Everyone on here that I am familiar with is pregnant!

[no_regrets_91]

All of the ladies that I am familiar with on the ltttc thread are pregnant. I am not exagerating either! I am so so happy for you guys but am so jealous at the same time!
On top of it all in the last 3 months 3 of my friends have announced that they are pregnant. One of them is on their second baby. She is only 20! A few months younger than me!

I am sorry for the rant. Its just that everyone else is moving on and I am stuck in the same rut I have been in for over 2 and a half years!

In january we are going to try injectables because clomid, femera, and tomoxifen all failed to make me ovulate. We are going to pair it with iui. My husband cashed in his retirement savings to be able to pay for this ONE cycle. I am so scare that it will fail. I am so so scared! Because we will have to wait atleast four more months until we can try again. because we will have to save up. Then if that one fails we will try again in four more months. But we will stop after our third iui and maybe save up for ivf. But that will take a good three years to save up for. There is no chance of us ever getting pregnant on our own because I NEVER ovulate! And by never I don't mean that I ovulat onece or twice a year. I mean that I havn't ovulated since I was 13! That was the last time I had a natural period!

But what if the iui fails!? What if I am a poor responder!? I am so scared. Why can't one thing go right for me. Just once!?

Whoever said that money can't buy happiness has never delt with infetility!

O i forgot to add . My sil and bil are trying for their second. Why cant I trade with them she can deal with the pcos and I can get pregnant within a couple of months. After all my bil is a doctor and she is a 'happy' stay at home mom. So they can afford to drop $10,000 for ivf. He makes more then that in one paycheck!!!
The next time she complains to me about not having enough "me time" or complains that she hasn't had a message since before her son was born. I AM GOING TO PUNCH HER IN THE FACE!

Sorry again for the rant. I just needed to get this off my chest. Sorry you ladies had to be my victims.

 

[wonderstars]

 

[Armywife84]

Hey, I'm not pregnant!

Sorry to hear your feeling this way.

If it's any consolation, I'm going to be stuck in a rut LTTC for quite a while. Until my DH deploys (we have no idea when that will be) so we're able to fund IVF..or when I'm able to get a job to fund IUI (which I doubt will work since his motility sucks).

You can't look at the negativity (trust me, I know it's hard)..instead look at the progress you will be able to make in 4 months! That's something to look forward to!!

Good luck!

 

[rosebud_01_99]

hi,
im also still here and not pg, still dealing with this IF crap through another xmas.

rosebud

 

[kaye]

Hi

Im still here aswell, stuck in same rut for over 2 years with no explanations as to why.

As mentioned above try and focus on the positive and also that in January you can try injectibles. I wish you all good luck and hope we all get our BFP soon.

I have just got the duo fertility monitor to try.

 

[Dazed]

I'm here too. I know how you feel with everyone on BnB you know being pregnant and feeling jealous. Its gotten to the pint where I feel I need to distance myself from BnB, but finding it difficult.

 

[cooch]

Punch her! Only joking \)

Can you not ask for either Clomid/Femara with HCG injections??? Have you tried that combo? x

 

[RM_Wife]

I'm still here and not pregnant either... I with I didn't have to say that, but then again all the ladies, and yourself, wish that it could be said too!

Army wife - I know how difficult it can be with DH going away, my hubby was away for 7 months at the start of this year. It can really throw a spanner in the works. Damn military!!

 

[no_regrets_91]

Punch her! Only joking \)

Can you not ask for either Clomid/Femara with HCG injections??? Have you tried that combo? x

I was on 100mg clomid day 5-9 then days 9-14 i was on 2.5mg femera then days 16-21 i was on tomoxifen. I was also on dexamethazone to lower my androgen levels. I showed no response. So I didnt even get the chance to do hcg.

 

[no_regrets_91]

Hey, I'm not pregnant!

Sorry to hear your feeling this way.

If it's any consolation, I'm going to be stuck in a rut LTTC for quite a while. Until my DH deploys (we have no idea when that will be) so we're able to fund IVF..or when I'm able to get a job to fund IUI (which I doubt will work since his motility sucks).

You can't look at the negativity (trust me, I know it's hard)..instead look at the progress you will be able to make in 4 months! That's something to look forward to!!

Good luck!

I feel for all military wives! I can't imagine my husband leaving for months and months. I have trouble being away from him for one night. You ladies are so so strong to being able to deal with the absence. and then throwing ttc in the mix. You are one tough lady!

 

[no_regrets_91]

I am sorry all you ladies are still here. but selfishly I am glad I am not alone.

I am super nervous that my SIL is going to announce being pregnant at thanksgiving or christmas. I know a couple months ago she told me she got her nuvaring removed so they can prepare to try again. And well, knowing men. they don't go from not using condoms to using them again. So i suspect that the announcment is coming up. I hope I can be nice to her about it. but I really don't like her. She has the entitled "doctors wife" atitude.

 

[LizMcD]

I'm still here too,.... I had clomid with a hsg injection (for iui) this month which did make me ovulate so it's worth giving that a go. I struggled to ovulate before. The nurse said the hsg forces ovulation.

You are not alone... let's hope we all become the preg ladies next yr, a new yr resolution!

Xx

 

[wanting2010]

I TOTALLY understand where you're coming from! I feel like I could have written your entire post. I LOVE my TTC buddies but sometimes I feel that little twinge of jealousy for those who have gotten their BFPs. I am so happy for them though, because I know the things they've gone through, etc. But sometimes it's hard not to feel left behind.

As far as the money issue..I am in the same boat. My insurance doesn't have infertility coverage so I'm paying out of pocket for everything. I thought $450 for a Femara cycle was bad enough but last cycle I paid $1500 for an injectables/IUI cycle but responded poorly and had to cancel...all that money down the drain! It's heartbreaking. I'm getting ready to start my second injectables/IUI cycle and I'm praying to even make it to IUI! I'm terrified that I will respond poorly again. My RE did say he would apply some of the $800 I paid for the monitoring for last cycle to the next cycle since I didn't make it to IUI, but my medicine cost more than doubled from the first month to the second month. All in all I will have spent $3500ish for two injectables/IUI cycles. I can't afford another cycle after this one, so it will be my last for awhile, and the thought that I will have to give up on my TTC dreams until I can save more money is devastating.

I have gotten to the point where I hate getting on Facebook anymore because I just KNOW someone else will be announcing their pregnancy. Several months ago a girl on there said that she was trying to convince her husband to start TTC #2 and he had agreed to start trying in 6 months. I thought "well, she's gonna be pregnant before me too!" Sure enough, she's 20 weeks pregnant right now and I am still stuck in this same old rut. I think it's the accidental pregnancies that get me the most. I deleted a girl off my friends list who was complaining constantly about being pregnant, it was accidental and she didn't want another baby (she already has 2), etc. Meanwhile I haven't even ovulated since April (one of the 2 times Clomid made me ovulate).

Just know that you're not alone!

 

[Armywife84]

Thank you for the kind words, no_regrets_91! But I'm afraid I'm not as strong as you think I am. In fact, I'm already cracking with this hefty weight of LTTC on my shoulders and I haven't made it to the 2 year mark yet. I actually feel rather pathetic..when there's women who have it much worse than I do and can still keep their composure.

 

[Dazed]

Don't worry Armywife, my composure it out the window and has been for a few cycles now.

 

[Sophe]

I am still here as well! TTC almost 2 years and on baby and bump 1 year!

 

[no_regrets_91]

So the girl that is prego with her second just announced that she is four weeks and 6 days along. She also has her names picked Isabella and damian. THE NAMES WE CHOSE WHEN WE FIRST STARTED TRYING! I wish I wasnt such a nice person. I want to give her a peice of my mind.

 

[Sophe]

I picked Isabella as well and someone has taken it in our circle of friends, why oh why?? its soooo frustrating, damn them!!!!

GRRRRRRRR

know how you feel! must be out turns soon!! surely!

 

[Sophe]

I have an idea, lots of people I added as a friend become preggo in a few months, why don't you all add me? worth a try it might work?

 

[cooch]

I am sorry all you ladies are still here. but selfishly I am glad I am not alone.

I am super nervous that my SIL is going to announce being pregnant at thanksgiving or christmas. I know a couple months ago she told me she got her nuvaring removed so they can prepare to try again. And well, knowing men. they don't go from not using condoms to using them again. So i suspect that the announcment is coming up. I hope I can be nice to her about it. but I really don't like her. She has the entitled "doctors wife" atitude.

I so know this feeling, its as though we can't relax for fear of who is next to make their annoying announcement. I though I was safe with my friends at the moment as they had all told me they either weren't having any more or were going to leave it for a couple of years, then bam, oh I'm prgnant. They are either super stupid or total liers!!