Early 30's TTC #1

[mrsmax]

Well, I tested and got a BFN. It is only 10 DPO (the earliest I have ever tested) Feel ok as there is still hope, but has made me feel less positive than I did (which is a good thing as less far to fall). I just wish my chart wasnt so strange this month, but probably is the acupuncture.

 

[rosababy]

Well, cramps for 3 days now, and the brown spotting has begun. I guess AF is on her way. Sigh. WHHHHHYYYYYYY???????? I already called the RE and scheduled an appt for Tuesday for cd3 blood tests and a sonogram. Not sure what they're looking for, but who cares anymore. I know brown spotting doesn't necessarily mean AF, but with my luck, it probably does.

I'm praying that this is just a fluke spotting...too late for implantation. On to cycle #13. At least I can drink this weekend.

 

[rosababy]

Rosa - I can see why you are scared. Medics always scare us wthout realising - it sounds like you need more information and answers. What I would do is write a list of my worres and things I want to know and call them or take the list to your next appointment.

My Fertility Clinic has a 24 answerphone wher eyou can leave your questions and they call you back the next day - do you have that? I am sure it is nothing to worry about, but i would want to know more.

I will make a list. He's a "let's worry about it after we know what the problem is" and I'm very much a "well, I'm worrying about it already, so just tell me now what it could be..." kind of person. Whatever. I'm going in on Tuesday, so I'll ask then.

is on it's way. I'm cramping and spotting, spent the morning in bed feeling sorry for myself but I think I'm a bit better now. I'm hoping the heavy days will be over before our trip to Öland on Friday. But with my luck, it'll probably only begin then.

Sorry, Crumbs. Did af come? I think af is coming for me, too. Cramps for 3 days, and brown spotting started last night. SUCKS.

Well, I tested and got a BFN. It is only 10 DPO (the earliest I have ever tested) Feel ok as there is still hope, but has made me feel less positive than I did (which is a good thing as less far to fall). I just wish my chart wasnt so strange this month, but probably is the acupuncture.

10 is pretty early, mrsmax. How are you feeling today? Any signs of anything? I'm feeling pretty much out. I know that it isn't over until AF officially comes, but I can sure feel her coming. I keep running to the bathroom.

 

[sarah10380]

i'm sorry Rosa. How many dpo are you? fx'd for you that af doesn't come. I just started my first round of clomid this month (50 mg days 3-7)...were your cycles shorter or longer than normal? did you use opk's?

 

[rosababy]

i'm sorry Rosa. How many dpo are you? fx'd for you that af doesn't come. I just started my first round of clomid this month (50 mg days 3-7)...were your cycles shorter or longer than normal? did you use opk's?

And it's cd 1 again. My cycles were about the same, maybe a little shorter. I used opks the first cycle, but not the last two. This was my last round of clomid. My ob wanted me to do 5 rounds, but my RE said nope, let's figure out what is going on. Clearly clomid is making o, but the job is still not being done. Something else must be wrong. Sigh.

 

[sarah10380]

I'm glad you are going to a RE...that is my next step too if the clomid doesn't work. My ob gave me 3 months and then it's to the RE for more tests to figure out whats going on. I just know your RE is going to figure out whats going on and will help you to get pregnant in no time! This is a good thing I know me saying that isn't going to make you feel better. I know how hard cd1 is. At least you get to drink this weekend!

how many mg of clomid did you take and on what days of your cycle?

 

[rosababy]

Oh believe me, I'll have a drink this weekend! We're going wine tasting!!

I was on 100 mg, this was my 3rd and final round, and I took it on cd3-7.

 

[SMFirst]

Sorry Rosa, Hope you get some answers after Tuesday's appt..

 

[MsJMouse]

Sorry to hear AF has arrived Rosa. Hopefully your appt on Tuesday goes well and you get some answers.

 

[mrsmax]

Rosa - this sucks doesn't it!! I tested again today at 12 DPO and still BFN. I think I better start believing it now

I am getting AF twinges so looks like it will be on to cycle 13 for me too. I could bawl.

Good luck with your appointment on Tues. As soon as AF arrives I have to book my HSG. Sigh. What was the sonogram thing you had? I haven't bee offered that.

This sucks, sucks, sucks

 

[Regalpeas]

Hi all!

Soleil I have been thinking of you lately and made it my business to stop in. I am so sorry for what you are going through but my hope is stronge I know yours is too. Send you hope, faith and Love.

Smfirst happy belated birthday! Glad you had a good time!

Piccolo love those stories! Posted a few in my journal a few days ago.

Topsy welcome, congrats and Happy Belated. You have a lot of good things going on! Blessings.

Everyone else hope all is well and Baby wishes to us all sticky baby wishes...and one more prayer of hope and strength for our b&b sister Soleil!

 

[mrsmax]

Had a meltdown this evening. Were supposed to catch up with some friends who are over from overseas and I knew they had been ttc for a while. Had a feeling they were pgs but found out just before they arrived at the bar and I had to leave. I couldn't face them - how awful is that. My dh walked me home whilst I sobbed and then he went back out to join our group of friends - he is telling them I dont feel well.

I am so upset even though I know I am being selfish and now I am mad with dh for leaving me at home alone sobbing.

I am fed up of looking on the bright side and being positive. It just feels so unfair - why me? why us? should i be pissed at dh for leaving me so upset?

I just want this to be over and get my bfp, but right now i dont believe it will ever happen

 

[hakunamatata]

Rosa - this sucks doesn't it!! I tested again today at 12 DPO and still BFN. I think I better start believing it now

I am getting AF twinges so looks like it will be on to cycle 13 for me too. I could bawl.

Good luck with your appointment on Tues. As soon as AF arrives I have to book my HSG. Sigh. What was the sonogram thing you had? I haven't bee offered that.

This sucks, sucks, sucks

 

[MsJMouse]

Had a meltdown this evening. Were supposed to catch up with some friends who are over from overseas and I knew they had been ttc for a while. Had a feeling they were pgs but found out just before they arrived at the bar and I had to leave. I couldn't face them - how awful is that. My dh walked me home whilst I sobbed and then he went back out to join our group of friends - he is telling them I dont feel well.

I am so upset even though I know I am being selfish and now I am mad with dh for leaving me at home alone sobbing.

I am fed up of looking on the bright side and being positive. It just feels so unfair - why me? why us? should i be pissed at dh for leaving me so upset?

I just want this to be over and get my bfp, but right now i dont believe it will ever happen

I have a good friend that I haven't seen since April cause she is pregnant - she found out she was pregnant just weeks after my MMC and it just upsets me so much (not that I am unhappy for her - just that I am unhappy for my situation and she just reinforces it when I see her).

This TTC thing sucks. I hope that you get your BFP soon MrsMax.

 

[Crumbs]

Rosa Hopefully this is our cycle! My came that same day. I got back from a weekend get-away with DH and the in-laws, it started out quite nice then free-falled right after I sprained my ankle (tore a ligament). Trying to get used to crutches ... sigh.

mrsmax

 

[SMFirst]

mrsmax - sorry you are feeling down..

crumbs - sorry about the twisted ankle! hope you heal quickly!

 

[hakunamatata]

Crumbs - hope you heal quickly!

 

[SMFirst]

Hakuna - I meant to ask - why are you WTT? (If it's not too personal!)

 

[mrsmax]

Thanks everyone. AF arrived yesterday afternoon to on to cycle 13. Fell better today - although still a bit glum. Your thoughts have cheered me though.

Have to ring at 8.30 for my HSG. Yikes.

Crumbs - you poor thing! Hope it heals quick

 

[rosababy]

mrsmax, sorry about af. I'm also starting cycle #13 and going in for an hsg next Monday. I'm scared. Has anyone had this done??

crumbs, i hope you heal quickly!

Afm, And the tests begin. I went in this morning for a blood test and a sonogram, so it was pretty easy. Tomorrow, I go in for "sonohyst" whatever that means...it's what the receptionist wrote on my appt card, Friday is hysteroscopy and next Monday is the hsg. I'm terrified. I do not deal with pain well. I guess I'm glad to get it all out of the way. After this, we go back in for a consultation to discuss the results. I'm hoping for an iui this cycle, but I'm sure he won't be on the ball that much. It's just that July and August, we'll be out of town around o time, so we'd be out of commission until September, which is a huge drag.