Happy Mother’s Day from the Big Island of Hawai’i

I will follow along and root for you and pray. But we are done TTC. I feel heartbroken over this whole thing. This is not how I saw the end of our fertility journey, but here we are. I turned 43 a couple days ago, and I ovulated early and already missed our chance this month… which I guess is fine since I’m sure I’d just have another loss if I conceived anyway. I’ve been horribly depressed and exhausted- maybe perimenopause, maybe hormones from loss after loss after loss after loss, maybe just the abysmal state of my mental health at the moment. Maybe all of it. It’s affecting my marriage and my parenting and I have to figure out how to get myself together. I will probably be getting my tubes tied or removed in the next few months. But I’ll be here and keep you all posted. Sending all the love.