F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[Aster]

Morning All!! (well its afternoon for us all in the UK now!)

Deb111 - Praying for you sweetie, take care of yourself and each other and you can get through anything!

MrsKCbrown - hows it going lovely?

Willy and mommahawk - woo hoo, my testing buds!! Hows you sweeties?

Evie - still praying for you and sending you masses of love. xxxx
Someday -Do you have a date for your tests yet? Hope they aren't too expensive. xxx

Rdy - how you doing honey? You keeping your chin up I hope!! Or i will be round there with some hugs... I am warning you....

Welcome to the newbies,

Ok, think that was it.. sorry if i missed anyone,

So I definately ov'ed on friday according to my CM. I thought I was going to Ov on weds but got a quite big EWCM on friday night so managed to squeeze in a BD before going out for dinner with the inlaws!
So I covered everyday last week so i definately have not missed the boat! Am so hoping this month could be my BFP, I am getting fed up with it now!
I bought a BBT the otherday and it arrived on saturday so I am going to temp on the next cycle if i dont get my BFP this month. I really hope i wont have to use it but hey, it came with 10 OPK's and 10 IC preg tests so that is useful at least!

Every cycle I plan out what my date would be to tell my family and once again there always seems to be a perfect time! We are going away with my inlaws and my SIL all together for a weekend in devon (same place we stayed before Immi - near you!) as we have never got the chance before and by then I would be about 10 weeks, how perfect would that be!

It is interesting though as we were talking about pregnancy (great excuse for me to talk about it through the excuse that we are talking about the girl in the office who is pregnant!) and my MIL was saying that it took her 8 months to get pregnant with her first (my husband) but maybe they weren't covering EVERY day like us! Anyway, it made me feel a bit better about it and think I am going to temp for a month next month then if still no BFP, I can go to the doc with 8 months of info!!

I am paranoid that I am not ovulating, i have read that you can get EWCM when you dont actually ovulate so what if I have regular cycles (always 30 days) and get EWCM at the same time in the cycle each month but what if i am not actually ovulating??? Will I know if I temp? Or is there actually no way of knowing unless you have tests?

I love 'Friends' and the episode with chandler and monica finding out they were infertile was on yesterday....I tell you, it is haunting me!!!

Anyway, I have blabbed on enough, hope you are all having a lovely day.
lovies xxxxxxx

 

[somedaymama]

Aster - yes, if you temp you'll be able to tell for sure. If you have time, I recommend reading the book Taking Charge of Your Fertility before you start temping. Hopefully you won't need to though!! fx'd!

I'm going to start testing (opks) on Feb. 1. That will be CD 20 for me.

I saw that Friends episode the other day too! I Friends...lol.

 

[Aster]

heehee, hubby doesn't understand but I can just watch them again and again. I have seen every episode but they still always make me laugh!

 

[somedaymama]

My hubby atually likes watching them with me. We didn't have cable in our first apartment, so we rented seasons of Friends to watch together. I didn't have TV growing up so I had never seen them before. It took us 4 months to watch all ten seasons.

I love to plan when I'd tell family too. I haven't done it for awhile, but there always seems to be something that would make it the perfect time. That weekend away sounds like it would be great for you guys!

 

[mrskcbrown]

@Aster: Oh I am doing as good as can be. Just waiting to O. I guess that will be the end of the week or so. Hope all is well with you.

Hey everyone! Hope all is well. I cant wait to O! I guess it should be somewhere around CD 17-18. Im just relaxing this month. No temping, OPKs, CM checks, nothing. I know I usually O around that time and so we will just Bd the rest of this week and next week. That should cover all bases and then the rest is up to God.

Ive noticed that when most people get in our group, they leave us. I wonder why that is??? Just my opinion, but Im feeling like my prayers are just being used to get the BFP, then poof, the people are gone.

Maybe I am over analyzing. Hope all is well!

 

[Aaisrie]

Well I'm back to square 1... obviously God decided this is NOT my month. Feeling hopeless, angry, I've shouted, I've screamed, I've cried. He takes some crap from me sometimes. It doesn't matter which way I cut it, it doesn't seem fair. It's selfish I know, the "why me" but I can't help it. Tonight God is dealing with my inner petulant child.

 

[mrskcbrown]

Well I'm back to square 1... obviously God decided this is NOT my month. Feeling hopeless, angry, I've shouted, I've screamed, I've cried. He takes some crap from me sometimes. It doesn't matter which way I cut it, it doesn't seem fair. It's selfish I know, the "why me" but I can't help it. Tonight God is dealing with my inner petulant child.

Oh I definitely know the feeling. I have been back to square 1 so many times, it isnt even real!!!! I get to the point where I have this "I dont care attitude".
Look on the bright side though, you have a 10 month old DD, which is still a baby. How I would wish for a 10 month old right now! I love my DD who is 9 yrs old. It will happen for you soon, and Im sure you have heard that before as I have. Ive been waiting 10 yrs to have another, still no luck yet!

Be blessed!

 

[Aaisrie]

Yea, she is still a baby, but our hopes, our dreams, our wants... whatever, our desires still happen. I always wanted 4 children, I wanted them really close together, I got out of the birthing pool after having my daughter saying I wanted another. It's not that my DD isn't enough, she is amazing and incredible and watching her everyday is a blessing but it doesn't take that desire away, no matter how old they are. It doesn't stop me wanting more just because she's young. I'm so angry at God, I'm mad with him. What reason does he have?? I know, I know His perfect timing. It doesn't take the pain away. It doesn't take my dreams and hopes away. It doesn't stop me feeling let down.

 

[somedaymama]

So sorry, Aaisrie.

 

[mrskcbrown]

Yea, she is still a baby, but our hopes, our dreams, our wants... whatever, our desires still happen. I always wanted 4 children, I wanted them really close together, I got out of the birthing pool after having my daughter saying I wanted another. It's not that my DD isn't enough, she is amazing and incredible and watching her everyday is a blessing but it doesn't take that desire away, no matter how old they are. It doesn't stop me wanting more just because she's young. I'm so angry at God, I'm mad with him. What reason does he have?? I know, I know His perfect timing. It doesn't take the pain away. It doesn't take my dreams and hopes away. It doesn't stop me feeling let down.

@Aaisrie: Maybe you took what I said the wrong way, Im not sure. Im only saying that it is a blessing that you have a baby. Its a blessing that I have a baby. There are some who have been longing a long time and still have zero kids. Am I angry at God because I dont have the 4 kids that I want, NO. I trust and believe that I will have my kids and I will not rush Him. I was just saying that we have to try and find comfort in the children that we do have.

So feel how you want to feel. I have no right to tell you how to feel. I was only helping you to seek comfort, and to not lose hope in God, and how good he has been to you thus far.

 

[Aster]

Evie, I am so sorry. Comparisons don't help as it does just seem so unfair. I am sending you huge hugs and love. It is so hard to just 'believe' sometimes that it will happen. Give yourself time to express your feelings as this is how we grow. I felt insanely jealous of my collegue (my only one in our company) who has announced her pregnancy but after a week of working through my feelings, I am ok. Not fab, just ok but I went through a whole range of emotions to get there. I hated myself for the evil jealousy but actually you do need to. Take some time to look after yourself sweetie, you are a beautiful person and you deserve happiness.
Lovies xxx xxx

 

[Aaisrie]

Thanks Aster, I'm sending you masses of baby dust. I just wish I had *something* positive to focus on right now, there isn't. Everything is topsy turvy and this would have been the one thing that would have given me something majorly positive in my life right now.

 

[Aster]

Focus on yourself and your little one honey, give yourself time to experience emotions. Love and hugs xxx xxx

 

[Dipar_Butt3]

Hello Ladies

I had to read a lot of pages to get caught up with everybody..I've been busy these days. I'm with your Mrskc with people who get their bfp's and then they vanish!


Hey my mamas-to-be. WHERE ARE YOU?..DID YOU LEAVE US??...They will be back. I can't believed i'm in my 2ww and i'm not even trying this time. But i hope all is well with eveybody!

 

[J_K_L]

I'm here! I just do more reading and praying than writing. Thinkg about and praying for you all!


And CONGRATS Im_mI!!!! This is it!

 

[im_mi]

Hello girls!

So much to catch up on in such a short time!

Evie, sending you massive hugs i hope these intense feelings pass soon and that you are able to feel hopeful again.

JKL, thank you for your congrats!

Dipar, its nice to see you around!

Aster, its great to hear that you are feeling OK about your colleague now

and lots of love and prayers to anyone i have forgotten to reply to here!

Feeling amazing today, really amazing. DH and I talked about God earlier and he said he is so glad to have found Him finally, and that he loves the warm fuzzy feeling he gets when he prays. i told him that feeling is the Holy Spirit I experienced the Holy Spirit for the first time the other day, when Evie (Aaisrie) and I had a conversation about some God stuff and ever since i have been hearing God speak to me so clearly, every time i think about it i feel so warm like there are arms around me. Oh, the power of prayer! i prayed just a few weeks ago that DH would open his heart to the Lord and it happened, and so quickly! Praise Him!

I love our Lord so much life is just slotting into place so perfectly. I wish i could bottle this feeling and share it with all of you.

 

[pinkflamingo]

Hi ladies,
I hope you don't mind me gatecrashing your thread, but I just wanted to say 'hi' to you all. I am not an overly religious person myself, but I just wanted to say that there is such a great 'feeling' on this thread and lots of positivity. I enjoy having a peek at it now and again and hope you don't mind!

Congrats to those of you with your BFP's and good luck to everyone waiting.

PF xx

 

[mrskcbrown]

Hello Ladies

I had to read a lot of pages to get caught up with everybody..I've been busy these days. I'm with your Mrskc with people who get their bfp's and then they vanish!


Hey my mamas-to-be. WHERE ARE YOU?..DID YOU LEAVE US??...They will be back. I can't believed i'm in my 2ww and i'm not even trying this time. But i hope all is well with eveybody!

Hey girl. Hope all is well. I bet you get your BFP this time. It seems thats when it happens when you stress less. Thats me, less stress. Just loving life and grateful for what God is doing in it.

Thanks for the prayers from all the mommy's to be! Hope you all are feeling fine, and we cant wait to see those babies!

 

[somedaymama]

pink flamingo, hi! :wave: join in whenever you want!

JKL, good to see you! How is the pregnancy going?

Immi, I'm glad you and DH are doing so well.

 

[Dipar_Butt3]

Hello Ladies

I had to read a lot of pages to get caught up with everybody..I've been busy these days. I'm with your Mrskc with people who get their bfp's and then they vanish!


Hey my mamas-to-be. WHERE ARE YOU?..DID YOU LEAVE US??...They will be back. I can't believed i'm in my 2ww and i'm not even trying this time. But i hope all is well with eveybody!

Hey girl. Hope all is well. I bet you get your BFP this time. It seems thats when it happens when you stress less. Thats me, less stress. Just loving life and grateful for what God is doing in it.

Thanks for the prayers from all the mommy's to be! Hope you all are feeling fine, and we cant wait to see those babies!

Hey Mrskc,

So far all is well. I had to experince some crazy stuff on my end of the computer screen but other then that all is well. When ever GOD give me a bfp then he will. I'm not looking into ttc this cycle and DP doesn't want to miss it. I'm tired of every month after month hoping for a bfp and then AF always shows. Less stress is the best and it's the test that will give you a bfp and everything else.

I am excited on what GOD is doing this year and this season in my life.