Does it get easier once you pass the date you lost your last?

[shocker]

I'm just wondering, for those who have gone past the date they lost their last at does it get easier? does the worry go away? I have been awake until 6am every night this week worrying until I feel physically sick, I have lost absoloutly all pma. I was trying to picture myself with a baby in my arms earlier, and I couldnt, I couldnt picture giving birth, only being wheeled into theatre and coming home empty handed again. Its another 9 weeks before I pass the date that I lost Rowan and as horrible as it sounds I almost wish that if anything were going to go wrong it just would now because i cant bare another minute of this I've tried blocking out the fact that im pregnant, pretending its not happening so that i can get through these few weeks, then I tried getting excited and pretending everything would be fine but I just dont feel like i can do this

 

[Charlotteee]

I was so nervous at the beginning hun, and the father isn't Tom so he didn't really understand my worries as he hasn't suffered a loss, he has 3 healthy children already. I was constantly knicker checking. But when I passed 6 weeks it was such a relief, I was obviously still worried. I called the hospital and said I was getting cramps so I could get an early scan, I saw my boy at 6 weeks, 8 weeks and 12 weeks which helped mentally. But what also helped was I was an emotional wreck when last time I didn't have many symptoms. I hope everything goes smoothly for you hun, you deserve it. I saw it as, there is no point in worrying because it won't change what the outcome will be. Just enjoy it. Easier said than done xx

 

[ericacaca]

Its horrible feeling like this isnt it?

For me, it did get easier once the anniversary passed - only because baby was viable. I was always on edge right up to this date. After 18 weeks (when we lost out last little girl) I had a sense of relief that that was the longest I've been pregnant for.

To be fair though - I'm full term and on edge about the silliest of things. And I know we won't stop worrying about them when they're out in the world either!

Hope things get better for you hun xxx

 

[KatM83]

I feel the same at the moment I started spotting at 9 weeks in Jan the baby had died at 8..im 8 now and it feels like im just waiting...its horrible xxx

 

[beautifuloaks]

we were actually due on st patricks day with my first pregnancy. And this st patricks day I took a test, negative after 6 months of trying. So we went out drinking. A week later. Positive!

It was so hard having my due date come and go. It was devastating watching it come and go. I was lucky I had a light at the end of the tunnel.

As months went by I will say that it got easier to deal with the dissapointment of a negative test.