I had a scan this morning (due to on and off brown spotting) and saw a beautiful baby with a beautiful heartbeat measuring perfectly at 7+5. (Im anywhere between 7+2 and 8 so its spot on). But after losing my son in the second trimester last year I dont have that same sense of relief any more that you get when you see the heartbeat. I was happy and kind of relieved this morning that everything is heading in the right direction, but as the day has gone on the anxiety has just crept back up again. I just hope that everything stays okay. But I cant help but feel naturally scared about this whole thing. My son passed away 2 days after a scan showing him with moving around and being his active self, so I know anything can happen and just because Ive had a good scan today it doesnt mean anything. I know I have to stay positive and I really am trying. I just want to enjoy this pregnancy as it is my last.