Hi all,
Thanks for the sympathy, support and kind words. I appreciate all of you so much. It was a huge blow, especially when I was expecting to respond so well based on the previous month. It's been an emotional few days but I have a plan and am feeling empowered actually! I am completely convinced that the BCP were the culprit. After all, they were the only factor that changed. And just doing a little reading and research, this is not an uncommon thing to have happen. I am thinking about it like the BCPs and their suppression are fighting with the stim meds and they are cancelling each other out. And with my DOR, I think the last thing I need is anything suppressing.
So tomorrow is the IUI, which I don't expect to work, but if it does, great! Afterward we are going to speak with the doctor again to get the final word on what his plan would be for us going forward, whether I could opt out of using BCPs, or what any other options he might offer us, and if he can offer me something that's in MY best interest, not the office's scheduling. I'm also getting copies of my records at that time.
In the meantime, I've found another IVF facility in the area that seems very reputable, experienced, and has all the facilities in house so they can do all the retrievals, transfers, embryology on site. They do IVF 3 times a year, but all the patients are treated individually. The nurse said they do 4-5 retrievals a week, so definitely there is no kind of "schedule" for grouping people together - that it's based on when each person happens to be ready for retrieval according to their situation. When I described the process of how they do it where I am now, her exact words were "that's just goofy." She kept reiterating how every person and body is different so how can they expect everyone to fit to a schedule?
I've also found after doing a little reading on this new place that they encourage acupuncture, yoga, etc. as a holistic approach to this process. Where I go now, they kind of scoff at the fact that I do acupuncture (like "ya, you can try that but it won't do anything"). Overall I have a great feeling about them and think they will be a better fit for me. I also found some stats on this place and the success rate was way higher than where I'm going, and seemed at or above the national IVF success rate.
Once they get my records (my mom so kindly offered to hand-deliver them Friday morning), they are going to schedule a phone consult with my husband and I to expedite the process, and hopefully I can slip right in as a new patient without too much disruption to my care.
So that's me. What a freaking rollercoaster!!!!
Star, you asked why I said about not having eggs in a year...well I have Diminished Ovarian Reserve, so who knows in a year how (or if) I would respond then. I kind of feel like we need to get as many as we can now while I am responding so down the road I have some embryos saved up. I might be ok in a year but we just don't know. As for why I have to wait for June, well at my current place (yet again), by the time my period would come, I'd already be too late to make the schedule for May's IVF protocol. Maybe at this new place I could start next cycle? Or maybe they'll want me to do a rest cycle...I don't know.
Hope you all are hanging in there. I think of every day that passes as another day closer to our goal!