I broke up with my ex only a week ago, but for the third time. This pregnancy was accidental but a complete blessing, as ive always wanted a daughter and recently found out im having a girl.
When we first met it was a whirl wind romance and he moved in with me and my parents only a couple of months later, when he was asked to leave his friends house. We were both unemployed for a few weeks and in that time we werent getting on well at all, because he was borrowing money off me constantly, in fact he got through 1,300 of my savings in the space of a two months and i think that is an outrageous amount of spending for someone whos not doing much with themselves. It was when he came home drunk and head butted me that i broke up with him. Unfortunately i decided to give him another chance when i found out i was pregnant at 9 weeks. My initial instinct was it would never work, but i didnt want to completely dismiss him, as hes always wanted to be a dad.
However, a week later i was bleeding heavily and in agony, thought i was miscarrying and we got in a huge row because he wanted to go out with a friend rather than take me to hospital, he just lost his temper completely with me. I was living in a flat with his friends at this point and starting to feel very isolated because everyone was smoking in the front room so i chose to sit in my room for the health of the baby. This caused problems for us, as all he wanted to do was get drunk in the frontroom and play on the playstation until 5 in the morning despite having a job to go to. We'd never talk or spend time together.
Over christmas, for three weeks, he spent no time with me and for a week i spent every night crying, and asking him when he was coming to bed because it was the only time i ever get to talk to or hug him. He would get angry and storm back out to the playstation again. Then he started threatening to kick me out on a weekly basis a few months ago, throwing my stuff all over the room, punching walls, slapping me in the face, pressing against my belly, waving his fists around, calling me a slag, tramp, bitch, c***, accusing me of being mental, telling me im going to be a terrible mother etc. Last week he kept me in the room and wouldnt let me out because i told him i wasnt happy in our relationship, he shook me and because i looked confused n hurt, he took it out on the wardrobe, punching it til his fists bled, then telling me "at least i punched the wardrobe and not you!!" but that kind of stress isnt good for me or baby. i told him 5 times in the space of a three and a half hour attack (only word i can find for it) that i was having severe abdominal cramps from the stress and chest pains.
Eventually he let me out, demanding i go and get money before i pack my bags and leave. I called the ambulance and was taken to hospital. He then turned up there and was sweet as pie for a while, took some money off me to get me a snack, but then my brother phoned up to check i was ok and he went ballistic, started shouting abuse at me infront of a whole ward full of women waiting to go in to labour!!! then threatened to kill my brother, took the keys and fled.
Understandably i went back to live with my family the same day.
Now i dont want him to be on the birth certificate incase one of these days he gets spiteful and decides to go for custody. Although we're friends now, he is incredibly temperemental and volatile. I split up with him so our baby girl never has to see us lose our temper with each other. However i do want him to have involvement because it means so much to him.
Because i dont want to put him on the birth cert, i also want my daughter to have my surname. He wont let this happen easily though, he wants to be there for the birth and im happy to have him there, but what happens when i then tell him his name will not be on the birth cert? I have no idea how bad his threats or actions towards me will be.
So i guess im confused as to whether it is a good or bad idea to put him on the birth cert? or even have him at the birth. If i dont put him on the birth certificate does that mean that he cant go to the courts for custody?
Thanks for any help xx