up, and I was just asking for my milk supply to dry up. Gummy was such a wonderful feeder, latching on right after birth, and I received comments from nurses that I wouldnt have problems feeding him as he was so great. And now I may have to give up on breastfeeding him. I have put in so much work, and I love the closeness of it, but I will try to make peace with being unable to breastfeed him if it comes to that.
Even though I miss my family, and my sister was such a great help, it was good that they left when they did. My sister was rather controlling about certain things, like when she would barge in to the room when she heard gummy cry, and take him from me even if I were halfway breastfeeding him. I became so tense about him crying because of that. And she had very different views on breastfeeding, and she did try to force them on me, as I was a new mom and she has two kids. Anyway, I am thankful that she was here to help out, and that she adores Kai to no end.
And Im so thankful for my precious son. It has never mattered to me that he was conceived via donor egg. I have always felt such a strong bond with him, even when he was a perfect, round embie. The love I feel for him is so fierce. Ive waited for a lot of my life to be able to be a mother. Because of my mom, I had to wait far longer than most, making sure that I had my life in order and I was well-adjusted enough to properly raise a child. I was almost too late, but donor egg IVF and our wonderful donor made my dreams come true. Im truly lucky
But I think things can change in an instant so I am just keeping an eye on things.
jk I'll try to hold off on middle of the night freak out texts! 
