F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[Aaisrie]

Im - apparently it can. It's just because she has had this cough and runny nose for nearly 2 months and apparently thats a sign of it too?

 

[mrskcbrown]

Hey all!

I am doing well. I had those nagging "O" pains on yesterday. We friday and saturday. We also yesterday but no. I think DH gets stage fright when I mention that I am "Oing". Its probably not consciously but subconsciously. We will today as well, and we will be less tired so hopefully hubby can perform. I had a DR's appt on wednesday with my RE to discuss IUI but we decided that we will just wait until we have been married a year. If no by then, then we will proceed with the IUI.

I have so much faith that this can truly happen on our own. Maybe I have too much PMA?? I think of the women in the bible who had PCOS and didnt know it, and eventually conceived. Im sure they had conception problems as well, but what did they do back then??? Many of them prayed and trusted God, so thats what I am doing. Not to say that I dont get discouraged because I do, but I dont stay there. I pick myself up, dust off and try again! I test on February 17 and maybe it will be a or maybe not? I dont stop my life because Im not .

I enjoy it to the fullest!!!

 

[TaeBoMama]

As far as the pregnant ladies not keeping up with us on here: I totally get that. I'm so unpregnant and I can't keep up! I do read all the posts, but don't always have time to reply to everyone. Like right now, I should be teaching my kiddos! It's a trying to conceive team...and once you're pregnant you're no longer TTC. Of course I love to hear from the pregnant gals--But I understand them not coming around as much.

I have to run! I hope to have some chat time with you lovely ladies, soon!

 

[groovygrl]

hello ladies!

I'm so very sad and sorry to tell you that I have lost this one! Owwwie, Owwwie , Owwwie I miscarried and had a d&c last week at 11 weeks. ultrasound indicated development stopped at about 7 weeks.

Like a few others have mentioned recently, I apologise for being absent here due to the shimmy over to pregnancy forums, a fantastic 4 week holiday at home in Canada and all the consuming details re: being pregnant and preparing for a baby. I have jumped in and out to take a peak and soooo thrilled to see the BFP'S and hopefull positive and practicing YAAAAY!

I am going to shimmy over to the new thread "trying again after loss" CUS I INTEND TO GET MY GROOVE ON ASAP! but I'll scootch back here when I'm done sharing and greiving about my loss through forum.

In the meantime, can I please ask for your prayers? I continue to put one foot in front of the other and allow God to guide us through the process of grief. I am surely getting to a place where..."it is well with my soul"

lots of love and baby dust! xoxo Groovy

 

[Aaisrie]

Awww Groovy, that's awful. I'm so sorry. I know I don't know you but maybe when you are back in the TTC corner I can get to know you better.

TaeBoMama I agree, I thought it was a TTC group so I'm totally understanding as to why people leave when they get preg

 

[groovygrl]

Aaisrie,

Thank you, yes I'd really like to get to know you better!

I'm glad you and other's have expressed that there's no judgement for popping in or out. I would be lying if I didn't say there was a little guilt.In my thoughts, this is the place for respect of anticipation, suggestions, hope, giggles, prayer and support in the process of TTC. Although everyone here is so lovely and full of joy, It's not the place to gush about blissfully painfull bigger boobs Nor is it the place to lament my loss

It is however a great place to submit a prayer request.

 

[Aaisrie]

Groovy, you are MORE than welcome to lament your loss here. Prayer is for everything, beginnings and endings. Where friends are, you can lament. Loss is hard, and sometimes it's easier to be around those who share similar values and thoughts. Unless of course being here is too hard for you while you deal with your loss.
I had my MC at just over 6 weeks and it's STILL hard and I'm STILL dealing with it, but now it occupies less space in my head and less space in my everyday thoughts, don't get me wrong it's still with me everyday but now I can CHOOSE not to think about it constantly. I pray He will give you the peace in your heart

x

 

[Deb111]

So sorry to hear of your loss Groovy - take good care of yourself xx

 

[Deb111]

Got my blood test results back today and my progesterone level is 30.7 so apparently I've ovulated (which I was pretty sure of anyway - but still good to know!)

Hope you are all ok

Deb xx

 

[groovygrl]

Dear Aaisrie

Thank you for that!

I am so sorry you have felt this loss too! Yes, it is a comfort to share with women that share the same faith. You would know how I cried and went back and forth. in one breath, accused God of "noooooooo fair?!" In the next, "okay, okay, your will be done." then again with the, "what? you are kidding me? this sucks! we were already planning" back to "bring me peace, I trust you to order and provide." mad, sad, humble, acceptance,hurt, anticipation,etc. etc.

I am glad that there is a place in the not to distant future where it will occupy less space in my head. I also agree that it is a choice. Thanks for the allowing me to do this here Aais.

Blessed Silver lining is that my marraige has grown stronger.

xo Groovy

 

[mrskcbrown]

@Groovygirl: Im so sorry to hear about your loss! I know there are no words that I can say but I do know that God is a healer and He can do anything but fail. He will bless you with a BFP that goes all the way to term and will be blessed, just for your faithfulness!

@Deb: That is an excellent number. I think the highest Ive ever gotten is like a 32. Im excited for you and hope all is going well in your life!

@Taebomama: Good to see all is well with you! One day to testing I see. GL and I hope you get a BFP!

 

[groovygrl]

thank you for the hugs sent across the pacific ocean! sharing ur beautiful spirit continues to be a gift here! ( recent pic change is pretty and glow-y too)

enjoy ur day! and thanks for reminding me that faith makes everything possible!

It's all there waiting for us Mrskc!

 

[somedaymama]

As far as the pregnant ladies not keeping up with us on here: I totally get that. I'm so unpregnant and I can't keep up! I do read all the posts, but don't always have time to reply to everyone. Like right now, I should be teaching my kiddos! It's a trying to conceive team...and once you're pregnant you're no longer TTC. Of course I love to hear from the pregnant gals--But I understand them not coming around as much.

what she said. (except for the teaching my kiddos part, of course ) I love seeing all of our old buddies, but I'm thrilled for all of you that get to move on from TTC!

 

[somedaymama]

Groovygrl, I am so so sorry to hear about your loss. The TTC After Loss section is great, and feel free to lament your loss here whenever you want. I know I do, and mine was months ago. I'm praying for you. Take care. I'm glad you and your husband have been able to come together through this. Don't isolate each other through your pain.

 

[groovygrl]

dear somedaymama,

thank you for your words of encouragement

im so sorry for your loss too. Oh it's so very sad! Looking around the TTC after loss forum has been helpful and makes me so very grateful to be able to trust in the lord!

i am praying for your healthy BFP

xo Groovy

 

[Aaisrie]

Dear Aaisrie

Thank you for that!

I am so sorry you have felt this loss too! Yes, it is a comfort to share with women that share the same faith. You would know how I cried and went back and forth. in one breath, accused God of "noooooooo fair?!" In the next, "okay, okay, your will be done." then again with the, "what? you are kidding me? this sucks! we were already planning" back to "bring me peace, I trust you to order and provide." mad, sad, humble, acceptance,hurt, anticipation,etc. etc.

I am glad that there is a place in the not to distant future where it will occupy less space in my head. I also agree that it is a choice. Thanks for the allowing me to do this here Aais.

Blessed Silver lining is that my marraige has grown stronger.

xo Groovy

Trust me, if you'd heard my conversation with God at that point in time... well I'm sure many ladies here wouldn't find it acceptable Christian language! I don't hold my tongue with God, and I know he would expect nothing less from me! He got it in the neck, plain and simple. It's NOT fair!! That's the truth BUT just as Job was blessed 10 fold, so we will be. Everything was taken from Job, not by God but by satan and that's what we have to remember. I think like any loss, whether it's a father, brother, cousin, aunt, it's still a loss, it's still part of our genetics and we need to grieve and shout and scream because that's what brings it to a place of occupying less space, that's how we deal with it. We are only human and to stand by and say "It's God's will" would be false and wrong and only building a wall between us. Let it out, get it out, do whatever you need to do!

We are all here to pray for whatever you need, you only have to say the word. I hope God is giving you peace with this, little steps, one at a time.

 

[somedaymama]

Aaisrie, I know you were talking to groovygrl, but your words were very encouraging to me. Thanks.

 

[Aster]

So sorry for your loss groovygrl. Sending you huge hugs. xxxxx

Still no symptoms for me...11DPO... ho hum....

 

[Aaisrie]

I'm glad Someday - I didn't realise you had had a loss, sorry I know it's in your sig I just noticed it now :S

I'm glad you get some comfort in it. I hate Job, not hate him but the actually book, in fact I dislike reading most of the Bible (I'm not behind the doors in saying how I feel, even if it SOUNDS unChristian!) but I had to read Job as part of the Christian youthwork I did a few yrs ago. I found it incredibly boring but I still read it and learnt how God blesses when the devil hurts, he repays what the devil takes from us. It's also about looking at reality - my MIL said to me there is a reason for everything, maybe your body wasn't ready to carry another, maybe there was something wrong with the baby (I know it's cliche but true), maybe the timing isn't right. There are so many reasons as to why we experience loss but I know in hindsight it works out for the best. The Bible verse I live by is Romans 5:3-5:

3Not only so, but we[c] also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

How amazing is that REJOYCE in our sufferings, because it will make us stronger, it will make us BETTER people. That suffering is what brings hope and hope comes from God. Hope does NOT disappoint us, trust Him, believe he will fulfill. I don't believe God gives us the desire for children to taunt us, but because he wants to fulfill it. This month I am praying "Either promise you will grant my desire or take my desire away".

 

[Guppy051708]

Sorry for your loss hun
It took me a while to understand that Satan caused my miscarriage- not God. BUT God did find a way to glorify that tragedy in my life. I am convinced he will do the same for yours. I know what suffering must be taking place. If you need anything, dont hesitate to ask. Praying for you