When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you.
For I am the LORD your God,
The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
Isaiah 43:2-3
As Christians, I think we somehow believe that we should be immune to experiencing problems, trials, or tragedylike infertility. The bible tells us that these trials shape us, refine our character, discipline us, and strengthen our faith. I believe true peace comes not in the absence of trials, but in knowing (heart knowledge vs. head knowledge) God will carry us through and knowing He is with us every step of the way. The only way to know this is to walk through fire and water with Him.
Through my journey with infertility, I imagine myself walking through a river or a lake with water up to my neck. The water has not overflowed; its not over my head. However, any body of water with a current moving through it can be hard to navigate by foot. It gets harder and harder to keep my feet on the bottom and control where I want to go. At some point I must make a choice: either pick up my feet and relax, and let the current carry me downstream, or continue to struggle and fight my own way downstream. The Lord has promised us He will be with us and the waters will not overtake or overflow us. The waters are sometimes deep, have a swift current, or even rocks or other obstacles. However, if we give up control, we will pass through safely. I believe water trials are a test of our faith.
When I face the inevitable decisions entangled in the infertility journey, I often imagine Im in a burning forest. The path may be clearly marked but all I can see for miles around are flames, smoke, and smoldering embers. The only way to get through is one step at a time. Im hot and sweaty. My nose and throat sting from the smoke. Im tired and thirsty. Visibility is limited. I have a choice: I can give up and quit because I cant see where Im going, and the journey is too hard, or I can press on forward, one step at a time. The Lord again has promised us that He will be with us. We may not get burned, but well feel the heat. We may not get scorched, but well smell the smoke. We must press on if we are to get out of this burning forest (building?). I believe Fire trials are a test of endurance.
God is with us during our fire and water trials, even the trials involving the creation of our families. We need to accept the fact that we may get wet and feel the heat. But we will not drown or get burned. God is sovereign. When I get through these trials, my hope is that Ill be changed more into Christs image and my character more like His.
Jamie Hymel