F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[Deb111]

Thanks Deb! I appreciate it! How are you doing?

Not too bad thanks - back at work after a week off on Monday - really not looking forward to it

Hope you and dh had a nice day

 

[Deb111]

Hi ladies,

Can I please join this group

A little about me. I got married in September 09 and we started TTC the very same day We are now entering into our 7th cycle and continue to pray for that elusive BFP.

I have been on this site for a while (but don't post very often), I just love to read all the wonderful posts, advice, encouragement and support.
No one knows we are TTC so coming on here has been very useful, and has helped during some of the tougher times, and this time is no different.

DH and I are both Christians and pray together first thing every morning. DH thankfully also wants a mini me as much as I do so pretty much tries whatever I ask him to in the hopes of making a baby.

I usually get quite down round about when comes, and then get a re newed PMA once she's gone.

This cycle I just feel deflated, I actually couldn't bring myself to pray this morning, and have spent most of the day to DH. I felt angry and disappointed and a fraud if I tried to pray. I came on to BnB and what do I come across but this thread / group. Just reading the first few pages I began to I really feel GOD is reaching out to me through you beautiful ladies.

I would really love to be able to continue to talk with you and share this trying experience as I have already received so much encouragement from the 1st few post (back in November)

I won't lie, I am still very low and emotional, but don't feel so alone anymore. In all my time on this forum (and that is A LOT) I have never come across this group, and just at a time when I was shying away from reaching out to our father HE reaches out to me and guides me here.

It just reminds me GOD is good all the time.

Hi and welcome to this wonderful group. I think it's a pretty usual cycle of disappointment and then pulling ourselves together to start all over again. It's been my pattern for the last 19 months

Hope you get your very soon
Deb x

 

[mrskcbrown]

Welcome Beanni! Sure you can join us!!!! You can rant to us too, we understand! We are all trying to achieve the same goal and that is a beautiful baby!!

 

[beanni #1]

Thank you ladies. I know in comparison we have not been trying as long as some, and I really don't want to whinge. I am just so grateful for finding you ladies at this time

 

[mrskcbrown]

Believe me, time has nothing to do with it. TTC is TTC. We are here for you!

 

[Dahlia]

Agreed - time has nothing to do with it. I think I'm in my tenth cycle now - I really am started to forget!

Beannie - welcome. yeah, this is a pretty great group. the Lord has def spoken to me a few times through these ladies.

praying for you to get your bfp.

 

[somedaymama]

Someday - awesome. this is what I do every month - treat myself. It's the one thing I actually look forward to when I think or know that I am out...a new shirt, pizza, or the like!

what kind of shoes are you looking for? I am obsessed with boots.

I love boots too! I wanted some for this winter, and it took me MONTHS to find some that I liked. Then I waited until the Black Friday sale and got them super cheap! Today I was looking for heels. Heels are my absolute favorite shoes, the higher the better! I have to take DH shopping because he is brutally honest about whether they are too stripper-high. I didn't find any today because I'm looking for something very specific for a school event I have next week. I need black, closed-toe, and preferably a few inches of heel! ...and all that without making me look like a hooker. I wear a size 10--probably actually a 10.5, but nobody sells those. That makes it hard to find shoes that fit! Hopefully I'll find some tomorrow...

 

[somedaymama]

Welcome Beanni! :wave: I hope you get your BFP very soon! Congrats on the marriage!

 

[Dipar_Butt3]

hey Dipar! I'm glad you were able to talk to you dad! How are you doing?

Hey Someday,

Yea talking to my dad, made my day :-D I'm doing good so far. How are you?

 

[Dahlia]

Someday -
I love Zappos - but if you have to try them on - then prob in store is better. do you have a dsw near you? love their sale racks in the the off season.

whatever the heel it sounds fun! love heels too - but I call it off after a 3 incher. how much higher can you go?! how do you walk? and you are tall too, right? if I remember correctly. I'm tall -but still love heels, I like being able to see over everyone around me - including the men

 

[somedaymama]

I wish I could shop for shoes online...but yeah, I have trouble with sizing 'cause of my big feet.

I tried on a pair today that were about 4.5 inches (edit--I looked on the website, they are 4.25 inches), but DH said they were kinda slutty looking...gotta love the painful honesty. They were also shiny black, which didn't help. I have a pair of sandals that are 4 inches, but I only wear them with jeans so they don't look quite as high. Normal comfy heels for me are about 3 inches. People always ask me how I can walk in the super-tall ones, but I guess it's just a skill. lol. You remembered right--I am tall! I'm 5'9" but I like to be super tall with my heels on. I guess I like to look down at people. My DH is 6'2" and I've yet to find a pair of shoes that makes me taller than him.

I'm editing my post to avoid annoying anyone who doesn't like shoe talk by having another post about it. These are the shoes I tried on today. ooooh I want them!

 

[somedaymama]

My temp went up today....no yet!

 

[Guppy051708]

Thats a nice chart you got there someday!!!!!

 

[im_mi]

looks like youre still in with a shot there, someday!! xx

 

[Dahlia]

we are pretty much the same! i'm 5'9" and dh is 6'3"...we are gonna have long/tall babies!!!!!!!! cute shoes. yeah, the patent leather w/ the high heel could give off the hooker vibe a bit - but u can make it work if the rest of ur outfit is more conservative. I love hidden platforms too! ahh, shoe talk.

k, gonna go chart/journal stalk u now. I think i officially o'd yest! yee haaaaaaaaaa.

 

[somedaymama]

I think we are going to have some big babies. The tallest person in my family is my uncle who is 6'8" and the shortest is my sister who is 5'7" ... so everyone's pretty tall! DH's dad's family is smaller, but everyone else in his family is tall. Funny that you and I and are DHs are about the same height!

 

[mrskcbrown]

Good looking chart someday mama! I hope this is it. Good thing, no af! i still havent gotten AF yet. Today is the 4th day. So Im still holding onto a little hope. Still lots of CM, crampy, so bad DH had to rub lower back today, and im always tired so not sure if that is a sign, LOL. BTW, church was awesome today!!! The pastor preached on Grace and mercy!!! I was in tears!!!!

I like the shoes too, someday. You all are tall. I am 5'5 or 5'6 and DH is 5'9.

 

[Guppy051708]

the shortest person is 5 foot 7?!?! thats nuts!
Im only 5 foot 1!

 

[groovygrl]

Oh I wish I could have heard that sermon!

I am having really lousy day I got AF yesterday (this one really painfull and messy)and even though it's probably best to have after my loss, I'm soooo crushed. I can't help but go to the place where I am reminded that DH and I have only got 30 more cycles to TTC. That's where we had drawn our 'line' to move forward without babies. I never thought I wouldn't be a mom. It's getting too real re: wrapping my head around this. We aren't going to persue IVF 'cus in NZ there is no funding for fertility treatment of any sort and we def. can't afford to pay privately. DH gone a lot at the beginning of this year. I'm trying so hard not to be angry, frustrated and selfish. His job involves getting aid to people in the world who are suffering more than I'll ever know. Who am I to cry out for mercy and grace?

Am I allowed to say that seeing the text 'BabyandBump when I opened this page made me growl today?

on the upside,I'm honestly inspired tho by your stories of fending off smelly old AF mrskc and someday.i love feeling so hopeful 4 you. also inspired by shoes, glorious shoes someday.

yaaay to guppy for getting to box 4

wecome beanni!

Dipar, what a lovely valentines pressie

aaisrie, love how the lord is working in your life as of late! $ stress sucks!

thanks for ur support and prayers. need today

 

[somedaymama]

Glad to hear AF is still staying away mrskc! Four days late is great!

Guppy - I know, it's crazy! We all tower over everyone!

groovy, I'm sorry you're having a bad day. I'm sorry the came. I wish I could do more, but I'm praying for you. Thirty cycles is a lot of tries! You can do this!

I really enjoyed church today too. We've been looking for a new church with more people our age and with little kiddos because I want to teach Sunday School again. We tried a new place today, and I really liked it!