Does anyone feel like me...that it will never happen?

[Hope13]

Having a real down day ladies. I just feel it will never happen to me and I can't shake off that feeling. After ovulating cd18/19, I am cd21 and the chronic upper back pain has kicked in....it happens the same day every month. Its so cruel as I know two days after I have ovulated that yet again, I will get lots of bfns. I kid myself oh, it could be high levels of progesterone and i search every internet page on the subject. Sadly, again this month, it is not meant to be. It is so heartbreaking. It is my 2nd wedding anniversary in a couple of weeks and I have dreamt what it would be like to break the news we are expecting a baby over the romantic meal we have planned. In my head. I think I would love to give my husband a card with a positive test enclosed. Daft I know, but it is my dream. Sorry for rant...just need to get it off my chest. xxxxxx

 

[Princess Lou]

Hey,

I understand how you are feeling.

July marked three years of trying for our first for us.

I am on my sixth and final round of Clomid at 200mg and ovulated Friday gone. If this doesn't work I am not sure what to do next. I was told by my FS that Clomid has the highest success rate of all fertility treatments so if doesn't work after six rounds, what chances am I left with?

My husband has been a huge help, especially as everyone around me seems to fall pregnant very easily, even those on contraceptives like my cousin and sister.

We just have to keep believing that one day it will work for us.

Fingers crossed for you. X

 

[dizzyshell]

Totally feel the same i even put up the same thread few months ago .

For me its been 20months and before that 4yrs NTNP different partner thoe.

Yet get this....2006 got pregnant first try in 6weeks NTNP .
So wtf is happing??Im 28 also had every test by FS all good and DH same.

But for some reason i always know deep down inside its never gonna happen , i cant shake that gut feeling.

Im on meds cuz i got bipolar and i believe this isnt helping.

But just wanted to say you're not alone hun .

xx

 

[Hope13]

Hey,

I understand how you are feeling.

July marked three years of trying for our first for us.

I am on my sixth and final round of Clomid at 200mg and ovulated Friday gone. If this doesn't work I am not sure what to do next. I was told by my FS that Clomid has the highest success rate of all fertility treatments so if doesn't work after six rounds, what chances am I left with?

My husband has been a huge help, especially as everyone around me seems to fall pregnant very easily, even those on contraceptives like my cousin and sister.

We just have to keep believing that one day it will work for us.

Fingers crossed for you. X

Thank you for replying Princess. Are you entitled to any further treatments after the Clomid? I have a great hubby too like you and that does ease things a little. You are right, we do have to stay positive and I really hope and pray this cycle you get your BFP you really deserve. Keep us posted how you are and I wish you the very best of luck this cycle. xx

 

[Hope13]

Totally feel the same i even put up the same thread few months ago .

For me its been 20months and before that 4yrs NTNP different partner thoe.

Yet get this....2006 got pregnant first try in 6weeks NTNP .
So wtf is happing??Im 28 also had every test by FS all good and DH same.

But for some reason i always know deep down inside its never gonna happen , i cant shake that gut feeling.

Im on meds cuz i got bipolar and i believe this isnt helping.

But just wanted to say you're not alone hun .

xx

Hi dizzy. I am so sorry you are not pregnant as yet. I know what you mean about that gut feeling. I really hope we are both wrong. Have you spoke to your GP re your meds for bi polar and if it is affecting your chances of conceiving? He might be able to switch your meds? xx

 

[briggle]

Hi, I completely sympathise. Are we gonna be one of life's childless couples? I know my cycles inside out. I know what every single twinge means throughout the month. I haven't even had the pleasure of a bfp, not even a hint. I too fantasise of the different scenarios I tell oh the bfp news and all the events and deadlines for birthdays, holidays come and go. One day it HAS to happen! X

 

[Hope13]

Hi, I completely sympathise. Are we gonna be one of life's childless couples? I know my cycles inside out. I know what every single twinge means throughout the month. I haven't even had the pleasure of a bfp, not even a hint. I too fantasise of the different scenarios I tell oh the bfp news and all the events and deadlines for birthdays, holidays come and go. One day it HAS to happen! X

Hi briggle. I totally understand. I am the same, every little movement inside and i think, is this is? I just feel it is so unfair that I don't even get to experience the 2ww as two days after I ovulate, I get the back pain high up my middle back, then the lower back and hip pain start. Why us is what I ask myself. We so deserve it. xx

 

[briggle]

I know, my sis got pregnant the first night she slept with her boyf. My brother in law has kids dotted around everywhere and doesn't want to know. And here's us hopin, praying, crossing our fingers, trying not to jinx ourselves with pride and modesty on a personal mission to have a family. The best thing is a reply so we know we're not alone thanks x

 

[brittsho]

I know EXACTLY how you feel. We have been trying for about 3 years with no luck. I went through several cycles of Clomid with no ovulating. I am actually scheduled for a uterine septum removal surgery this Friday (I'm very nervous).

Anyway, try to keep your head up. I know how frustrating it can be. My 2 best friends fell pregnant within the first 2 months of trying. I am so happy for them, but oh so envious. I hate that its something you have absolutely NO control over.

Baby Dust to you all!!

 

[ksweet82]

I'm the same way. I've always had this feeling that I would never have kids. Now that I've been trying for 2 or 3 yrs w/ nothing I'm starting to believe it. My progesterone levels have gone down since I started taking clomid. Now I'm just waiting to hear back from my dr to see what we are going to do this time. I've been trying to not think about it and pretend that it doesn't consume my life but truth is it does.
Good luck ladies. Our time will come

 

[Hope13]

Awww thanks for your replies ladies. It really means a lot. I just wish I had a magic wand to wave over us all, we all deserve it so much. The agony, frustration and disappointment each month just cannot be described to anyone who isn't going through what we are. I really really wish we all get pregnant so soon. Everyone that has replied to my post is lovely and you all really deserve it so much. I'm sending each and every one of you a bucket load of baby dust and am hoping a little will fall back on me as I'm throwing the dust your way. xxxx

 

[Hope13]

I know EXACTLY how you feel. We have been trying for about 3 years with no luck. I went through several cycles of Clomid with no ovulating. I am actually scheduled for a uterine septum removal surgery this Friday (I'm very nervous).

Anyway, try to keep your head up. I know how frustrating it can be. My 2 best friends fell pregnant within the first 2 months of trying. I am so happy for them, but oh so envious. I hate that its something you have absolutely NO control over.

Baby Dust to you all!!

Good luck to you brittsho, I really wish you all the best. Thank you for replying. Try to keep your chin up too....sending you lots of baby dust.x

 

[onmymind17]

Yep i know Exactly how you feel, 3 years later, and 4 m/c i am begining to lose hope. Even worse DH and I have decided to give it one more year and then we are done and he will get fixed, we are just getting too old. I have had 5 IUI's and am now out of insurance money, with no way to do any more fertility treatments. I thought we had done it this cycle, but no, stupid af showed up today. Hang in there honey, we just have to tell ourselves we can and WILL do this!!

 

[Princess Lou]

Thank you for replying Princess. Are you entitled to any further treatments after the Clomid? I have a great hubby too like you and that does ease things a little. You are right, we do have to stay positive and I really hope and pray this cycle you get your BFP you really deserve. Keep us posted how you are and I wish you the very best of luck this cycle. xx

If the Clomid doesn't work this cycle then my FS is going to try injections. Not looking forward to it, petrified of them. Lol.

If anything happens, I will keep you informed. X

 

[Tnkrbell15]

Hello all. I am new to the site, and now I don't feel so alone. I am one of those people that have numerous godchildren, but none of my own. I have been trying on and off since I had first gotten married at 19...I am now encroaching on 29. I guess the positive side is that I didn't have children with my now ex-husband. Downside...he remarried 6 weeks after our divorce and has a baby to be born any day now. Upside....I have the man of my dreams...downside...we have been trying to have a baby since we got engaged (yeah, for us the piece of paper doesn't add anything). I have managed to conceive twice in my life...the first was twins but they were ectopic, and the second occurred last December (would have been born July 13th), but m/c (blighted ovum). I also have Endo and PCOS. I have had the ultrasounds, HSG, Clomid, etc... everything shy of actual IVF. Some months I actually cry because I wasn't able to conceive.

I also feel the same pain of watching everyone around me get the BFP...even my (literally) pot and meth head cousins. I guess I have always wondered why those of us who truly want children and would be amazing parents are left barren, while those who can't even take care of a pet rock get pregnant when a guy glances in their general direction. The only semi comforting answer I ever got for this was "If people like you didn't exist, then there would be too many children in orphanages with no one to be willing to adopt them." I admit that it helped for about 30 seconds, but I also know that I really want to experience pregnancy for myself...just once...than I would be more than willing to adopt any and every other addition to our family. Thanks for letting me vent! i have been holding that in for almost 10 years! Best of luck to all of you for a BFP!