Early 30's TTC #1

[arianne]

Finallyready hang in there girl! I know it sucks... but be a bit patient.... just keep eating healthy, take your vitamins and you will see... you are the one that takes fertilaid right? keep taking it... it will soon adjust your body

Soleil!! Nice to see you in here!!! That sucks! mmm is this the first time it happens to you? I mean, do you always get a + opk? how do you know your left one hasnt been o the last 3 months?... and this month no left or right O!?
are you on clomid or any type of O medicine? Maybe you should look into some?

Welcome pickle13! you are in the right place, as you can see, all of us are frustated with ttc... and all have the same wish... do you or your hubby take any supplements? maybe it will be good to give him some maca, it enhances the libido and may help with what you are saying...

 

[rosababy]

Pickle, welcome! I'm sorry to hear about your issues and dh's issues. I really hope clomid works for you both. I've never heard of men taking clomid! Cool! Magic pill!

Soleil, how frustrating!! (Modern Family is my fav show!!) Where is your chart? Can you put it on FF so we can see it? Hmmm...cd26 is pretty late...when do you usually O? What is the latest you've o'ed? Sometimes, we have bum cycles, and we don't O at all. Totally normal, but no less frustrating.

Arianne, how are YOU?

Afm, 6 dpo, and my temp went up to 98 today! This is my normal post-o temps, so I'm glad it took the leap up there. Trying to prepare myself for AF next week, though, so I won't be too disappointed.

 

[Soleil Breeze]

Rosababy - I meant to say that I poas for 10 days, not temped (so no FF chart). I've been temping on and off randomly just to see if I have post-O temps and still nothing. But to Arianne, yes, I always get a +OPK. ALWAAAAAAAAAAAAYS (did you get my attempt at a waaaaa in there?)

I also always know which side I O from, or at least I think I do (smile) because I get these sensations on a particular side early early in the month (best way to describe it is it feels like my ovary is "working"), and then a few days before I get post-O temps I get a different kind of feeling on a particular side. Those sensations have only come from the right side the past few cycles.

I usually O around day 19-20 (when my ovaries were alternating) and then the three months where I just Oed from the right one it was consistently CD 17. I was actually getting excited thinking I was getting normal. And then here comes this cycle. Such is life. Now I just have no freaking clue when AF is gonna come. Great. [I'll do clomid after the semester ends BTW]

rosababy - I'm in good company with Mod. Fam then! (although last night's show was okay). Have you had a cycle where you didn't ovulate before? Did you period still come when it should have? This is all so strange...

 

[rosababy]

Yes, you still get your period when you don't O. Totally sucky, I know. It's not usually as heavy, I think, but you still get it. I think there was maybe a cycle or two where I did not ovulate, but I think it was maybe more of a situation where I did not produce a developed egg. I have had biphasic cycles, but not like textbook charts. Feel free to go to my chart and look at them, and you can see what I mean. Biphasic, but not like oh my gosh, she's definitely o'ing. This is the first cycle where I feel like I actually have a shot. Have you thought about Maca? (shout out to Arianne!) It's supposed to balance your hormones and make things work "like they're supposed to." It made me O a day earlier than normal, and (unlike Clomid), I had tons of ewcm. I used to O late, too. In fact, I o'ed as late as CD21, and this cycle, I o'ed on CD16.

Modern is our new fav show. Last night with Cam and Mitchell cracked me up! But I agree, not as funny as they usually are.

 

[Soleil Breeze]

Ok [sigh], guess I have no choice but to ride this wave of egglessness out.

I looked at your current chart rosababy and I think it shows pretty clearly that you are biphasic - definitely got post-O temps! Your normal body temp. is quite a bit lower than mine. I'm usually 97.5-97.7, I've been pretty arctic this cycle though.

And I'm currently popping one maca a day (for about two and half, maybe three weeks). The brand I have suggests that you do three, but I started low. Maybe I'll up the ante and start taking two.

(Oh yeah, and Cam coming out of the elevator and saying that he had been "validated" after the hug did make me laugh; you're right, there were some good spots).

CD 10 for you! I'm sending baby vibes your way and will shower you with just enough baby dust so that you won't drown in it!

 

[finallyready]

Thanks for the pep talk Arianne - I seriously was thinking about drinking coffee again and alcohol and quitting my fertilaid and just screwing it. Obviously it is not my time to have a baby right now It just sucks.

Soliel Breeze - ugh super frustrating....I do know how you feel. I obviously didn't OV this cycle either. I hope AF still comes for you soon so you can just forget about this cycle and get back at it. FX for you.

Rosa- GOOD LUCK DARLING! This is gonna be your cycle!!!

 

[rosababy]

LOL! I'd LOVE to drown in !! Thanks! It's funny...if you look back at my previous cycles, my normal body temp was the same as you. It's been lower for two, MAYBE three cycles now. Before, anything in the 96s would have been because I got up super early to travel or something. Now, I get them all the time. I guess that's why they say look at the pattern rather than the numbers.

How many mg of Maca is that, then? All brands are different...I"m up to 1500 mg a day now, and I think that's the highest I'll go. Arianne, thoughts on how many mg a day? I did 500 mg for a week, then 1000 mg for about 10 days, and just now went up again. I got tummy aches at night every time I went up a dosage, but after a few days, I'm fine again.

 

[finallyready]

Hopefulmama How did your dr's appt go on Monday???? How is your little bean doing???

 

[rosababy]

Finally, I just saw that you are 24 dpo?!?! You must be going mad! I'm assuming you did a test...? Hang in there.

 

[hopefulmama2b]

Hopefulmama How did your dr's appt go on Monday???? How is your little bean doing???

It didn't go good. You know what makes it even worse is that I feel fine, no bleeding, no anything just had a bad scan. Went at 6w6d and doc couldn't see a fetal pole, 7w2d (Monday) and still couldn't see it, but sac has gotten bigger. It appears to be another blighted ovum. Life is so cruel sometimes. I will go to an imaging center on Monday 8w2d to confirm and then I assume I will have a D&C next week. We have no problem getting pregnant. Just can't stay pregnant. Thanks for asking though, Finally. Looks like I may be back to join you guys soon.

 

[Soleil Breeze]

hopefulmama2b....I am so sorry...If there's still hope, honey, hang in there.

 

[rosababy]

Oh hopeful. That's awful. I'm so sorry.

 

[finallyready]

Oh Hopeful, I am sorry to hear that! I am thinking of you guys. There is still a chance though, that they might pick it up on the next scan. I will pray the outcome will be a good one. We are all thinking of you!

 

[finallyready]

Finally, I just saw that you are 24 dpo?!?! You must be going mad! I'm assuming you did a test...? Hang in there.

Well I'm assuming I did NOT ovulate like I thought I did, so I guess that DPO on my ticker should be removed. But yes Cycle day....36 or whatever I am is NO fun. I know this sounds bad but I am praying for to come!

Apparently, me and the are in a fight and are not speaking right now. I don't know what I did to piss her off. I'm hoping she will forgive me and come back for a visit! I miss her! (I know I've gone mad)

 

[arianne]

Oh hopefulmama! Im so sad to hear that I'm thinking of you and sending lots of good vibes for your little bean, lets hope for some good news on your next visit...
What is D&C?

We are all thinking of you

 

[Crumbs]

hopefulmama2b you're in my thoughts! Fx for you!

 

[mrsmax]

Hey ladies.

I was feeling down earlier until I read the latest posts (apart from the sad news from hopefulmamma).

When everyone around you is getting pregnant this site def makes you feel better and feel that your not alone

Had my first lot of bloods taken this morning (tried on Tuesday, but AF was late so had to reschedule). Dh taking SA in next week so we shoudl start getting some results soon. Scary.

Until then, am going to look at Maca and upping the use of pre-seed.

Funny to see that everyone likes Modern Family - def gives me some laughs when feeling down. Does anyone watch Bill & Giuliana - following their struggle to have a baby makes me feel less alone too.

m x

 

[rosababy]

MrsMax, what's Bill and Giulianna? Never heard of it...I agree. I feel like everyone around me is pregnant, too. I love this site, because I don't feel like I'm whining and complaining for no reason. It's really helped me through this ridiculous process.

Finally, you crack me up! I'm sorry you and AF are not speaking. For your sanity, I hope she comes soon, or at least gives you a bfp! Not fun waiting.

 

[hopefulmama2b]

What is D&C?

Usually when your pregnancy is non-vital your body will figure it out and, like when you're on your period, your cervix will open and your uterus will start contracting to empty out all of the contents. Sometimes your body doesn't figure it out for a long time so just goes about it's merry way thinking your baby is still vital. In that case you can either wait for your body to figure it out...which can take a LONG time in some case (sometimes a month or even more) or you can get a D&C and have it done by the doctor. The "D" is for Dilation- where the doctor opens the cervix, and the "C" stands for Curettage- where he uses an instrument to scrape out the contents of the uterus. Technically I would be getting a D&E, not D&C. E-evacuation. I think a D&E is less risky because instead of scraping the lining they just stick something in there and suck out the contents. I've had 2 D&Es in the past. I believe, that there's less chance for scaring since they're not actually scraping and less chance of perforation (making a hole) in the uterus.

It's really not as bad as it sounds...previously I just want to the hospital and was sedated (general anesthesia) next minute I woke up in recovery. No pain at all. My fear about having another one is just making sure that having three isn't too much where it's going to start causing scaring. I will talk to him about it on Monday if that's what it turns out to be. The problem with waiting for your body to do it naturally is for one it's emotionally very hard to deal (for me) with knowing that you have a non-vital pregnancy in you, you can get an infection which can cause scaring, and you never know when it's going to happen. You're nervous all of the time because it could happen in public. My first D&E was not a success so had to have a second and in between the 2 my body tried to expel the tissue and I know this is TMI, but it's a total down pour. Imaging turning on the water faucet and having it be pure blood. There's no way you can just wear a pad to deal with it. It was traumatizing and i really don't want to go through that again so if my doctor doesn't think it's too risky I will opt for the surgery. I'll have to give him the "If I was your daughter"-speech.

I still have some hope, which actually scares me because we know realistically this is it. I'll keep you guys updated. Thanks so much for your well wishes.

 

[hopefulmama2b]

Apparently, me and the are in a fight and are not speaking right now. I don't know what I did to piss her off. I'm hoping she will forgive me and come back for a visit! I miss her! (I know I've gone mad)