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Ever since I was little, I've never been inundated with friends. I was always on the sidelines because I guess I just never really fitted in with the others and although I had a couple of friends, I just seemed to be on my own for most of the time.
I was often seen as weird and a bit kooky and it seemed weird and kooky were not in, as far as friends go kind of thing.
I seem to find it unbearingly difficult to make friends...well...no, making friends I'm good at, it's keeping the friendships going I suck at.
Due to my past history with people being nice to my face and finding out they've done nothing but bitch about me behind my back, I get extremely paranoid that people are doing it again now.
I'm quite opinionated. Things I post on facebook are quite controversial, without me meaning them to be. I just don't really think things through before posting them and sometimes end up landing myself in hot water.
I just wish I wasn't so paranoid because it'd then make me feel that I could relax and enjoy my friendships rather than questioning everything.
If someone can't talk, due to being busy or whatever, again, due to past history of being brushed off because they can't bring themselves to tell me they don't want to talk, I feel all scared and panicked that I've said or done something and they genuinely don't want to talk to me.
What is up with me? I wish to be normal more than anything. I wish to make friends and maintain my friendships without reading so much into things.
I feel like crying, I'm such a freak and no wonder I'm all alone. I live in a new place. I go to the baby group and I feel like they look at me funny. See? Paranoid!! UGHHHH!!!!
Anyone else feel like this? What do I do? I feel like I'm an awful person and will end up like an old woman with a whole heap of cats for company.
I was often seen as weird and a bit kooky and it seemed weird and kooky were not in, as far as friends go kind of thing.
I seem to find it unbearingly difficult to make friends...well...no, making friends I'm good at, it's keeping the friendships going I suck at.
Due to my past history with people being nice to my face and finding out they've done nothing but bitch about me behind my back, I get extremely paranoid that people are doing it again now.
I'm quite opinionated. Things I post on facebook are quite controversial, without me meaning them to be. I just don't really think things through before posting them and sometimes end up landing myself in hot water.
I just wish I wasn't so paranoid because it'd then make me feel that I could relax and enjoy my friendships rather than questioning everything.
If someone can't talk, due to being busy or whatever, again, due to past history of being brushed off because they can't bring themselves to tell me they don't want to talk, I feel all scared and panicked that I've said or done something and they genuinely don't want to talk to me.
What is up with me? I wish to be normal more than anything. I wish to make friends and maintain my friendships without reading so much into things.
I feel like crying, I'm such a freak and no wonder I'm all alone. I live in a new place. I go to the baby group and I feel like they look at me funny. See? Paranoid!! UGHHHH!!!!
Anyone else feel like this? What do I do? I feel like I'm an awful person and will end up like an old woman with a whole heap of cats for company.