driving myself mad!

[onewish]

well this is my first thread iv done so hope im doing it rite but i just hope somebody can shed some light on whats going on an give me ur opinions and i know this sound stupid but iv been to scared to do a test up to now incase it says neg iv just had to many of them, so im hoping you will help me pluck up the courage to do one.

well im on clomid 50mg day 2-6
iv only got one tube aswell
im on my 2nd cycle of clomid
my first cycle went fine i had a 28 day cycle, i had a follical tracking scan an they was happy with my follicals and they did a day 21 test which they sed they was happy with aswell.
this cycle started on 12th march 2010 so going by a 28day cycle i was due the 9th april i did do a test and it was neg back then so this is why iv scared myself now cd 34 and no show of af at all.
i did think the was cummin the night i was due on i had really bad pain bout 3am which woke me up it was quite bad then faded off in a few hours and then nothing past two days iv had bad indigestion and keep going light headed but other than that im fine just bit tired.
so doing this test is really worring me coz if im not pregnant then i didnt ovulate coz this is what was happeneing b4 they put me on tabs.
any opinions welcome either bad or good. thanks so much x

 

[Rudeollie]

Do another onewish.....Its been 5 days and a LOT can happen inside you in that time honey.......I totally understand the being scared part. Im 9dpo and having some very similar symptoms. BUT Im terrifiied to test in case its a BFN and then Im stuck waiting on provera to kick start AF and then clomid again! Flipside tho....If I get my BFP i'll be pooing myself I will m/c again.....
What Im trying to say overall is we NEED to be brave and just do these things......After all if its not what we want, we still all have each other on here dont we?? xxx

 

[Rudeollie]

Do another onewish.....Its been 5 days and a LOT can happen inside you in that time honey.......I totally understand the being scared part. Im 9dpo and having some very similar symptoms. BUT Im terrifiied to test in case its a BFN and then Im stuck waiting on provera to kick start AF and then clomid again! Flipside tho....If I get my BFP i'll be pooing myself I will m/c again.....
What Im trying to say overall is we NEED to be brave and just do these things......After all if its not what we want, we still all have each other on here dont we?? xxx

 

[MrsJA]

onewish, I know exactly what you mean. When I first started TTC I couldn't wait to POAS. These days I'm often scared to do it because of the worry about getting a negative.
But it's CD34 now... time to have another go I reckon honey.
Good luck to you and tell us how you go!

 

[onewish]

thank you so much ladies you dont know how much you writing them to me means im sat ere crying iv no idea why if its bad or good tears im just crying over it all,
i know what you mean rudeollie bout being scared if it was a BFP same ere incase it was another eptopic it would break me to lose another,
and mrsja your rite it is cd34 nearly cd35.
rite well the OH as sed he is gonna take me to buy a good test tomoz and we do it together.
thank you again ladies and i promise al cum bk to tell you whats going on either way if it does say neg i mite go doctors. x

 

[onewish]

well hello ladies sorry didnt get on to msg you yestaday my brother is in hospital to add on more stress but in away its took my mind off myself
well yestaday i did a test was negative so that was me baffled so rung my nurse she sed she wants to leave me abit longer give it chance to show up if i am pregnant or see if i cum on as we all know usually happeneds once you do a test usually cum on lol
so she has sed leave it till monday which will be cd39 and if still aint cum on an do another test and if it negative again then i have to ring my dotors secutary up and they will decided what to do from there im now cd36 and still no sign....
iv no idea not one way or the other as to whats going on im totally stud on the fence i feel bit useless thats i dont know lol. x

 

[MrsJA]

Awww sorry to hear about the BFN onewish, that sucks.
I hope you get to clear it up one way or the other with your doctor really soon.
Hope your brother is doing OK too. Thinking of you and sending positive vibes!

 

[onewish]

aww thanks very much MrsJA i posted it in two week wait aswell see if anyone had the same problem, its still a no show but one more test tomoz and then we will see but im very doubtful it seems to far to get a bfp now. how r u finding the clomid? x

 

[onewish]

not sure if anyone watchin this thread but thort id let u know whats going on it drives me mad when i dont find out lol
well iv still not got my af and im still gettin bfn so iv had enough now im now on cd39 so iv rang my doctors secertary im just waitin for her to ring me bk and tell me whats gonna happen next. so i will keep you informed. x

 

[puppymom32]

So sorry u are in limbo babes hope the dr can get things back on track for you. Big Hugs.

 

[onewish]

hello just thort id carry on updating dont want to leave a thread with no ending lol
thank you ladies for you responces

well i got phone call on cd 40 to go down to hospital to do one of there test an it was negative again so they sed they gonna start my period off so they have put me on norethisterone 5mg 3tablets a day for the next 10days then 2-3 days after finishing them al cum on they sed.
i started them on cd41 and i took one tab few hours after i had severe cramps then they faded away was scared of taking rest but i did coz i thort lets see if it happens again
if im not pregnant it means i didnt ovulate but im on clomid so im ment to so to me it says they not workin she just sed it happens sometimes just carry on taking the clomid when af cums.
im now cd43 but now so iv coped with two days on these tabs and cudnt take no more i felt so ill i felt dizzy and sick it was horrible so i tried phoning the hospital to get advise but they was no nurses they advised me to go to doctors and aswell coz im having pains in my groin
doc sed im not to take anymore tabs ans she thinks the pains are also cysts and maybe i should think bout not taking the clomid for a month but iv to ring the hospital on monday and tell em what she sed

sooo now my feelings on all this fed up with taking pills and them just making me be awful and feel awful so quite happy with what she has sed in away i could do with a month off but thats no way sayin i dont want a baby just as much i just finding this very hard and need a little rest to be at my best does this sound wrong.... i hope not. x