Bluenpinkmom
Expecting baby # 2
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Hey'all...
Im currently 20 weeks pregnant with our first.. we have come a long way before conceiving this one. Not that we had any major medical problems but i guess it was just about the time.. So we were overthrilled to learn we were finally pregnant..
Ok, let me be frank.. i always wanted my first one to be a baby boy !! i know this is unfair and unethical and blah blah but atleast im being honest about what my heart always longed for.. It is the same with my DH !! But in my 20 week ultrasound yesterday, we came to know we are having a little girl.. a PERFECT active healthy little girl !! but I'm not happy !! huh ?? feeling shitty about myself that how can any mother be not happy ?? secretly we are both disappointed with the gender.. but we do love our to be daughter to death but there is still this disppointment..and another crazy thing is im already thinking of doing a gender selection PGD for the next baby ( crazy, i know)
Hope y'all can understand the awkward phase we are going through.. please donot judge us we are ourself feeling guilty on not being exited
is it bad to feel this way? any idea how to deal with this?
Im currently 20 weeks pregnant with our first.. we have come a long way before conceiving this one. Not that we had any major medical problems but i guess it was just about the time.. So we were overthrilled to learn we were finally pregnant..
Ok, let me be frank.. i always wanted my first one to be a baby boy !! i know this is unfair and unethical and blah blah but atleast im being honest about what my heart always longed for.. It is the same with my DH !! But in my 20 week ultrasound yesterday, we came to know we are having a little girl.. a PERFECT active healthy little girl !! but I'm not happy !! huh ?? feeling shitty about myself that how can any mother be not happy ?? secretly we are both disappointed with the gender.. but we do love our to be daughter to death but there is still this disppointment..and another crazy thing is im already thinking of doing a gender selection PGD for the next baby ( crazy, i know)
Hope y'all can understand the awkward phase we are going through.. please donot judge us we are ourself feeling guilty on not being exited
is it bad to feel this way? any idea how to deal with this?