So we had out gender scan and sure enough we have our 3rd boy on the way! I’m ok, a bit taken a back at the thought of 3 boys. Kinda thought we’d maybe get 1 girl amongst 3 children but hey ho, I fully new and accepted it could go either way before we fell preg, guess I just had some hope for a girl even though I was pretty sure it would be a boy, now it’s confirmed there’s no quiet hope in the back of my mind. My worries maybe superficial, my main dread is the comments of other people, I’ll prob just tell family and tell everyone else we’ve not found out to avoid too many daft comments! I feel abit guilty on my family, kinda like I tired for another baby with hope of having a girl and all the extra things and adjustments like nursery costs, probable house move, saving harder for holidays would be worth it if I’d gotten my wish but now we have another boy I feel guilty for this. (Feel awful saying that but I need to get my thoughts out). Having said that my boys both want a brother , but my eldest (just turned 9) was not impressed to be getting either at first but said if he had to choose he would want another brother. My middle (nearly 6) is happy, he wants to be in the middle! Which is a blessing at Least! They don’t know yet, we’re letting them pop a big balloon today to find out so I think they will be happy. My other worry is how will the dynamics be, my 2 boys are great together most of the time, how will the 3rd after a gap effect them, I hope it will be ok. At the end of the day I could not shake the desire for a 3rd baby (it was actually making me crazy the I decisin but not been able to settle with a no decisin after trying so many times) I’d always wanted a slightly bigger family as mine is tiny, I don’t really get on with my mum that much, she can be hard work so I did have worries about having a girl incase it ended up a similar relationship, also didn’t look forward to the teen yrs with a girl. So I don’t know why I felt the want for one at all really, I guess just to experience it and the pressure of others. Hubby didn’t really want another but said he would for me so that’s hard also, he has been great though, even been saying about a 4th since we were first Preg! But I can’t see that happening, mostly with my age, 33 now and costs. I have some thoughts of how things would of been easier to stick with 2 BUT I know I would Of always wondered what might of been and not sure if I’d of gotten over not having another with how I was feeling. And it wasn’t just a few months it was a good couple of yrs of going back and forth trying to decide what to do, it was deffinatley not rushed into and I’d waited until I felt I wasn’t just trying for a girl but there was always that quiet hope in the back of my mind. I just hope we will still manage our holidays, I’ll save harder if I have too, I’d hate for my kids to miss out because I wanted one more, also a holiday to look forward to keeps me sane!