Chinese Accupuncture

[Irish_eyes]

Oh and I find that having a journal on here helps especially if I need to go back and look up something. I also go back sometimes to look at my state of mind especially during my IVF process. One thing I do notice is that all the friends that I made around the first days of TTC or even in the later stages with LTTTC have all gotten pregnant and are not around as often. Don't know why I needed to mention that but I do feel as if I am the only one left and its just not working for me.

 

[Irish_eyes]

Oh and forgot to tell you that I have started taking 300mg of Ubiquinol.

 

[alison29]

I don't think i am supposed to post links here but my friend had to talk to a counsler because they are using a donor and the counselor suggested "Circle bloom" for fertility mind/ body meditation. They have a free download and some other more involved down loads that you can buy.

 

[kits]

Going to try to post without passing out. I'm so, so, sooooo exhausted!

 

[kits]

Heya ladies, sorry but this month is way too crazy. I always go a bit mental in June. We tend to have about 20 product launches at work, actually do stuff for my birthday then it's oh's birthday plus there's the world cup which means I've made 50 pulled sandwiches & 100 buffalo wings to give away during the England matches for free. Then I attempted to do a 20 milles / 20 pubs charity event this weekend. Luckily we had to come back to work so we only ended up doing 14 miles. It was still brutal. And also adjusting to new ACU

I'm exhausted

Blythe, have you had a response from the clinic yet? Even if you don't hear back I'm sure it helped get a bit off your chest. Or at least I hope it did. I'm really glad your ACU believes it should have worked & I can't help but have hope that you just might conceive naturally. How long will it take your hubby to recover? Fingers crossed for both!!

Not heard of east pray love but I'll keep an eye out for. I watched what to expect when you're expecting as it was on TV last night.. Meh, it was alright.

Briss, how long have you been with Dr e?

Grrr... Zzzzz... I'll try to finish after a little snooze....

 

[Briss]

Irish, I am exactly the same.before joining this thread u was on a couple of others but everyone got pregnant in the end so I was left alone. So sad.

My doc books me for a session every 2-3 weeks. He only works Tuesdays and Thursdays so not much to chose from.

I an getting annoyed with my book its called conquering infertility mind/body guide to enhancing fertility and coping with infertility. First of all the author constantly refers to us as infertile women.I mean if you keep calling smb infertile 10-20 times per page surely by the end of the book that will be in imprinted on their mind. Also she offered an exercise on cognitive restructuring which made me terribly depressed.ended up crying. She used a statement "if you can't have a biological child you are a worthless failure" as an example to show it's false. You are asked to consider 4 questions. 1 does this thought contribute to your stress. Obviously. 2 where did you learn this thought. And here I realised that the author only considered very limited interpretation on the statement cos her answers include: your mother believes her only value comes from raising children or your husband only judges your success by whether you have children. What nonsense!! How about most human beings have biological or genetic need to procreate to leave something behind when you are gone. Fear of death is another one that cones to mind. Dying childless must be more traumatic. The author does not seem to get it. It upset me that she would think women who TTC are so shallow that having a child is their only way to validate their existence. 3 is this thought logical? Of course it bloody is logical cos it is not just the end of your life it's the end of your entire genetic line basically everyone who lived before you and who contributed to what you are! How is this not logical? 4 is this thought true? She concludes no because there are other means to parenthood. Is she stupid? How raising smb else s child helps with extending your line and making sure you and your parents continue?

Maybe this cognitive stuff just does not work for me or the truth is if this is so important for me why am still with my dh than just moving to single mum donor sperm route..

Dh said it's ironic that book that is supposed to help with stress is actually the source of my stress at least today. I woke feeling happy and ended up crying and feeling depressed after reading it...

 

[kits]

Never got up again last night, I was so exhausted

Briss, that sounds like a pretty horrible book, I don't think I would've had a different reaction. I think her method is very flawed and can't help but wonder if she herself has any children.

I didn't realise you had a longing to continue your bloodline so much. I don't have that now so much, I think it'd be a damn shame if we didn't but at least I know it's pretty covered from both sides. However, I felt a really strong obligation to that in my previous relationship so I can relate. I didn't realise others felt it. He was the last of a strong & supposedly historical Scottish bloodline. Looking back I'm pretty glad we didn't have kids, they're not the best of humans & have very bad attitudes and views.

It sounds like that book is having a negative affect instead of a positive one do you think you'll keep reading it?

Irish, I noticed that on other boards too & yea it does seem so sad. To be honest I can't seem to relate too much with other boards so I'd like to think I'd stay on this one, sans gloating. Tbh, I'd be too freaked out and would just want to stay within this comfort zone. Anything else I need to release or vent shall go on my journal.

Thanks Allison, going to look into circle bloom when I get some time

So I've been feeling a lot better as a whole (even if exhausted). AF hasn't come but at last I was a bit more prepared because last time I had a chemical AF was 3 weeks late & it looks like that's where I'm at now. Which I'm OK with, guess I just need that extra time to heal.

I also think I've been able to 'let go'. It's mainly because I've been so distracted with everything else & the fact that I'm Gemini I think. Maybe even my ACU has helped to. I definitely don't care any less, nor do I want children any less... Farther from the truth. Still want them dearly!!! But I'm not going to let it get me down at all. I've let myself get pretty unhealthy these past few weeks & its time to get healthy & happy again. If I were a zygote, that's the environment I'd most like to thrive in

So no more opk, for sure. Still temping & checking cm but it's purely for data collection. Definitely not going to think twice about it.

I have my Chinese herbs recipe, I'll type it out soon in case can't are curious. I do like my new ACU, I get the massage & heat lamp which feels so nice.

I'm also eating by this rule 'if it can run, walk, fly, swim or is green' then I'll eat it. As long as it's from a grass fed local farmer/butcher or organic. It's very paleo like but a bit more. I'll talk more about this soon, still gathering all info. But this to help body & state of mind.

Time for breakfast now!

Lots of love & ladies!!!!!

 

[kits]

OK, here are my Chinese herbs. She told me they're to help with sad & down, bring on AF , overall nourishment.

13.06.14
Sheng di, shan zhu yu, shan yao, fu ling, Tao ren, Hong hua, yi mu cao, chuan xiong, chi shao, Dan shen, xiang fu zi, zhi mu, Huang bai, chai hu.

20.06.14
Then she added the following (to the formula above) because she said my tongue was a bit greasy which she said indicated dampness
Niu zhen zi, xuan shen

I've gotten used to the taste but it's still not pleasant.

For breakfast I had 2 scrambled eggs & prawns. I would've thrown spinach in but I ran out. I had prawns because they were there. I made chicken fillets for lunch.

I need to eat every 3 hours, which means the 3 meals with snacks in between. But breakfast is the largest meal, lunch is medium & dinner is smallest. For snacks I'm only going to have one of these: carrots or broccoli with hummus (all of it organic or from local farm), nuts, rice cakes or organic yoghurt.

These don't exactly, fly, swim or run, etc. But they're very good snacking options.

The ultimate goal with this is to have a happy life, so I'm really looking forward to it

 

[alison29]

I love your post kit it's so positive! Yes the goal is to be healthy and happy. I have been snacking on rice cakes with natural peanut butter quite a lot. Still going gluten free.
Briss that book does sound terrible, I wouldn't read it anymore if I were you.

 

[kits]

Thanks Allison

Please understand, i'm not trying to push my views or say that I'm better in any way shape or form, I'm just letting you know what's working for me!

Lots of

 

[gingmg]

Blythe- funny that you are going to start 'Eat, pray, love'. We are away on a beach vacation this week and that's the book I brought. Always had meant/wanted to read it, but never had. No time like the present.

 

[Blythe]

gingmg - I'm really enjoying it have a lovely break on the beach...me jealous no :wink wink:

 

[Irish_eyes]

Briss that book sounds horrible.

Kits I love your positivity. I really hope that the eat health works for you. I tried to do the eat clean diet last year (6 meals a day) but find it tough as my DH is nowhere near a healthy eater and since I do the cooking all the time nights off with a takeaway is bliss although I have been gluten free for nearly a month now and coping ok. I am also doing slimming world, I don't have much to lose but just half a pound off losing a stone.

 

[kits]

Thanks Irish trying to be positive, but it isn't always easy. Last night I got pissed off at my oh because he hadn't showered.

Loosing fat will definitely be an awesome bonus as my belly keeps expanding, but this is to mainly bring some balance to my hormone & energy levels. At nights I just crash & during the days I'm exhausted all the time.

This is to help release the right energies at the right times. We shall see. But I think & feel like I have a MAJOR hormone imbalance which is what's causing my baby making issues. And I don't think it's fair to purely invest on the ACU when the rest of my life & nutrition isn't great.


Good luck ladies

 

[kits]

Have a brilliant time on your beach holiday ging, thanks again for all your advice!!!

 

[kits]

Grrrrrr.... Just lost my post

 

[kits]

OK, retyping.

Ladies, i'm totally freaking out!!! Don't know what to do, didn't expect this at all : panic: : panic: where's the panic smiley???!

Got a bfp this morning with fmu. I have no idea why I tested, but I did anyhow & it showed bfp! Like within a minute.

But I'm freaking out!!!! I've been taking Chinese herbs & ACU to bring on AF and it's been so long after so many bfn's?!?! We barely had sex. I mean when on earth could it even have conceived?? In fact I argued over that just last night with oh, lack of bd'ing.

My chart is so whacko.

Plus I've abused my body a bit, I've been tipsy a couple of times & not to mention the 20 miles, 20 pubs crawl I did last weekend. Where I had cider for breakfast! It was an intense trek, my muscles were sooo sore i took a freezing cold bath. That must've frozen it!!

My spinning couldn't have helped.

Freaking out.. It's Sunday so no chance of doctor.

Spoiler

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[Blythe]

congratulations kits..i was looking at your chart recently and wondering where that positive test was going to show!!!

Seriously stop stressing - that is far more harmful than a few pints, some exercise and gentle Chinese herbs! honestly that stuff does not really matter...if you were knocking back tequila shots from 12 weeks onwards then that might cause a problem...

you deserve heeps of happiness and I'm so happy to read your post this morning - well done mrs

 

[Briss]

Kits, I looked at your chart but its so weird not sure what to make of it. Its possible your body was trying go o several times but in the end managed to actually o on CD 15 or cd 26 even. Really hard to say. Any chance you can do blood test tomorrow to check your beta levels? Re drinking etc I am sure it was too early to have any effect on the embryo just try to stick to healthy stuff going forward. Things that supposed to bring on AF do not usually work anyway. Praying for your healthy bean. I so hope this is it for you.

 

[Blythe]

Briss - have you been on holiday? if so how was it? how was the food etc