Bit down today

[x-amy-x]

Feeling a bit crap today.I miss my baby... i feel terrible because life is going on... without her.

I have a new life growing inside me and i feel guilty for it. I feel like people think ive moved on and Evie's a thing of the past. No one talks about her, no one mentions her. I feel like she never existed and it's tearing me up. I'd give almost anything to have her with me now, it wasn't meant to be like this.

I'm scared i'm not going to bond with this baby properly.

I just need a hug i guess!

 

[millwallrose4]

Well here is a huge hug from me. I'm so sorry you are going through this, I can't imagine how hard it is. Please don't feel guilty, you deserve another child. Your new baby will never replace Evie, but it might help to ease the pain. As for no-one talking about her, maybe try speaking to someone about her - it might be that no-one wants to talk because they think it will upset you. Feel free to talk to me anytime about her if you want.

 

[Drazic<3]

Oh darling, bless you. I promise we haven't forgotten little Evie, she was just too precious for this world.

I understand what you mean all the time. I feel guilty constantly I got pregnant so quick after Edan and I feel like people have really judged me for it. I feel guilty for moving on but then feel guilty to this baby for missing Edan

Thinking of you, and I'm always here for a chat

 

[x-amy-x]

I just feel like every day that goes by leaves her further behind. I wish i had a necklace or something with her hand or foot print on so i could keep her with me all the time

 

[Drazic<3]

Maybe that is a good idea hun, could you treat yourself to something special, or ask the OH for mothers day? I have Edan's little garden so when I feel down I can sit by it and just be. You need something special for you.

 

[x-amy-x]

im gonna mention it but i wont be able to get anything like that for a while, money is really really tight for us.. life likes to test us eh!

 

[Drazic<3]

It seriously does hun! What about for now, a little pot plant or a big pot which you could plant some flowers in for Evie as a little garden? Somewhere for you to go and feel close to her?

 

[x-amy-x]

i dunno, it just feels all a bit pointless... she's not here