Everything is terrible and i quit (can you tel this is a rant?)

[alexspargo]

So, yeah, i quit. I don't want to be pregnant anymore. I feel like a prisoner in my own body. This is my 4th and i remember feeling like this with each one of my kids but for some reason i am just super cranky today. I am 37 weeks tomorrow if you go by my doctors EDD but 37+4 if you go by what i think. Either way i probably have at least another 2 weeks to go and i seriously don't know how i am going to make it. The thought that i could possibly be pregnant for up to 5 more weeks is so inconceivable i can't even allow myself to think it.

For the past week i have constant Braxton Hicks all night long. The baby is at -1 station and feels like it is going to literally fall out of my vagina. Lightning crotch?? Yeah, I've got that. Heart burn? Needing to pee every 5 seconds? Yep, got that too. I think that if i were to just sit on the toilet for a full 24 hours a steady, never ending stream of urine would just trickle out of me.

Everyone keeps asking how are you feeling?" or saying "What, no baby??" and I always say "Fine" or "Hanging in there" or "No, not quite yet but hopefully soon!" and smile but in reality i am miserable. I don't want to complain too much since you know babies are a blessing, blah, blah blah, but i am seriously done. Stick a fork in me. I quit.

 

[moonbear]

I totally understand. I have wanted to quit for a long while now and I'm only 32.5 weeks. Ugh. Found out today i may have placenta previa so may not be able to birth the way I want either. In addition to was hoping for girl but it's a boy. Happy but it's all too much right now. Way too emotional to deal with any of it.

 

[Letsgo]

Oh Alex I don't mean to laugh but oh my! All baby wants to do is stay in for a few more weeks and get nice and chubby and you are over it. I have fantasies of just magically not being pregnant anymore, skipping over the next 11 weeks and just having a baby appear. I hope the magic part happens to you instead.

At least you have the gift of making others laugh at your misery, if that is any comfort at all.

 

[Genevevex]

I feel for you. I was convinced that I would go early and now it is 40 weeks plus 4 days. I can't seem to sleep at all and I'm so miserable. There is an end in sight, as I am scheduled for induction on Thursday, but having to wait even that long is driving me crazy.

 

[lanet]

Me too. I'm 35 weeks 1 day with twins and measuring 46 weeks. I can't walk sit stand or pee without excruciating bone breaking pain. I forget what normal feels like

 

[StillPraying]

Oh I'm so with you on this. I don't even recognize myself anymore And I avoid mirrors. Can I just sleep until she's born? I told a friend that once I get to 37 Weeks it's game over. I'm going to try every wives tale in the book and she called me selfish and weak.....she's never been pregnant.

 

[alexspargo]

Stillpraying, I hope you told her to go eff herself. A person can only take so much. Being pregnant is not for the weak. It's a freaking marathon and now that I have reached the home stretch I just want to curl into a ball and cry.

To make matters worse, my SO keeps complaining to me about work and other silly problems and all I can think is "HELLO?!? Can't you tell I have actual problems over here??"

Hope relief comes soon for you ladies. In the meantime I will continue sitting here at my desk scowling at every person ho walks by and if one more coworker asks me how I'm feeling, I just may tell them the truth.

 

[StillPraying]

I'm with you. People look in my office all freakin cheerful "how's our prego today?" "almost there right?" like its flipping cute. how am I? I feel like there is a tazer strapped to my leg that randomly shocks my vajayjay which is swollen btw and makes it awkward to walk....I cannot eat anything without feeling like my esophagus is a raging volcano. Oh and it feels like my belly is permanently flexed. what else would you like to know?

 

[hairftsher]

Oh sweetie. Amen!
I'm less than you but I already feel this way. It's my first baby and I'm so thrilled to meet him and I love feeling him move but even that is starting to hurt and I miss peeing like a grown up (not every 5 minutes). I miss back pain free sleeps. I'm sooooo with you.