It has been about 3 1/2 months since my miscarriage, and I have been so depressed lately. I try to act like nothing is bothering me, I put on a smile when i'm with my friends. Laugh and joke when I'm with family because no one knows that I lost a baby. I can't tell them because I'm scared that they will be ashamed that I got pregnant in the first place. But lately I've been saying terrible things about myself. How it was my fault that I lost my baby, that if I had just taken a pregnancy test when I thought something was off, and not had drank before knowing that I was pregnant. Is there something I could've done to stop it? Yea when I found out I panicked and got scared. Started telling myself that I wasn't ready to be a mom, that I wouldn't be able to take care of it. Is that why I lost it? I ask myself all these questions and beat myself up because of it. Did I do something to cause my baby to die? Am I a bad person because I drank when I didn't know? I can't keep these things to myself anymore. I need to know that what I'm feeling is normal. And that it will go away, I'm trying to focus on school but in the back of my mind its there. I just don't know what to do. Can someone help me?