Early 30's TTC #1

[MrsPTTC]

Ha ha I know Mrsmax! I'm technically 12 weeks tomorrow from LMP but I think it's more like 12 weeks on Monday. Scan is on Wednesday, eeek!

Glad to hear your MS is better & you've enjoyed your aquanatal x

 

[rosababy]

No updates. Not dilated, but not really caring since it doesn't really mean anything. I'm SURE he'll be a week late. In fact, we'll probably end up inducing. Oh well.

I did do a few prenatal yoga classes. They were okay. They were right when I was feeling nauseous in my 3rd tri, so the 2nd class didn't go so well for me. I stopped after that. Swimming classes would have been nice!

 

[MrsPTTC]

Aw rosa was hoping for some news ha ha.

Hey just noticed on the first page that Caroline (thread starter) is pregnant again!

x

 

[mrsmax]

Rosa - you always said he would be late!!!!!! I hope something gets moving today. Pregnancy yoga doesnt appeal - the swimming was gentle and fun and I am guessing when i get bigger it will be bliss to be in the water.

MrsP - good luck with the scan - such a great milestone Cant believe Caroline preggo again!!! She did start the thread when she had only been TTC for 4 months though I keep meaning to go back through the early posts and see if everyone is preggo/had a baby.

Off to the midwife in an hour - always makes me a little nervous!

 

[mrsmax]

Just got back from midwife and mini-max is doing great. Great heartbeat, perfect measurements for date, excellent blood pressure and she could feel bump moving!! Bliss

Am working from home today too and it is nice and sunny outside so might go and "work" in the garden for a bit

Hope everyone is doing good.

 

[Regalpeas]

Hi Ladies,

I hope you are all are enjoying the weekend. Happy Labor Day to all who celebrate!

Welcome BFPdreams!!! This is a lovely thread. Hope you stay awhile.


@Soleil, I am so sorry you're going through all this. Despite youre strength and poise I know you are wounded. I think it is awesome you're writing poetry We have to get these feelings out somehow.
I am so sorry that you have to feel these emotions and endure this pain. But I know you will be a momma.
I don't know why we're picked to be the 25% or whatever the number is to struggle with something
that seems like it should be so simple to do but we are those people. We must fight to the bitter
end for that which is promised to us. I pray you don't have to go through this for much longer.
Praying for you forever baby to come to you very soon.



...and Congratulations to the Bride to Be!!! Pink I am so happy for you. I wish you and your
honey much love, endurance and blessings!


I know we all are happily awaiting the arrival of Jack. I keep thinking is he here yet? lol Hang in there Rosa!

Everyone else, it seems like things are going well. I've visited most of your journals before I got over here.

Nothing much going on at my end. I like it when it's quiet. That means more opportunity to get
a lot done. Waiting for baby hasn't gotten easier, though. Actually it's gotten downright worse as we
go deeper in our third year. DH is back to his old ways not taking his vits...again.
We had an argument a few days ago, because for the life of me I can't understand his actions.
I told him he was being irresponsible, negligent
and behaving like we have all the time in the world. He said I only wanted the baby and his sperm lol
So, I told him he never had to touch me again if he felt that way...and suddenly he changed his tune.
He said he didn't meant it that way. Uhhmmmnnn..
I apologized hrs later as we cooled off. I was mood swinging like crazy and shouldn't have said those
things. He said he was just angry because I keep forcing the vits on him when he doesn't want to take them.
He started taking them on his own so I thought he wanted to take them. He says he doesn't trust pills ordered. I told him we could have gotten them in the store, but it doesn't matter. There is a
bigger issue here. For whatever reason he wants to do things his way which feels like no way.
He wants to sit here month after month with the same dang results. He knows we can't get
treatment unless his sperm count increases. So why does he behave like this? I have no idea.1 Faith without works is dead!
I told him he was right I won't mention them again. And I won't, because I truly have gotten to a place where I
don't care. I promised myself that I would not let TTC/NTNP ruin me, ruin us and I mean it. He says he will
get healthy and finish out the bottle of vits he has blah blah blah. Totally not going there with
him. I'm just focusing on my weight loss as that is another barrier to treatment. I'll figure out the
rest later. Despite this setback I was happy
to finally get my resentments towards his behaviors out. I am glad they are in the open and I
am glad he finally admitted some feelings towards this besides" "we'll have our baby,
just be patient, just keep the faith." I just
wish we hadn't shouted those feelings at each other.lol We've kissed, made up and moved on but still
here we are waiting...
Af has unpacked her bags for awhile. She really does like to show up on holiday weekends. I am okay because I
am focused on other things. I have no doubt that I will be a mother. Just working hard to
get to treatment. I just pray that God does the rest. This morning I asked dh how he felt about AF coming
he said "disappointment very disappointed." I was very happy that he expressed his true feelings.
My dh always has his own ways of doing things I know this. I just hope whatever path he takes
will actually be an effective one. When I leave him be, I see more progress. We're get back
on the TTC bandwagon this fall so he'll see his specialist and they'll work it out. Maybe if he see his numbers are still low it will click that these numbers are not gonna miraculously shoot up without some effort from him. Either way I'm moving forward.
That's about it.

Sorry so long. I hadn't expected to type all this. It all just kinda rolled out. lol

 

[mrsmax]

Hey Regal - I totally understand your mood swings and why both you and dh have had some harsh words. Most men just dont express their feelings about this too well and I imagine it is even harder when it ihis his sperm that is part of the problem. Perhaps he thinks by burying his head in the sand it will go away. It is soooo unfair that some of us go through thsi journey, but we will all get there in the end, but the not knowing and the waiting and waiting and waiting certainly makes tempers short. I remember two months before our IVF my dh was too tired for :babydance: and I lost my temper completely and yelled at him and stormed out the house!!! I am not like that ever, I am usually pretty calm and laid back but this TTC stuff does crazy things to us all - I am pleased you have since kissed and made up

I cant believe Jack hasnt arrived yet - maybe tomorrow!!!!!!! Thinking of you Rosa.

I finally left my hometown after being stuck here sick since May. I went to London yesterday to meet an old friend and we had a lovely afternoon tea in a really posh hotel in Mayfair. I was sooooo uncomfortable on the train on the way home though - my stomach has definitely shrunk and minimax decided to kick me at the same time!!!!!

 

[rosababy]

regal, I don't understand why men are like that. I mean how hard is it to take a freaking vitamin?? I'm sorry you're dealing with that. A few times, my dh felt like a sperm machine too. I think everyone who deals with long term ttc feels like that.

Mrsmax, I did always say that jack would be late! I still have time before Wednesday, but I just can't see him coming before that though. Oh well. He must be comfy in there! Maximum 10 days. I'll induce before that! I can do 10 days. Just wishing I didn't have to teach, but that's okay. I'll manage.

 

[Regalpeas]

Thanks Ladies. Yeah it's a bit stressful but I guess it's to be expected. I feel a little better knowing others have gone through the same thing.

Rosa I thought you were posting to say Jack was here! lol

The count down is underway. He wants a little more personal time with mommy. That's all.

 

[MrsPTTC]

Mrsmax – pleased everything went well at the mw last week So you’re carrying a banana for another day! Always thought that was a strange fruit to compare a baby to! Glad your ms has subsided, it’s about time!

Regal, sorry DH is being a pain, I swear to god I would give him a slap for being such a wuss! It’s only a few tablets, he really should make the effort if you’re going to get preggo! :guns:

Hope Jack comes soon Rosa, typical boy being late!

Hi to everyone else! :wave:

So 2 days until scan day and I’m crapping myself!!

x

 

[mrsmax]

Good luck with your scan MrsP - I was terrified for both of mine. Are you going to annouce the pregnancy afterwards...? That is the exciting bit!!!

ps check out Rosa's journal peeps

 

[MrsPTTC]

Thanks Mrsmax, yeah we will announce it afterwards. Will probably tell the Facebook world too but only after the family & friends & my colleagues at work know. I'm actually nervous to announce it, we hate fuss! Grimacing at the thought! .

Have posted in Rosa's journal, thanks for the heads up x

 

[Soleil Breeze]

Crack, crack, crack!

Still "pregnant" The hcg is "creeping down" said the nurse, but sometimes people are like that. Terrific. She's at least given me another two weeks until I have to go in for a blood draw. And I was feeling good that the hcg would be all gone because I have had quite a heavy period over the past few days. Heavier and longer than normal. Oh, well. What can you do?

All else is well. I was so hoping that I would be ovulating next week around my B'day. DH and I are going on a little trip and I thought "oooo, it might be possible..." Ha, ha, ha! Hysterical.

Anyone heard from Aisak? I hope everything is going well with her and her little bean.

And, yes, CONGRATS TO ROSA!! Woot Woot!

Mrxmax - I am so glad that you're little person is developing just as s/he should be. You shouldn't compare bumps! S/he is perfect just for you! Everyone's body types are different.

Readyornot - thanks for that article on elimination communication. Like the other gals, I had no idea what it was. How did you come across it? Do you already know someone whose used/uses that method?

Regalpeas - my friend, I am glad that you feel better about airing your concerns to DH, but I am sorry that he's giving you a hard time about the vitamins. We ordered ours online, too. Is he using FertilAid? Because, if so, I can tell you that they DO work. DH's morphology and sperm speed have both increased dramatically since he's been taking them (about a year now, but I don't know exactly when the changes occurred. E.g. three months into taking them? Five, etc?). But they do work. I am taking the lady version now. Best of luck to you through all of this, and I am so glad that you know that you are going to have that baby some day. Stay strong in that belief.

Ok, my hcg-pregnant, but-no-baby-pregnant self is off. Must get back to work.

 

[Soleil Breeze]

I hope everything goes phenomenally well with the scan tomorrow! (I know it will!) If you end up with a bean picture scan, feel free to share. We promise we won't make too much of a fuss.

 

[MrsPTTC]

Thanks so much Soleil Sorry you still have hcg, maybe it's just taking a bit longer after your heavy AF to get out your system. Hopefully it'll be gone soon hun x

 

[MsJMouse]

Soliel - are they going to scan you for retained products? I think hopeful had a similar experience. Hugs

MrsPTTC - good luck with your scan. I agree with MrsMax I was terrified before my scans but it such a relief to see that bub. Can't wait to see a pic.

Regal - sorry to hear your DH isn't taking his pills. My dh did the same thing and it is incredibly frustrating. Hugs you will get your baby.

Yay Rosa. So happy to hear Jack is hear safely.

Had my 19week scan on Monday. Fuzzy is all good - pic in my journal. Placenta is lying over my cervix so just sitting waiting to see ob to discuss. If it doesn't move I believe it means a c section. At the end of day I don't care as long as fuzzy arrives safe.

 

[MrsPTTC]

Thanks MsJ. Sorry to hear you may have to have a section

So I had my scan yesterday and it was amazing! Baby was hiccuping - hilarious! Had to stop myself from laughing. They said I'm 13 weeks 4 days (or at least was yesterday) and due date 13/03/13 but the more I think about it, I don't get it. My EDD from LMP was 15th and I was definitely 12 weeks 5 days according to my ticker, yet I'm now 6 days ahead with an EDD of only 13th?! How the hell does that work?! My phone has been non stop with texting and ringing people to share the news, it's exhausting!

Hope everyone is ok, and your LO Rosa x

 

[MrsPTTC]

Ok so I just generated myself a new fruit ticker from my due date only and it says 13 weeks 1 day pregnant! Think I'm going to have to call the midwife to check they got the date right! x

 

[MrsPTTC]

And BTW I'll post pics at weekend when I get time x

 

[Soleil Breeze]

Just popping in to see the updates and am sooo happy to know that MsJmouse's Fuzzy and MrsPTTC's-I'm-not-quite-sure-when-I'll-be-popping-out-in-March baby are doing well!

I CANNOT wait until I can share that type of joy with my own baby.
Did a little crying today, but I'm just emotional from this ridiculous AF. It really is time for her to go. I will seriously consider calling the Docs on Sat. if I am still this heavy. I can't imagine that I've got retained products with these flood gates that I am having. But I am getting a bit dizzy now and since I don't eat meat, I'm thinking my iron levels may be a little on the low side. Might, should, ought to get checked out "maybe"

Anyhew. Last night my Little One communicated to me. No, I'm not nuts, but Little One was a momentary peaceful presence letting me know that she would come back. I don't know when, but she will. I felt soooo good knowing that. I keep telling her every day, sometimes more than once in a day, that I'm ready now. I REALLY am! She can come back, stick and grow ANY time!