Awww you know what i forgot i posted that and read your replies and was like "huh, why is everyone giving me hugs" lol!!
Had to read back!!
Thanks girls, its great to have your support here...
We won't be going to the chemist, but judging by the lack of bfps in the past 6 months i won't need to stress about it too much.
I do feel that once i start the anxiety counselling, and find a reiki healer to help, and hopefully get some miscarriage counselling that by body will start to repair itself, and the excess weight will go and the happy healthy Hayley i once knew will re-appear (gradually of course)
And then cos my body and mind are ready it will happen, but i'm starting to believe that my BFP won't happen now until my body has sorted itself out.
So we still won't be TTC but we won't be preventing cos i believe that my body is going to tell me when i'm ready.
If its okay with you girlies i'll stick around though cos Dr said that she still wants me charting so we can see whats going on there!!
Hope you guys don't mind??
xox