Excited and Terrified

[madtowngirl]

Hello everyone. This is my first post in any pregnancy forum, and I'm scared to dip my toe in, but here it goes...

I lost my first pregnancy in February of 2013. I don't know how far along I was - I actually didn't know I was pregnant until I went into the doctor because I had been bleeding for 2 weeks. I bled for almost a month and a half.

I had a hard time getting any doctor to see me and take me seriously. Most refused to see me until a year after the mc, and then they did some questionable things (like change my care plan without my knowledge) that made me really distrust them. I had an appointment to see a fertility doctor on July 8th. I haven't cancelled it yet. I'm too scared.

I'm elated to finally have a bfp - I cried when the test turned positive. Yet, I'm terrified of losing this one, too. I talked my new doctor into ordering some betas on me - and I got the first blood draw yesterday. I get the second tomorrow. I am so scared that the results will be bad news. I have no real symptoms - I feel normal, although admittedly, I'm a bit sluggish.

Is anyone else terrified?

 

[Curligurl]

I have had many losses but I have also had one successful pregnancy. I am currently pregnant again for the 5th time and I am extremely nervous! My levels are extremely good but that doesn't give me real comfort ...my first scan is on Tuesday. I will be 7 weeks...I'm praying that we see a strong heartbeat. Good luck on your levels. Sending sticky baby dust your way

 

[NandO1]

Sorry for your loss hun. I had a m/c in dec and got my bfp in march. Eventhough im 18 weeks now im still terrified. The chances of having a healthy full term pregnancy are in your favour hun so try not to worry and enjoy. xx

 

[Claire788]

Hello! How did your 2nd beta go, did you get your results?xx

 

[madtowngirl]

I did finally get my betas yesterday - the first was about 700 and the second over 3000! I know that's good but I think I'm still going to be a wreck all first trimester. I still have no symptoms, either...