Hi Cuteness,
While I don't have PCOS, I did have a bad delivery and I'm scared of having another c-section. My DD is 18 months and my husband and I just started trying for #2. With DD, I had to be induced at 38 weeks due to preeclampsia. The first half of the induction went well, but then labor stalled and they had to use pitocin. They talked me into getting an epidural when I was still in labor, which I didn't want to do, but agreed only to have it fail, so it was completely useless. My daughter didn't take well to the pitocin and anytime they started it, her heart rate would decel rapidly, so they would stop, then I wouldn't progress. They did this several times until she got too distressed and we had to do an emergency c. I have anxiety and am claustrophobic, so paralyzing me from the waist down and strapping me to a table is practically my worst nightmare. I didn't think I would freak out, but I did. I felt like I couldn't breath at all and was going to die. The anesthesiologist said he could give me something, but it might make me fall asleep, so I refused. I didn't want to miss the birth of my daughter. Well I freaked out too much so he overrode my decision and gave me some sort of sedative anyway. I could barely keep my eyes open when they brought her over for me to see. Then they wouldn't let me hold her until I could wiggle my big toe (I had a spinal block) which took a good 2 hours. All in all, it was an awful experience, not what I had wanted at all. So now, I'm terrified of having to have another c. The hospital closest to me won't even do v-bacs, so I'll need to go to a hospital an hour away. I know even if I try for a v-bac, there's a very good chance it will end in c anyway, so that's scary. Just wanted to let you know you're not alone in that!
