What do you see when you stare into your own mirror? Do you see yourself as God sees you, or do you see only a life impacted by infertility? If there was ever anyone who did not see himself as God did, it had to be Moses.
If you could stare deeply into Moses mirror, what do you think youd see?
Moses must have seen a person forgotten by God. Gods hand was heavily on him in the beginning. Gods protection was evident as Moses was adopted into the royal family, rather than being slaughtered as other Jewish boys. Raised in luxury, he surely felt he had a charmed life, but one wrong decision changed it all. Moses murdered an Egyptian and was forced into hiding. He had moved from the palace to the backside of the desert. He lived a seemingly meaningless life for 40 years, and never heard from God until a burning bush broke the silence. The royal life he once enjoyed had been replaced by bleating sheep and burning desert sand. Surely there were times when he thought back to the servants he once pitied. After all, he had been more blessed than they. Now he would gladly trade places with them to find himself in the luxuries of the palace rather than the harsh realities of his existence.
Look into your own mirror. Do you see a woman forgotten by God? You know that God was once involved with your life. His hand was evident in leading you to your spouse, your career. You found favor everywhere you went, and you knew you had the charmed life. Then one diagnosis changed it all. Perhaps youve moved from the carefree life of a blushing bride, to the backside of the desert of infertility. You think back to all the people you once secretly pitied for not having a life as blessed as your own. Amazingly, you now wish you could have the luxury of their lives as parents, rather than living the harsh reality of your own existence.
Moses must have seen a life scarred by wasted chances, incompetencies and excuses.
God saw the deliverer of Israel.
In Moses desert experience, God spoke and the future changed. Remember that it was a lonely, despised shepherd who God chose to deliver Israel, not the the pampered son of a Pharaoh. God brought Moses to the desert to teach him things he could never have learned in the palaces of royalty.
Who knows what God is doing in your desert! Moses must have surely seen his desert days as worthless, wasted time. God saw it as a training ground for the deliverer of Israel. There must be days when you see your days in the desert of infertility as worthless, wasted time. Perhaps God sees it as your training ground. You are creating your testimony! Somewhere today is a young woman who doesnt even yet realize that infertility will become the central focus of her world. Perhaps she is a teenager who hasnt even graduated high school yet. Maybe shell have her first date with her husband this weekend. Maybe she doesnt even realize that someone like her could face infertility--like you. Maybe youre the one who will wrap your arms around her and tell her that she really can survive infertility. The days and months when it seems nothing is happening could be Gods way of preparing you to lead another woman through her own desert of infertility.
But, who am I to help anyone else! I am hardly surviving on my own! Cant God send someone else?
Has anyone ever told you you have an uncanny resemblance to Moses?
Exodus 3:11-12 says
But Moses said to God, Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh, and that I should bring the sons of Israel out of Egypt?
And He said Certainly I will be with you,...
Just as God was with Moses in the loneliness of the desert, and just as God led him as he delivered the children of Israel from Pharaohs hand, God will be with you. With you in the loneliness of a quiet nursery, and with you as you stand one day, leading another woman from the hurt of infertilitys hand. And God with you is enough.
-Beth Forbus
I look forward to hearing about your blessed child someday soon 
Congrats! I pray you have a happy and healthy 9 months!
Any good news would be a welcome surprise. We're so disappointed and heartbroken. AND surprised. We really thought this could be "our turn."
In fact, this morning his first words to me were, "You feel better now that you had a good cry?" 
