Don't know where else to post

[pichi]

i had a chemical pregnancy before having my son in 2012...

well a week ago i found out i was pregnant with #3. This should be a happy time for me but i am feeling so anxious! I have anxiety problems as it is but i'm getting quite worried/anxious that i may suffer another loss.

My first bfp was 13dpo. very faint (not normal for me, usually get a bfp 8dpo...) but on 14 and 16dpo i got 'pregnant 1-2' on a digital. Fantastic! all i need to do now is wait for tests to darken! well, i am now on 20dpo and tests are not getting any darker. I know that everyone says a line is a line and that i should just enjoy this pregnancy but it's so tough especially since it is something that i've been trying for for 6 months (another thing that was different from subsequent pregnancies)

i'm not looking for positive words (although they would be great to here of similar experiences) i just want someone to understand how anxious this time can be. i really feel i can't enjoy it

 

[flou]

I am sure those lines will darken. Just cos they haven't yet doesn't mean that anything is wrong. Getting anxious about pg after loss is definitely nerve racking and perfectly normal. I'm currently 19 weeks pregnant and I still get anxious. Its taken us 3 years of ttc and 2 losses to get this far and I really don't want anything bad to happen to this little one. The anxiety does get easier as my pregnancy progresses but I still have moments. Me and my DH are really open about our feelings and he always manages to calm me down when im having one of my hormone fuelled worry moments. Try and be open with your OH and any family and friends you feel comfortable talking too, it definitely helps.

 

[pichi]

i took another test this morning, i know i shouldn't have but i did and it is darker than my last 3 so i am holding onto hope but my gut tells me not to get excited.

I feel such a selfish woman coming in here too and rattling on about how anxious i feel after having 2 healthy kids too

 

[flou]

When i first found out I was pg and for the whole trimester I couldn't get excited. Everytime I let myself I would stop myself as I was convinced it would end any minute. When I reached the second trimester I began to think there is a good chance that I will deliver a healthy baby next March and I do get excited now and not worry that I am jinxing it. But I do still get anxious and fear the worse.

Try and take each day as it comes. Each day, especially at the start, I would say to myself today I'm pregnant and I am thankful for today. I set little milestones for myself. The first being 6 weeks which is when I had my two mcs. my next milestone is my 20 week scan in just over a week.

Also don't feel bad about the fact that you already have children. Yes you have two healthy children but you have also been through a loss. And I wouldn't wish that on anybody. Pregnancy after loss is a nerve wracking experience and every lady in this forum is going through the same thing. I don't think anyone would think you are being selfish. I have my fx for you for a sticky bean!

 

[pichi]

thank you. i Just can't shake that there is something up! it's a horrible feeling and because this isn't progressing like my 2 sucessful pregnancies my anxiety is at max right now