lintu
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Hi Guys,
I'm having a bit of a I dont know lets say crisis of faith
My Hubby and I have been TTC for 12 cycles and was gobsmacked when I finally got my in December we were over the moon
To cut along story short it was confirmed via a second ultrasound Thursday that our lil bean gave up hope around 6 weeks , I will be 9 weeks on monday but am having a silent pregnancy, everything but baby is growing, the pregnancy sac, placenta everything. So basically i have been in hell the last week, knowing my baby has died but cos im not bleeding and my body hasnt recognised that the baby has died it still thinks im pregnant, and so I am left with morning sickness or should i say all day sickness from hell, boob pain the works and its all for nothing
I'm booked in for a D&C Monday couldnt stand to wait for nature to eventually run its course or to have meds to abort i didnt want to drag it out any longer than i have too. I'm dreading Monday I just know i'm going to be a wreck, but the thought of having to go through all of this again especially if i lose it again is tearing me apart.
I dream about it, I'v told my husband I dont think I can do this again let alone straight away. The Dr has said next time she will request an early scan but i'm so terrified. I honestly thought the hard part was done.
I really dont know how i'm going to handle monday, right now i'm drifting though the day and the thought of going back to work is torture. To top it all off my SIL is pregnant and is due the week before me so i have that to deal with too.
Sorry for the long thread girls, just needed to get it off my chest xx
I'm having a bit of a I dont know lets say crisis of faith
My Hubby and I have been TTC for 12 cycles and was gobsmacked when I finally got my in December we were over the moon
To cut along story short it was confirmed via a second ultrasound Thursday that our lil bean gave up hope around 6 weeks , I will be 9 weeks on monday but am having a silent pregnancy, everything but baby is growing, the pregnancy sac, placenta everything. So basically i have been in hell the last week, knowing my baby has died but cos im not bleeding and my body hasnt recognised that the baby has died it still thinks im pregnant, and so I am left with morning sickness or should i say all day sickness from hell, boob pain the works and its all for nothing
I'm booked in for a D&C Monday couldnt stand to wait for nature to eventually run its course or to have meds to abort i didnt want to drag it out any longer than i have too. I'm dreading Monday I just know i'm going to be a wreck, but the thought of having to go through all of this again especially if i lose it again is tearing me apart.
I dream about it, I'v told my husband I dont think I can do this again let alone straight away. The Dr has said next time she will request an early scan but i'm so terrified. I honestly thought the hard part was done.
I really dont know how i'm going to handle monday, right now i'm drifting though the day and the thought of going back to work is torture. To top it all off my SIL is pregnant and is due the week before me so i have that to deal with too.
Sorry for the long thread girls, just needed to get it off my chest xx