evening girls.
ness - i know how your feeling, we may have a tree but i really am not in the mood for christmas or seeing family or anything, i jsut want this baby to arrive and for it to be out of the way, i am not even excited for the birth. i know i should be but i really cannot be bothered to wait any longer.
Ive got what 1 day till my due day.. and there is no more signs of this bumpy making an appearance. no more show, no more energy no more anything. its all just stopped.
Just wanna cry it out untill it happens. but instead ive a so called "fun filled" xmas to look forward to :/ - urghh
midewifes at 9.30 then, tea at mum n dads tomorra, then late night drinks at home for OH and godfather to be
christmas day - due day, opening prezzies and cooking a meal i wont really wanna eat, then godfather and godmother coming round for drinks again (heaven forbid if i go into labour and my OH is drunk there will be hell to fecking pay) hes also invited a few lads that i really cannot stand.
boxing day - OH's grandma n grandads annual lunch with all the sansome family, everyone getting drunk yet again, more presants and family i really dont want to be around.
then maybe back to normal... but i highly bloomin doubt it, OH will probs want to go get drunk or get drunk.
Ive told him, that if he goes out, gets drunk, then i will not be happy, specially if i go into labour. i also said that if i do go into laboour and he is drunk, i wont be ringing any of his family, i will ring my dad who would be here faster then a sneeze, and leave for hospital without him. if he misses it, its his fault. he shoud have been here sitting this out with me, not having a laugh and a joke while i sit at home bored outta my mind and upset because i cant have a good time.
phew rant over i think :/
still feel really down about all this tho :/