F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[rachelrhin0]

Thanks immi! I hope you catch that egg and get a BFP soon! I'm still in the 2ww. It's KILLING me! I'm 8dpo now and have been testing since 4dpo KNOWING that all I'm gonna get it BFN's at this point. I have NO symptoms. I'm feeling so weak. I want this so bad I think I'm stressing myself out. Between the daily temps, HTP, and the OPK's earlier in my cycle I should be grey by time it's all said and done. If I don't get pregnant this cycle (praying that I do though) then next time I'm not going to temp or use OPK's. I'm just going to do what we did last time and have sex when I have ewcm.

 

[im_mi]

you know rach, i think temping and all of that just adds to the stress. I mean, its good to be able to do it but i think that a month or two of freefalling will do you good, coupled with lots of prayer. You might even relax enough to get that after all

 

[mrskcbrown]

Dipar, I am on lousy CD 3!!! I only have 31 more CD's to go, till AF does not arrive. LOL.

wow mrskcbrown, you go that long? I hope you get your bfp. Today(well this evening) i've had those AF like cramps and i'm like no no..But they went a way. Some times they feel like AF cramps(like she's coming) and then they feel strange..

Yeah I have a 34 days cycle and it sucks but it is what it is. Guess I will be and waiting!!

 

[Guppy051708]

Mine is 33-34 days too MrsKcBrown! Wish we were on the same CD, then we could be cycle buddies

to you!

 

[im_mi]

Evening girls!

Just got off the phone with a Christian friend of mine and i feel very uplifted. I didnt realise how much i enjoy talking about God i feel stronger in my faith every day.

Girls, i kind of need some support and advice. I hope you dont mind me having a little whinge in here but i need to get some stuff off of my chest.

I have only been married for 2 months but i am feeling some doubts creep in. Not doubts that i love him because i do, i really do. He is a good man, a fantastic father and would do anything for us.

But he's not my soulmate. I am craving feeling connected to someone. I dont feel like we are on the same level spiritually or emotionally. It feels like there is a wall between us. You know when you are with someone and you cant stop talking? when you feel connected to them? we dont have that and we never have. Occasionally we get spurts of it but i just dont feel like he really knows me at all. And it doesnt feel like he is capable of knowing me. Id like to just say that i am not a cheat and i would never be unfaithful, thats not what i am implying.

In spite of this, i love him and i want to be with him. I want to have that connection with him, but i cant see how. And now we are married i have this sense of it being forever and that i am in a relationship now that isnt fulfilling me emotionally and that's it.

I just.... i dont know what to do. I dont even feel like i can talk to him about this. My friend i was speaking to earlier is going to send me a Christian book about marriage, which by the sounds of it will be very helpful.

Ugh. I just feel so stuck and so lost. I get like this every so often, and it does go away and for long periods of time i am happy and content but then a wave of discontent hits me and i dont know how to deal with it.

Sorry.

 

[J_K_L]

Im_Im, I don't know what advice I can give. But I frequently pray for guidance. This is a prayer I found that lifts my spirit.

“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.” —Psalm 32:8

Sometimes, Lord, it’s so hard to see. We squint and struggle to make sense of what you’re showing us. Help us know when you are guiding us, Lord, and when we are clutching at the wrong answers. Help us know, as this peace process unfolds, how to best follow your voice, how to love each other with your perfect love, and how to continue to turn to you and, when it’s your will, to wait until the time you choose to answer our prayers. Thank you for teaching us how to live in your care and respond to your voice.

Remember, he has a plan for you. It's not all on your shoulders.

 

[im_mi]

thank you JKL, thats a very comforting verse. I think im more frustrated with my life in general and without going into too much detail, i think i resent DH because he is preventing me from following my dreams and its hard to deal with. i dont want anyone to think i dont love him or want to be with him because i do. I guess all i can do is keep praying and trust in Him that the path will become clear.

 

[J_K_L]

If you don't mind me asking what dreams? Dreams of a certain career?

 

[im_mi]

basically i was born in new zealand and would love to go back there to live. I think we could have an amazing life out there. he wont even consider it. i even suggested us just going travelling for 6 months to experience other cultures and see a world outside of our little one but he wont even discuss it.

 

[Guppy051708]

Hello from North Hampton, New Hampshire!

[IMG]https://i739.photobucket.com/albums/xx32/lina_w1/DSCI0398.jpg[/IMG]

Tomorrow morning we will be getting up super early to watch the sunrise in that same location! I hope its not raining!!

This pic was taken less than 10 minutes away from Liberty Mutual (where my sweet husband interviewed today) [Portsmouth, New Hampshire].

We will find out by December 1st if this is where we are going to raise a little family!

 

[Willynilly]

Immi - sorry I can't write now but just stopping in and I read your post. Ugh. I am so sorry for how you are feeling. I am praying for you tonight - please know that, if it is of any comfort. What was the book she suggested?

Will be back on to write more but probably not for a few days. Hang in there, love.

 

[Rdy2BaMom]

Oh im_mi. . .I can relate soooo much! Not with my DH now, but with my last serious relationship of 4 years. I have always been a Christian, and he was not. He would try for a week or so, and read the bible every now and then but that was it and I truly feel like it was just a show for me. I didn't have anyone I could really talk to about my spiritual life that could understand. I never felt like we had the right connection and it hurt my heart. I too would be fine for a while, and then just feel alone, even though we were together. It was soooo hard for me. Our relationship ended because of him, not because of our difference in religion though.
Hang in there girl! He may not seem like your "soul mate" now, but God can do miraculous things! He can turn your DH into a completely different person in all the good ways. There is a book, I think it is called, "The Power of a Praying Wife". . . I think. You might want to look into it, I have heard great things about it! I will be praying for you and your DH as I know just how heart wrenching it can be to feel like you are "alone" in your relationship.

 

[jiboo44]

Hey everyone! Well... quick update: I did test last night and today (too tempting when I passed the Dollar Tree store so I had to pick some cheapie's up) but got two BFN... but, still noooooo sign of AF. What a test of patience!!!

 

[Rdy2BaMom]

Well ladies, AF showed up this morning. and I figured out this is actually my 6th cycle, not my 5th, so now. . . onto #7! Needless to say, I am extremely disappointed. I don't even want to talk to my DH about it because I know I am just going to start crying. Ugh. . . .

Thank you Lord for having a plan and knowing me better than I know myself. Thank you for your perfect timing and the blessings that you bestow on us.
Amen

Jiboo-sure hope this is your month!!

 

[Dipar_Butt3]

AF came. And i know it's her, because it was a(sorry tmi for some) dark brownish-pinkish blood on my underwear and when i went to the bathroom to wip. I saw it again. So i'm out for this one. NO July baby. I wanted a summer baby. Well there is August. Let's see where I stand there!

I wanted a late spring to early fall baby. So that means my due date would of been either late May to early weeks of September.

At first i wanted to see how this spotting does. If it's get's heavier like AF then i'm ruling out as AF. Wow ladies 5 days late and she comes!

Well Rdy2bamom, i wouldn't be using that test you sent me any time soon.

 

[Dipar_Butt3]

Just checking to see how everybody is doing here. God is so good because today after what i saw in the bathroom earlier today. God told me or asked me. Did I not say? So i'm going to keep believeing on what he said. And i'm going to find it in the bible he said this.

 

[Dipar_Butt3]

Just curious! I know how uplifting it can be to have believers praying with you and for you in such a life changing time. Would love to chat with some of you!


TESTING DATES

Dipar_Butt3-Nov. 10th on Nov. 14
mrskcbrown-Nov. 13th
Willynilly-Nov. 14th
jiboo44-Nov. 15th
Rdy2BaMom-Nov. 18th
im_mi-Nov. 28th

Guppy051708-Dec. 17th

I change my status on here lol

 

[mrskcbrown]

Well ladies, AF showed up this morning. and I figured out this is actually my 6th cycle, not my 5th, so now. . . onto #7! Needless to say, I am extremely disappointed. I don't even want to talk to my DH about it because I know I am just going to start crying. Ugh. . . .

Thank you Lord for having a plan and knowing me better than I know myself. Thank you for your perfect timing and the blessings that you bestow on us.
Amen

Jiboo-sure hope this is your month!!

sorry for your pain! I know how hard it can be. I hope this is our month as well. Ovulation seems a million days away to me. Thank God for Jesus!

 

[mrskcbrown]

AF came. And i know it's her, because it was a(sorry tmi for some) dark brownish-pinkish blood on my underwear and when i went to the bathroom to wip. I saw it again. So i'm out for this one. NO July baby. I wanted a summer baby. Well there is August. Let's see where I stand there!

I wanted a late spring to early fall baby. So that means my due date would of been either late May to early weeks of September.

At first i wanted to see how this spotting does. If it's get's heavier like AF then i'm ruling out as AF. Wow ladies 5 days late and she comes!

Well Rdy2bamom, i wouldn't be using that test you sent me any time soon.

Sorry girlie! It gets better after you have that cry! Get it out. On to next month!

 

[Dipar_Butt3]

AF came. And i know it's her, because it was a(sorry tmi for some) dark brownish-pinkish blood on my underwear and when i went to the bathroom to wip. I saw it again. So i'm out for this one. NO July baby. I wanted a summer baby. Well there is August. Let's see where I stand there!

I wanted a late spring to early fall baby. So that means my due date would of been either late May to early weeks of September.

At first i wanted to see how this spotting does. If it's get's heavier like AF then i'm ruling out as AF. Wow ladies 5 days late and she comes!

Well Rdy2bamom, i wouldn't be using that test you sent me any time soon.

Sorry girlie! It gets better after you have that cry! Get it out. On to next month!

I just saw your message popped up lol. I have to remind myself. Let go and let GOD. Yes i'm disapointed. But hey there is the next month. I have until Janurary.

Ladies do you see the sparking sign on my post("TTC AFTER DEPO") Well i feel that is what's causing me to no get my bfp. I took the depo shot back in 2006 and i haven't had it since because it messed up my cycles and everything. Now TTC it's been hard.