Christian ladies TTC, we can encourage one another.

[Godsjewel]

Ok ladies, this will be my last post of the day. We are heading out to San Diego for our vacation and I won't be back until Sunday.

You will still be in my prayers.

Love you all

 

[amee2012]

Hey everyone,

I am a newbie here;in fact i just joined this forum a couple of hours ago and I was browsing through it to find a specific thread for christians and I came across this and I have to say that all of you have such encouraging testimonies to say and reassuring words and I just want to say a thank you
I am actually waiting on my bfp, I have the usual preggo symptoms( sore boobs, on and off nausea,headaches,fatigue) and I am 3 days past my period due date(and I have always been spot on regular with my periods as far as I can remember) and I've had 3 bfn's so far but I am still keeping my hopes up. This will be hopefully be my 2nd pregnancy; I lost the first one in march when i was just 5 weeks and it was devastating but this time around I am learning to give it all up to His hands and I am so glad to have across this thread. I am now going to sit and read every post on this thread

Welcome!! :wave: we're glad to have you! I'm very sorry to hear about your miscarriage; several of us here share your pain in that. I hope you find encouragement here! We're all waiting on the Lord and thanking Him for His blessings in the meantime

I'm looking to hear a praise report from you soon... I'll be praying for you!

Wow I am beyond touched at the faith and love of Christ that is displayed here. I love how this thread is different in the way that people choose not to focus on the things that bother them but to try and find God's purpose for us in all of this and to give Him all the glory through it all.

Your name is Kim right? I went through almost all of the pages in this thread and lol I hope that doesn't qualify me a stalker..lol... Hi my name is Amy.. Its actually spelt Amee (my parents thought that was cool to have my name spelt like that..lol) My husband and i ..we live in southern california and we have been married for 2 years and 7 months and he is my biggest blessing in life and the love of my life.. I'm hoping to be a regular here because I am truely blessed to have found this group.

 

[amee2012]

Hey everyone,

I am a newbie here;in fact i just joined this forum a couple of hours ago and I was browsing through it to find a specific thread for christians and I came across this and I have to say that all of you have such encouraging testimonies to say and reassuring words and I just want to say a thank you
I am actually waiting on my bfp, I have the usual preggo symptoms( sore boobs, on and off nausea,headaches,fatigue) and I am 3 days past my period due date(and I have always been spot on regular with my periods as far as I can remember) and I've had 3 bfn's so far but I am still keeping my hopes up. This will be hopefully be my 2nd pregnancy; I lost the first one in march when i was just 5 weeks and it was devastating but this time around I am learning to give it all up to His hands and I am so glad to have across this thread. I am now going to sit and read every post on this thread

Welcome, I'm so glad you found this thread

I pray the Lord touches you and brings you your hearts desire in His perfect timing.

Thank you Sarah!! Lol again I hope I'm not coming across a creeper but i just had to sit and read through this entire thread and I think I pretty much know everyone on here I think you can tell by now that I find the smileys here extremely cute and i just want to use them all at a stretch..lol
But first of all I want to thank you for starting this thread and for your tremendous faith and love for God. My name is Amy and my husband and I live in Southern california and we have been married for 2.5 years and lol I still act like I have a high school crush on him..lol...He is my greatest blessing

 

[amee2012]

I thought this verse might encourage some of you here. I was reading the book of Philippians in the morning and this verse stood out :

Philippians.4:6,7 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything , by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, that transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

Good night everyone! Have a blessed day tomorrow.

 

[xxx_faithful]

Ok ladies, this will be my last post of the day. We are heading out to San Diego for our vacation and I won't be back until Sunday.

You will still be in my prayers.

Love you all

What a coincidence - you will be in my prayers too!! hahaha. Have fun precious!
I always look forward to your wisdom and encouragement you amazing woman.

Xoxox

 

[HisGrace]

I recently started listening to Priscilla Shirer’s book The Resolution for Woman and I today I got to a chapter on contentment. I had been struggling with this before, but this really puts things in perspective for me. It’s a balance.

From the book:

Contentment is the equilibrium between the enjoyment of life now and the anticipation of what is to come. Contentment serves as a guard against desires gone wild. It is the key to unlocking you from the bondage of unrestrained longing that wells up within your heart and inevitably begins to control your life making you a slave to what you don’t have instead of a fully engaged participant with what you do. It is the faith filled belief that what God has bestowed now is worthy of gratitude and appreciation, not merely because it is enough but because it is good. By choosing contentment, you’re not getting rid of your desires; you are just demanding that they assume an appropriate humble position in your life. Not bossing you around like a tyrannical dictator forcing you to submit to his ever growing ever and changing list of demands. It means you no longer allow your yearnings and aspirations to control you and rob from you the full use of and gratitude for what you’ve currently been given leaving you unable to enjoy “this” because He hasn’t seen fit yet to give you “that”… Contentment keeps your mind clear, peaceful, settled, undisturbed. Happy to be “here” and, when God determines the time is right, happy to be “there”. It’s a resolution to be satisfied.

I am really enjoying this book, but I am going to have to order the actual book (instead of the audio book) because there are so many things I want to highlight and go back to. I don’t know why I thought I could do the audio book.

 

[PrincessBree]

I recently started listening to Priscilla Shirer’s book The Resolution for Woman and I today I got to a chapter on contentment. I had been struggling with this before, but this really puts things in perspective for me. It’s a balance.

From the book:

Contentment is the equilibrium between the enjoyment of life now and the anticipation of what is to come. Contentment serves as a guard against desires gone wild. It is the key to unlocking you from the bondage of unrestrained longing that wells up within your heart and inevitably begins to control your life making you a slave to what you don’t have instead of a fully engaged participant with what you do. It is the faith filled belief that what God has bestowed now is worthy of gratitude and appreciation, not merely because it is enough but because it is good. By choosing contentment, you’re not getting rid of your desires; you are just demanding that they assume an appropriate humble position in your life. Not bossing you around like a tyrannical dictator forcing you to submit to his ever growing ever and changing list of demands. It means you no longer allow your yearnings and aspirations to control you and rob from you the full use of and gratitude for what you’ve currently been given leaving you unable to enjoy “this” because He hasn’t seen fit yet to give you “that”… Contentment keeps your mind clear, peaceful, settled, undisturbed. Happy to be “here” and, when God determines the time is right, happy to be “there”. It’s a resolution to be satisfied.

I am really enjoying this book, but I am going to have to order the actual book (instead of the audio book) because there are so many things I want to highlight and go back to. I don’t know why I thought I could do the audio book.

Hope this comes out ok as typing on iPhone 4 da first time lol anyhow I love Priscilla I have her book life interrupted life its about wen u try to map out ur life and then bam u get thrown a curve ball and God interrupts ur plan with His she speaks of her miscarriage too so it's easy to relate to I def wanna get the resolution have u seen the film which the book is based on?courageous I think it was.called

 

[wristwatch24]

I just wanted to come in and say hello to everyone and that I'm praying for you all. Love this thread. It makes me feel at peace.

 

[prayingtogod]

Hi Ladies,

I am just stopping back to check on you and to let you all know I am praying for you. Remember God is still in charge. I pray that he blesses you soon.

 

[HisGrace]

Hope this comes out ok as typing on iPhone 4 da first time lol anyhow I love Priscilla I have her book life interrupted life its about wen u try to map out ur life and then bam u get thrown a curve ball and God interrupts ur plan with His she speaks of her miscarriage too so it's easy to relate to I def wanna get the resolution have u seen the film which the book is based on?courageous I think it was.called

I will have to get that book. I read a Jewel in His Crown back in my single days and I never went back to her books for some reason. She spoke at an event here in Houston recently and I looked her up again. I really enjoy her messages. My friends and I are going to start a women's bible study group and one of her Bible Study guides will be our first book.

I've never seen the movie, maybe we will get it on Netflix and check it out next weekend.

 

[xxx_faithful]

Hi Girls, how are we all doing this cycle? As i continue to progress through my pregnancy (thankyou Jesus) I thought I would continue to share with you some personal revelations happening in my pregnancy journey. I hope you all don’t mind my honestly, afterall we are all sisters enduring the same pain. Honesty is where the heart is, and is where it all counts

I wrote this story addressed to my sister in law (she in fact to this day, knows nothing of my infertility nor the fact I am pregnant again). She is 15yrs older than me and has suffered 4.5yrs of infertility, however just recently giving birth to a miracle baby girl (she had 1% chance of conceiving naturally). We haven’t always seen eye to eye on various levels, so this story is a testimony in itself.


To my sister in law,

Sorry I wasn't everything you had wanted me to be. Sorry I wasnt there like you needed someone to.
When Dr's told you there was no hope, when your womb was empty. My understanding could of gone a long way.
I watched you on the side line, resisting defeat, test after test you refused to listen to reality, in retrospect you re-created your own.
When I would foolishly speak of having a family of children with your brother, oh how it would of broken your heart, I'm sorry for that.
Through your pain you taught me to say no to people's no's. You taught me that if a miracle can happen to someone, then a miracle can happen to you. You taught me to fight although noones cheering, you taught me to smile when no one can hear you cry. You lastly taught me to let go, let go the grip of control and breath.

You see not all that long ago I would of not understood the pain, I would of quickly told you to stay strong, take your mind off of it and give it to God. I would of had no emotion to Dr's diagnosing a woman's fertility as somewhat less than perfect. I would of turned a naive eye to woman having difficulty conceiving putting it down to how many birthdays they've had as being the problem.

How wrong could I have been. God tests the hearts of every one of us. Whether you've known him as a dedicated child of God, or never stood in the face of true merciful love. Life does not pick and choose hearts, nor does it pick a particular age or is more lenient depicting what you've already endured.
But what I am sure of is God has the amazing ability to give us exactly what we need, when we need it, while in the midst of the pain. That perfect moment, another woman's testimony, coming across an encouraging forum, a vision, a moving scripture, a woman in your life who has been in the exact place where you are now standing.

That my dear friend is no coincidence. It is part of his marvellous plan to build connection with one another. We share the same pain, just maybe not at the same time.

I have now stood where you were standing, and I am proud to say, that you are more brave then I could ever have given you credit for. You suffered but I can now see the blessing in your arms. How lucky am I to have met you.


xxx_faithful

 

[BRK06]

Ok ladies, this will be my last post of the day. We are heading out to San Diego for our vacation and I won't be back until Sunday.

You will still be in my prayers.

Love you all

If you happen to pop in during your vacation, I hope you're having a great time Sarah!! See you when you get back

 

[BRK06]

Hey everyone,

I am a newbie here;in fact i just joined this forum a couple of hours ago and I was browsing through it to find a specific thread for christians and I came across this and I have to say that all of you have such encouraging testimonies to say and reassuring words and I just want to say a thank you
I am actually waiting on my bfp, I have the usual preggo symptoms( sore boobs, on and off nausea,headaches,fatigue) and I am 3 days past my period due date(and I have always been spot on regular with my periods as far as I can remember) and I've had 3 bfn's so far but I am still keeping my hopes up. This will be hopefully be my 2nd pregnancy; I lost the first one in march when i was just 5 weeks and it was devastating but this time around I am learning to give it all up to His hands and I am so glad to have across this thread. I am now going to sit and read every post on this thread

Welcome!! :wave: we're glad to have you! I'm very sorry to hear about your miscarriage; several of us here share your pain in that. I hope you find encouragement here! We're all waiting on the Lord and thanking Him for His blessings in the meantime

I'm looking to hear a praise report from you soon... I'll be praying for you!

Wow I am beyond touched at the faith and love of Christ that is displayed here. I love how this thread is different in the way that people choose not to focus on the things that bother them but to try and find God's purpose for us in all of this and to give Him all the glory through it all.

Your name is Kim right? I went through almost all of the pages in this thread and lol I hope that doesn't qualify me a stalker..lol... Hi my name is Amy.. Its actually spelt Amee (my parents thought that was cool to have my name spelt like that..lol) My husband and i ..we live in southern california and we have been married for 2 years and 7 months and he is my biggest blessing in life and the love of my life.. I'm hoping to be a regular here because I am truely blessed to have found this group.

No worries, stalk away!! Yes, I'm Kim and I'm glad to meet you! I really like the smileys too I came across this group shortly after Sarah started it and it has been a tremendous source of encouragement and comfort to me! It's helped me to shift my focus back to the Lord and what I can do for Him instead of obsessing so much about TTC. I still think about it a lot, don't get me wrong, but now I'm better at taking everything to God in prayer instead of getting upset with my husband because he's rolling his eyes at something I've already repeated a million times!
I think he was ready to drop me off at the psych ward lol

So, you know just about all of us, how about you? What kinds of things do you enjoy? Any fur babies?

 

[BRK06]

I just wanted to come in and say hello to everyone and that I'm praying for you all. Love this thread. It makes me feel at peace.

Hi Sweetie! :wave: How have you been?

 

[BRK06]

Hi Ladies,

I am just stopping back to check on you and to let you all know I am praying for you. Remember God is still in charge. I pray that he blesses you soon.

Hey!! I've been keeping you in my prayers as well! I hope everything is going well for you

 

[BRK06]

I recently started listening to Priscilla Shirer’s book The Resolution for Woman and I today I got to a chapter on contentment. I had been struggling with this before, but this really puts things in perspective for me. It’s a balance.

From the book:

Contentment is the equilibrium between the enjoyment of life now and the anticipation of what is to come. Contentment serves as a guard against desires gone wild. It is the key to unlocking you from the bondage of unrestrained longing that wells up within your heart and inevitably begins to control your life making you a slave to what you don’t have instead of a fully engaged participant with what you do. It is the faith filled belief that what God has bestowed now is worthy of gratitude and appreciation, not merely because it is enough but because it is good. By choosing contentment, you’re not getting rid of your desires; you are just demanding that they assume an appropriate humble position in your life. Not bossing you around like a tyrannical dictator forcing you to submit to his ever growing ever and changing list of demands. It means you no longer allow your yearnings and aspirations to control you and rob from you the full use of and gratitude for what you’ve currently been given leaving you unable to enjoy “this” because He hasn’t seen fit yet to give you “that”… Contentment keeps your mind clear, peaceful, settled, undisturbed. Happy to be “here” and, when God determines the time is right, happy to be “there”. It’s a resolution to be satisfied.

I am really enjoying this book, but I am going to have to order the actual book (instead of the audio book) because there are so many things I want to highlight and go back to. I don’t know why I thought I could do the audio book.

Hope this comes out ok as typing on iPhone 4 da first time lol anyhow I love Priscilla I have her book life interrupted life its about wen u try to map out ur life and then bam u get thrown a curve ball and God interrupts ur plan with His she speaks of her miscarriage too so it's easy to relate to I def wanna get the resolution have u seen the film which the book is based on?courageous I think it was.called

Well said! I think I'm going to look her up too... Thanks ladies!

 

[BRK06]

Hi Girls, how are we all doing this cycle? As i continue to progress through my pregnancy (thankyou Jesus) I thought I would continue to share with you some personal revelations happening in my pregnancy journey. I hope you all don’t mind my honestly, afterall we are all sisters enduring the same pain. Honesty is where the heart is, and is where it all counts

I wrote this story addressed to my sister in law (she in fact to this day, knows nothing of my infertility nor the fact I am pregnant again). She is 15yrs older than me and has suffered 4.5yrs of infertility, however just recently giving birth to a miracle baby girl (she had 1% chance of conceiving naturally). We haven’t always seen eye to eye on various levels, so this story is a testimony in itself.


To my sister in law,

Sorry I wasn't everything you had wanted me to be. Sorry I wasnt there like you needed someone to.
When Dr's told you there was no hope, when your womb was empty. My understanding could of gone a long way.
I watched you on the side line, resisting defeat, test after test you refused to listen to reality, in retrospect you re-created your own.
When I would foolishly speak of having a family of children with your brother, oh how it would of broken your heart, I'm sorry for that.
Through your pain you taught me to say no to people's no's. You taught me that if a miracle can happen to someone, then a miracle can happen to you. You taught me to fight although noones cheering, you taught me to smile when no one can hear you cry. You lastly taught me to let go, let go the grip of control and breath.

You see not all that long ago I would of not understood the pain, I would of quickly told you to stay strong, take your mind off of it and give it to God. I would of had no emotion to Dr's diagnosing a woman's fertility as somewhat less than perfect. I would of turned a naive eye to woman having difficulty conceiving putting it down to how many birthdays they've had as being the problem.

How wrong could I have been. God tests the hearts of every one of us. Whether you've known him as a dedicated child of God, or never stood in the face of true merciful love. Life does not pick and choose hearts, nor does it pick a particular age or is more lenient depicting what you've already endured.
But what I am sure of is God has the amazing ability to give us exactly what we need, when we need it, while in the midst of the pain. That perfect moment, another woman's testimony, coming across an encouraging forum, a vision, a moving scripture, a woman in your life who has been in the exact place where you are now standing.

That my dear friend is no coincidence. It is part of his marvellous plan to build connection with one another. We share the same pain, just maybe not at the same time.

I have now stood where you were standing, and I am proud to say, that you are more brave then I could ever have given you credit for. You suffered but I can now see the blessing in your arms. How lucky am I to have met you.


xxx_faithful

Wow! Such a sweet thing to send to your sister in law! Thank you for sharing that and her testimony-another example of how our Mighty God is not limited by our bodies or what the doctors say!! Praise God for both your miracles I've been praying for you too... I'm glad you're well!

 

[BRK06]

On the way to work, I saw these words written on a sign at a local church. It said, "Hope Is Real." I thought about it and (needless to say) agreed with the statement. But as I pondered the simple little phrase, I realized that for many people hope is not real. I believe that is one of the most important gifts we can give to another person, the gift of hope.

You see, someone who is hopeless and alone usually cannot help themselves out of their situations. They have a great sense of loss and helplessness. We must come alongside and bring the good news of Jesus Christ and all that He has to offer.

"The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." John 10:10 KJV

One definition for hope is: To look forward to with confidence or expectation. We must bring the Word of God with all its hope to someone who does not know it is real. When we bring hope, we bring life. It is life changing to finally believe again. It is more than just asking God for something we so badly need; we must expect our miracle. Somewhere in the midst of asking, believing, and expecting God to answer, we will find what we are looking for.

"I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living." Psalms 27:13 NIV

I have felt for a long time that the biggest problem we have in the world today is there are so many people who have lost hope. There seems to be so many hurts, problems, sicknesses, troubles, financial woes, family problems, world issues, political concerns, etc. It seems the world has no hope.

Apart from God, it is an awful, hopeless place. But with God's help, we can make it. I want you to know that whatever situation you find yourself in at this moment, there is hope. You may not be able to see or feel the hope, but it is there for you. How do we find the hope? There is only one place where hope can be found, and that is in Jesus Christ.

I did a word search in the Bible for the word 'hope' and found many wonderful passages. They were mostly in Psalms and Proverbs of course. David found himself in situations many times and had to remind himself that Hope is Real. It comes from God. Here are a few of David's prayers to God:
Psalms 39:7 NIV "But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you."
Psalms 42:11 NIV "Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God."
Psalms 25:4-5 NLT "Show me the path where I should walk, O LORD; point out the right road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in you."
Psalms 25:3 NIV "No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame,"
Psalms 33:18 NIV "But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,"
Psalms 119:49 NLT "Remember your promise to me, for it is my only hope."

Trust God. He wants you to trust Him. You need to agree with God about your situation. What does God say about who you are and what His will is for your life? Don't go by your feelings. Instead we should remind ourselves that God only has plans for us that are good. Jeremiah helps us remember what God has to say about us. "For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11 NLT

We do not need to be disappointed and feel alone. We can have hope! God's love in our hearts will ignite the flames of hope we have buried deep inside our hearts. God's Word can encourage us as we read it with great anticipation and faith. Paul writes in Romans these words of encouragement:
Romans 5:5 NIV "And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."
Romans 15:4 NIV "For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope."

Here are a few key scriptures that help us to understand what we need to do. Words like "be strong, take courage, wait, reverently and worshipfully fear God, tarry for the hope, wait patiently for it, and be joyful in hope. They are all action words we need to work on. Read these scriptures out loud during your devotional times. Watch how hope will come alive in your heart as you speak the Word of God over yourself and your situation.

Psalms 31:24 AMP "Be strong and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for and hope for and expect the Lord!"
Psalms 119:74 AMP "Those who reverently and worshipfully fear You will see me and be glad, because I have hoped in Your word and tarried for it."
Isaiah 40:31 NLT "But those who wait on the LORD will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint."
Romans 8:24b, 25 NIV " But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently."
Romans 12:12 NIV "Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer."

I don't want this to be just another devotional. I want it to bring life to you. Pray out loud the words of hope into your life and your situations. I have hope! My hope is in the Lord! I will be strong and wait on the Lord. I trust God with my life and the life of my family. Speak these words every day. Hope Is Real. It comes from God! He has placed it in your heart. Speak it out and watch what God will do for you.

Romans 15:13 "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

What is your need today? Is it for a financial blessing, healing in your body, a new job, a house or car, etc? Whatever it is, take it to Jesus today. Is there someone in your life today that needs encouraging? Speak the Words of hope that bring life. Hope Is Real, just try it. ~Martha Noebel

 

[lilyV]

Hi Girls, how are we all doing this cycle? As i continue to progress through my pregnancy (thankyou Jesus) I thought I would continue to share with you some personal revelations happening in my pregnancy journey. I hope you all don’t mind my honestly, afterall we are all sisters enduring the same pain. Honesty is where the heart is, and is where it all counts

I wrote this story addressed to my sister in law (she in fact to this day, knows nothing of my infertility nor the fact I am pregnant again). She is 15yrs older than me and has suffered 4.5yrs of infertility, however just recently giving birth to a miracle baby girl (she had 1% chance of conceiving naturally). We haven’t always seen eye to eye on various levels, so this story is a testimony in itself.


To my sister in law,

Sorry I wasn't everything you had wanted me to be. Sorry I wasnt there like you needed someone to.
When Dr's told you there was no hope, when your womb was empty. My understanding could of gone a long way.
I watched you on the side line, resisting defeat, test after test you refused to listen to reality, in retrospect you re-created your own.
When I would foolishly speak of having a family of children with your brother, oh how it would of broken your heart, I'm sorry for that.
Through your pain you taught me to say no to people's no's. You taught me that if a miracle can happen to someone, then a miracle can happen to you. You taught me to fight although noones cheering, you taught me to smile when no one can hear you cry. You lastly taught me to let go, let go the grip of control and breath.

You see not all that long ago I would of not understood the pain, I would of quickly told you to stay strong, take your mind off of it and give it to God. I would of had no emotion to Dr's diagnosing a woman's fertility as somewhat less than perfect. I would of turned a naive eye to woman having difficulty conceiving putting it down to how many birthdays they've had as being the problem.

How wrong could I have been. God tests the hearts of every one of us. Whether you've known him as a dedicated child of God, or never stood in the face of true merciful love. Life does not pick and choose hearts, nor does it pick a particular age or is more lenient depicting what you've already endured.
But what I am sure of is God has the amazing ability to give us exactly what we need, when we need it, while in the midst of the pain. That perfect moment, another woman's testimony, coming across an encouraging forum, a vision, a moving scripture, a woman in your life who has been in the exact place where you are now standing.

That my dear friend is no coincidence. It is part of his marvellous plan to build connection with one another. We share the same pain, just maybe not at the same time.

I have now stood where you were standing, and I am proud to say, that you are more brave then I could ever have given you credit for. You suffered but I can now see the blessing in your arms. How lucky am I to have met you.


xxx_faithful

great letter, I hope you can share it with her one day

 

[Mummy_2_One]

Hi ladies,

Thank you all for your contributions to this amazing thread. I don't post often, but I do keep up with everything that's written and I just need you all to know how positive an influence this thread has been.

I had a really hard time last month accepting that my period had arrived and yet again I was disappointed by not having fallen pregnant. I already have a beautiful 2 year old, and for some reason the 'gap' between her and our next baby really bothered me since losing our second and third pregnancies to MC earlier this year. I FINALLY after much soul searching gave that all to God a few weeks ago though, and I don't think I'll ever forget the moment when on explaining all of that to my husband and telling him I'd decided 'who cares when it happens! it'll all be in God's time and he knows best!' - he HIGH FIVED me! I'd arrived in the place where he had been comfortably sitting for MONTHS. God has this under control! Who are we to fret over timing?!?

So I'm now in the TWW, and it feels different. Not so much my body or my 'symptoms', but my attitude and my emotions. Last month I prayed speciafically right from the time of O through to my period arriving specifically for all the functions of ovulation; for the health of my egg, DH's sperm, for my uterine lining, for hormone levels etc etc. And I'm not going to say that there was anything wrong with that, but I just don't think I can do that to myself this time, and I've told God that. I just had to tell Him that I can't pray so confidently about a life that I'm not even sure exists, just to be devistated when my period arrives and I realise I was in denial about what my body was doing for the past 2 weeks. I'm praying instead out of absolute honesty about my fears and doubts, but also my desire to have another child and in trusting that He's 'got this' (you've 'got this' God!).

Thank you to HisGrace for that quote from the book you're listening to. I'd been thinking along those lines this week anyway as I consider another child potentially joining our family vs months or years more of waiting. Do I want to spend that time wasted being consumed completely by the process? What about the amazing husband and child I've ALREADY been blessed with? I now desire to be the best wife and mother I can be and leave the blessing of another child to God. It seems wrong of me to desire so badly another baby that I lose sight of the 'baby' I have in my home and neglect to hold her tenderly in my arms every chance I get. I have been so cranky (hoping it's a pg symptom), but I'm so sick of taking it out on this beautiful little person I've been entrusted with...

So (wow, I didn't think this post would turn out this way...) will you pray for me ladies? That rather than seeking to be blessed again with a new life, I'll embrace the wonderful blessings that are already right in front of me? I want to love my daughter with the deepest kind of motherly love, and have no regrets. I believe I am a great mother, but I know I could be more patient and affectionate, and stress I've undergone lately has seen me lose sight of what I really want. I want another child who I can love with every part of me, and I want to first do that WELL with my daughter.