Blythe, I agree, particularly with chinese herbs we have no idea what we are taking and how it affects our bodies, just have to hope for the best really. but after dr Z's comment and having really bad acne all along until I stopped the herbs, I am so uncomfortable going back on herbs. It took me 6 months to research coq10 and get comfortable with the dosage. I cant say I see any effect but again I am sure it is making me younger although I do get more grey hair every month, I am now so grey it's embarrassing if I do not have time to dye them. the only doc that paid any attention to me getting grey prematurely was the very first doc who got me bruised. I am actually thinking about getting back to her more and more. She might have gotten it right in the end but I wont let her touch my tummy she can do whatever she wants to the rest of my body.
about being fit, that's the thing because I've been in this state of mind that I am about to get pregnant I felt like I have to sacrifice my body to make this happen. but obviously pregnancy is not happening. I am getting used to feeling hungry most of the time, had yogurt for dinner last night

no chocolate or any additional sugar all day! am having black sweet coffee for breakfast with nothing

I just need to lose 1 st to get back into my normal weight. But obviously I will still be soft until I start exercising. what do you think about cross-trainers in 2WW? I had another session with my physiotherapist and my neck/head pain has disappeared. but she said until I make changes to my posture and become more active and move around a lot I will be getting it back from time to time

I used spend my weekends walking about shops trying and buying things, now I just stay on my sofa. I do manage to save more money that way and I do not need any additional clothes (nothing makes me look good anyway) but I guess it's time to get back on my feet and just walk. My DH's removed most of out TV channels

very cruel way to get me up and running so I have nothing to watch anyway
My DH on the hand took this "raising his testosterone levels" thing really seriously, our flat looks like gym, yesterday he did 4 hours on cross trainer!! and this morning went back to the gym again to carry on. he lifts weight every day and does all sort of exercises. he's beginning to look really good I have to say

but i cant see any improvement in his sex drive though
I am thinking constantly about DHEA because I have DOR but I will raise this with my FS in May and show her my DHEA and testosterone levels hopefully she will be able to advise whether I should take it and how much and for how long. no point asking GP I think, wont be surprised if they have not hear of DHEA and that whole revolution going on out there. I am also concerned that all this publicity about DHEA might be coming from pharmaceutical companies who are sponsoring the research and they do not usually tell you anything about long term side effect and also explain how hormones work. My mum had to go on thyroid hormones for the rest of her life and it changed a lot of things that's when I realised that you cant play with hormone replacements, once your own hormones productions is blocked it might not be possible to restart it. And also with all the stress that I m constantly iunder taking stress hormone like DHEA is a bit scary.
I am also surprised dr Z did not see it might be a problem for smb to pay that much for bloods. the treatment will be costing at least 300+260 a month. i can afford it but just about and not for long. it's the additional cost of bloods that a killer really. and obviously the first appointment was a bit off putting i just have to trust she know what she is doing