Down, Dumpy and Fed Up!

[oneday38]

Hey ladies,

This is my first real post here (apart from a rant on the rant page &#128540 so I'm hoping I'm posting in the right place!

My husband and I have been NTNP & TTC for almost 5 years with not so much as a glimpse of 2 lines on a test! He's all ok, sperm are slightly low and slow but nothing of great concern and so far so good with the tests that I've had (internal ultrasound, hormone profile) and my periods are textbook, OV on day 15 AF 14 days later!
I have a HSG booked in for 20th June and I'm nervous as I hear it can be a bit painful but hopeful that it might provide some answers! As odd as it sounds, I wouldn't mind the news of blocked tubes, atleast that would explain it!
I'm so so tired of feeling so down about the whole thing, I've tried being patient and positive and hopeful but it's all wearing a bit bluddy thin now!
To top all of my happiness and joy, 6 of my colleagues on my team are currently expecting, 2 of these are my best friends! Ofcourse I am so happy for them (even though one was "an accident" and another conceived on her 2 cycle TTC ) but as you can imagine, the baby chatter is killer!!!

Does anybody have any happy endings or in a similar situation that can offer some advice as to how to keep going?

Thanks ladies xx

 

[MariaIsabella]

Hey ladies,

This is my first real post here (apart from a rant on the rant page &#128540 so I'm hoping I'm posting in the right place!

My husband and I have been NTNP & TTC for almost 5 years with not so much as a glimpse of 2 lines on a test! He's all ok, sperm are slightly low and slow but nothing of great concern and so far so good with the tests that I've had (internal ultrasound, hormone profile) and my periods are textbook, OV on day 15 AF 14 days later!
I have a HSG booked in for 20th June and I'm nervous as I hear it can be a bit painful but hopeful that it might provide some answers! As odd as it sounds, I wouldn't mind the news of blocked tubes, atleast that would explain it!
I'm so so tired of feeling so down about the whole thing, I've tried being patient and positive and hopeful but it's all wearing a bit bluddy thin now!
To top all of my happiness and joy, 6 of my colleagues on my team are currently expecting, 2 of these are my best friends! Ofcourse I am so happy for them (even though one was "an accident" and another conceived on her 2 cycle TTC ) but as you can imagine, the baby chatter is killer!!!

Does anybody have any happy endings or in a similar situation that can offer some advice as to how to keep going?

Thanks ladies xx

So sorry to hear you are struggling. Have not been trying as long as you but after almost 2 years I am loosing my mind sometimes so understand you must be so tired.

I had a similar scan as HSG scan in January ( its called HyCoSy ). Its uncomfortable but over very quickly so its really nothing to about. It showed my tubes were fine but they found polyps and what they though was a fibroid.

Went though a hysteroscopy and the biopsy showed I had hyperplasia. Have been on meds now for almost 6 months and will have another biopsy in July ( hopefully all clear! ). The most frustrating thing for me is that we cant even try now when I am on medication!!! Feels like time is running out ( soon 37) and just so frustrating.

I am also surrounded by pregnant people and my best friend just had twins.

One good story though is a really good friend of mine who has been trying for 5 years just got pregnant naturally and she is 46! I was actually truly happy for her


My point is I completely understand your frustration but hopefully the HSG scan will give some answers so you can move forward.

 

[TTC First]

My story is like yours, it seems so long ago.

We did the NTNP for many years, then tried for about a year. We went to a fertility clinic for help. Tried medication, didn't work. I went through several cycles where I would either hyper stimulate and they cancelled the IUI or I would just have 1 follie and didn't bother with an IUI.
Had a HSG and it came back normal.
First IUI BFN, Second IUI I added progesterone was BFP (singleton) but ended up with a MMC, Third IUI (twins) was also a MMC.
I had the blood work done for reoccurring miscarriage and they said all was normal. They did mention that one of the two blood clotting indicators was just slightly off but that shouldn't be a problem.
I decided to have one last IUI (this was after about a year and a half at a fertility clinic) and decided to add in aspirin in case the clotting was an issue...it worked. I am now 27 weeks pg. My theory is that I need progesterone to get my BFP and aspirin to avoid a mmc.

This may not be the answer for everyone but I can tell you that there are times when you just have tried almost everything. You just need to research and hope you find your answer. I was told by my doctors that my only answer would be IVF and PGS when all I needed to do was take one aspirin a day. Looking back I don't think that IVF and PGS would have avoided a MMC because I believe the issue was the blood clotting. That would have been a major waste of money.

All the best to you!

 

[Ayjay]

hi oneday38 . I'm in the same situation as you - except that my tests haven't even got started. Too much weight. Like you I'm Very down about the whole thing and surrounded by many pregnant people. Some of whom I have watched grow up. My best friend, who is the same age as me, now has 2 grandchildren.... My job doesn't help - no time to eat properly or exercise.

I haven't been on here for a long time but I've come back hoping to find support too. Maybe we can support each other? . Fingers crossed for you on Saturday that your HSG goes smoothly. Last time I was at the clinic my doctor wasn't even talking about that yet so you are a long way in front of me . Hugs from Scotland

 

[jules87]

Like you, DH and I have been ttc/ ntnp for about 5 years. The first 1.5 years we were NTNP, then we were actively ttc for 2 years, for the last 1.5 years we've gone back to NTNP.

I've had a laparscopy, hysteroscopy, and had my tubes & ovaries checked; all looked good minus a little bit of endometriosis which was taken care of the past March.

We are finally coming back around to actively trying during my next cycle.

I completely understand the frustration and hopelessness that comes along with long term ttc. Hang in there! I think that we will find plenty of support here.

 

[mrssawa]

Feeling your frustration...haven't been trying quite as long but feels like it! Trying for 10-11 months, we are both 32...and nothing. I've had my ultrasound and blood tests, and seem to be fine and ovulate regularly. Husband hasn't been tested yet but I suppose that's next. I have 1 caffeine drink per day, but perhaps I should cut that out? And add B6? I do take a multi (pre-natal actually), but perhaps that's not enough?
I also get sore bbs immediately after ovulation until my period, which from everything I've read, is a sign of 'estrogen dominance,' so I ordered some natural progesterone cream to possibly help balance that out. Anyone had experience with that?