F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[Deb111]

Deb - How are you holding up? Your hubby??? Any developments??? I feel the waiting period for hubby's issue to be sorted out sooo mega l-o-n-g! Just seems to keep stretching.

Have a great weekend everybody! Today's the last day I'm spending in my old apartment. Sob... Quite emotional. But still, I need to look forward and not keep looking in my rear view mirror.

Thanks Cheerios

The waiting is VERY hard. It's still 3 months away!! As you know, we delayed it as we wanted to give the vitamins and supplements a go first to make sure that any sperm they can hopefully find are healthy, but it doesn't make the waiting any easier. At least we know we've given it our best try!

My counsellor pointed out that I seem to be holding it together for everyone. I feel like I have to hide some of my feelings from hubby because I don't want to make him feel bad and I have to hide some if it from my Mum because she would worry if she knew how down it's getting me at times. Also with the op being 3 months away, we can't discuss it every day because right now we just have to get on with life whilst we wait.

Thanks for your concern and I hope your move goes well. I get very attached to homes too so I understand how hard it will be but maybe it's the fresh start you need before getting back to TTC

Have a good weekend xx

 

[somedaymama]

someday and willbe - How are you two? Always found it funny how both your names are sooo similar! haha.

Funny, I hadn't thought about that, but we do have similar names! I'm doing pretty good, I don't think I mentioned it here but I have shingles. Apparently the pregnancy suppressed my immune system and made me susceptible to it. It's getting better though, and isn't nearly as painful as it was a few days ago. The baby has been kicking away the last few days, and that is so reassuring, epecially since I'm worried about the medicine I have to take for the shingles.

I LOVE your new picture! so cute!

 

[mrskcbrown]

someday and willbe - How are you two? Always found it funny how both your names are sooo similar! haha.

Funny, I hadn't thought about that, but we do have similar names! I'm doing pretty good, I don't think I mentioned it here but I have shingles. Apparently the pregnancy suppressed my immune system and made me susceptible to it. It's getting better though, and isn't nearly as painful as it was a few days ago. The baby has been kicking away the last few days, and that is so reassuring, epecially since I'm worried about the medicine I have to take for the shingles.

I LOVE your new picture! so cute!

I hope you feel better very soon. I know it must have been hard a few days ago. Ive never had anything like measels, mumps or anything. I better be careful.

 

[somedaymama]

Thanks mrskc! The funny thing about shingles is there is no way to predict that it will come because it can't be "caught" from someone else. I had a really strong immune system pre-pregnancy and I assumed I still did, but wow was I wrong! The only way to prevent shingles is with a vaccine, but that is not regularly given to people under 60!! Just eat as healthy as you can, lots of veggies, and you'll probably be fine...mostly people don't develop weird illnesses during pregnancy. Oh and your MMR vaccine should protect you against measles or mumps.

 

[Deb111]

Sorry you're not well someday. Hope you're feeling better real soon xx

 

[Deb111]

So I've been feeling a bit down lately and have been thinking ... where is God in all this that we are going through?

And then I think, is this God's way of telling us that we're not supposed to have children and that something might go majorly wrong if we try, which is why he hasn't made it possible for us? I'm not sure that makes sense to anyone?

 

[willbamom1day]

We had a bad storm here today that seemed to last all day but the good news is it has passed and hubby is takin me for ice cream

cheerios I love your avatar pic

happy sorry about the bfn keep that positive attitude

guppy I'm gonna see iff I can come up with any more verses and get back to you. Isaiah any day now I am so excited for you

mrskc I remember when we went on the Disney cruise and rode the banana boat it was the best time and some of us fell off too. Glad you had a good time and are back safe on dry land

Isi glad to hear your enjoying the time with your bestiee

Deb I know it's hard when we don't know what God's plan is for us but I know that if you stand strong in the Lord and believe He will not lead you wrong

as for me I had a horrible dream lastnight about my hubbys mom who is in heaven - she told me in my dream that the baby was coming to be with her in heaven I was so freaked out. I still feel very calm and know God is in full control.

and prayers for you all

 

[Rdy2BaMom]

Hello all! I have been soooo busy lately, but I have a few minutes so I am going to try to play catch up

Mrskc-glad you enjoyed your cruise and even more glad you got home safe! That would be so scary! Thank goodness for our guardian angels

Guppy- wish you could be in Austin too. . . then I could meet you! Maybe someday all of us ladies can meet, that would be awesome! You don't have much longer to go until you get to meet little Isaiah! I am praying for the birth that you desire.

Cheerios-Yes, my insurance covers my office visits and ultrasounds but does not cover stuff like IUI or IVF, just everything leading up to that. I am really looking forward to our appointment Monday.

Ruby-welcome back! Good to see you and congrats on your's and DH's weight loss I need to lose some weight myself, I'm just really not motivated. You are seeing a specialist the day after me. . . blessings! Hope they can help you two out.

Happy-sorry to hear about your cat for you! Always remember, God never gives us more than He knows we can handle Sorry to hear about the BFN too. Keeping you in my prayers.

Deb- how are you doing?? Hope your appt went well. I too have wondered where God is in all of this at times. I never thought it would take me 15 mos+ to get pregnant, and I am still waiting. Just recently I too have wondered "are we not suppose to have children of our own?" But then I remember what the scripture says, and I know that God knows the desires of my heart because He put them there. We will be blessed with a child just like you will dear. Hang in there!

Willbe-how are things going for you? Sorry to hear about your bad dream. . . that would be so hard. Praying for you!

Isi-hope you enjoy your vacation!! We don't get ours until October, but it will be so worth it.

Dahlia- haven't heard from you much. . how have you been??

Cornbread- glad your DH's surgery went well. Hopefully he will have lots of relief without those plates. I have 2 plates and 11 screws in my right forearm and they drive me nuts sometimes. Blessings on you!

someday-shingles are awful! Sorry you are having to go through that, but so glad to hear that the baby is doing just fine I have had shingles a few times but I learned how to recognize it quickly so I can start meds fast. Hope you are feeling better!

Sorry if I missed anyone!!

AFM- I am really looking forward to our FS appointment on Monday. We spent yesterday in Dallas with my bro and sil. We went to an IMAX theater and saw Inception and then ate at Grimaldi's. It was nice to get out of town for a while. Over the past week we have been working on fixing our house up. We fell in love with another house not too far from where we live now and so we want to move. I am praying so hard that if that house isn't for us, that it will sell, and if it is, God will have it for us as soon as we are ready. We still have to tile our kitchen, paint our cabinets and living room, and rip up our carpet in our living room. It's a lot of work, but I think it will all pay off in the end. Hope you all have a very blessed weekend!

 

[mrskcbrown]

Hello all! I have been soooo busy lately, but I have a few minutes so I am going to try to play catch up

Mrskc-glad you enjoyed your cruise and even more glad you got home safe! That would be so scary! Thank goodness for our guardian angels

Guppy- wish you could be in Austin too. . . then I could meet you! Maybe someday all of us ladies can meet, that would be awesome! You don't have much longer to go until you get to meet little Isaiah! I am praying for the birth that you desire.

Cheerios-Yes, my insurance covers my office visits and ultrasounds but does not cover stuff like IUI or IVF, just everything leading up to that. I am really looking forward to our appointment Monday.

Ruby-welcome back! Good to see you and congrats on your's and DH's weight loss I need to lose some weight myself, I'm just really not motivated. You are seeing a specialist the day after me. . . blessings! Hope they can help you two out.

Happy-sorry to hear about your cat for you! Always remember, God never gives us more than He knows we can handle Sorry to hear about the BFN too. Keeping you in my prayers.

Deb- how are you doing?? Hope your appt went well. I too have wondered where God is in all of this at times. I never thought it would take me 15 mos+ to get pregnant, and I am still waiting. Just recently I too have wondered "are we not suppose to have children of our own?" But then I remember what the scripture says, and I know that God knows the desires of my heart because He put them there. We will be blessed with a child just like you will dear. Hang in there!

Willbe-how are things going for you? Sorry to hear about your bad dream. . . that would be so hard. Praying for you!

Isi-hope you enjoy your vacation!! We don't get ours until October, but it will be so worth it.

Dahlia- haven't heard from you much. . how have you been??

Cornbread- glad your DH's surgery went well. Hopefully he will have lots of relief without those plates. I have 2 plates and 11 screws in my right forearm and they drive me nuts sometimes. Blessings on you!

someday-shingles are awful! Sorry you are having to go through that, but so glad to hear that the baby is doing just fine I have had shingles a few times but I learned how to recognize it quickly so I can start meds fast. Hope you are feeling better!

Sorry if I missed anyone!!

AFM- I am really looking forward to our FS appointment on Monday. We spent yesterday in Dallas with my bro and sil. We went to an IMAX theater and saw Inception and then ate at Grimaldi's. It was nice to get out of town for a while. Over the past week we have been working on fixing our house up. We fell in love with another house not too far from where we live now and so we want to move. I am praying so hard that if that house isn't for us, that it will sell, and if it is, God will have it for us as soon as we are ready. We still have to tile our kitchen, paint our cabinets and living room, and rip up our carpet in our living room. It's a lot of work, but I think it will all pay off in the end. Hope you all have a very blessed weekend!

Thats awesome about the appt and your home. God will bless you either way on the home. We currently live in a very nice home that my parents own. Its only 4 yrs old, and it use to be a model home so it has all the upgrades and I love it. DH and I want to move though. Partly because we want to own our own home. DH and I had some credit mistakes in the past so we are rebuilding and believing God for our own home but sometimes I get discouraged and think it will never happen. When DH talks about it, its like it goes in one ear and out the other. Please pray for me that I can have faith in this area as well, because I really, really want to own my own home. My name is on this home I currently live in but I still do not feel like it is mines.

Deb, I think if God has given you the desire then He is well able to fulfill it. I dont think He dangles things in your face and then say, nah im not going to give it to you. I think its more of a faith walk, and being able to trust Him fully. I wouldnt give up, if its something you truly want. Praying for you!

Hope everyone is well!

 

[willbamom1day]

Look to the heavens for more than stars tonight - Thy mercy, O Lord, is in the heavens Psalms 36:5

 

[Terangela]

Deb & Rdy- I totally remember those same feelings of where is God and what is his plan in making us wait? I remember finally saying "God if it is your desire for us to parent a child that is not our own I will do it that way! I know that I will be a parent, I just don't know how you want me to get the child" we filled out adoption paperwork and were discussing when to file it and get the process started when I got PG. 2 yrs and 8 months. It was a long and frustrating journey. Now I see how God worked his miracle and gave me the children he did when he did. I also see how if I conceived at a different time then I would have had different children and they wouldn't have had the same personalities, the same interests or been the same people. I think God has a plan and purpose for their lives and he brought them into existence at the perfect time to accomplish certain things in their lifetime. God has such purpose for things. I also know that I appreciate my children so much more because they were so hard to come by. I truly put more effort into raising them than I might have had they been easily conceived. I know God was preparing my heart to be a better more attentive and God honoring mother. I know that I built more character and patience in my waiting to get PG than I ever had before.

Our God is an awesome God! We have had a series of sermons about character... I have been really thinking about this very topic in how to instill character in my kids. It always seems that when I am feeling the need for more knowledge in an area or to be be reassured in an area, that is what the sermon is about. I am going to do some more reading this week and look for some kids Bible studies on the different Characteristics that they have taught on so far.

I have been flipping back and forth on quitting my job and giving up on getting a maternity leave (we could really use that extra money for a year) as the job is hard on my body and it is killing me when I don't get to spend time with the kids or as a family. Then I tell myself I can do it, that I can persevere and get through the next few months for the greater benefit of our family. To be honest it is only 5 months of working and I can be done for at least 2 years. I would really like the money. My legs just kill at the end of the day along with the rest of my body. If I could get you ladies to pray I make the right choice.

 

[Deb111]

Hi Angela

What job is it you do?

I am praying that you have some guidance to make the decision that is right for you and your family xx

 

[willbamom1day]

Any goals you really want to reach this month - Put your trust in the Lord Psalms 4:5

 

[Terangela]

Deb- I am only doing a retail job right now as it was quick and easy to find. If I were doing a desk job or working where I could sit now and then I would likely be fine. Unfortunately I am on my feet the entire shift. I think the whole thing is I am bored and so it makes it hard to want to be there. Especially when I know I am going to return to a messy house and no groceries in the fridge. My DH is not much of a multitasking individual. If he is watching the kids he usually takes them to the park and will stay there until it is time to eat or someone has to pee. He doesn't put a priority on getting other things done too. Another thing that frustrates me about working.

 

[FutureMommie]

Happy Auntie: I'm so sorry that you have been having a rough time, but glad that you are feeling a little more encouraged. I know your bfp is coming soon.

Deb: Praying for you

Isi Buttercup: Enjoy your vacation! Keep us posted on what you decided about IVF, I know you will make the best decisions for you

Cornbread: Glad your hubbys surgery was a success!

Someday: I hope you begin to feel better really soon, the end result will be so worth it.

Deb and Terangela: I subscribe to Sarah's laughter, which send out inspirational emails daily about infertilty and relates it to the bible and just Friday It was talking about this very thing; Gods Timing, and and how if God allowed plans for us to unfold before his perfect timing would we even conceive the same child? We should be assured that there is a purpose and a plan for the child that God has divinely laid out for us. There will be other people whose lives need the impact that only our child can bring. What if our child was conceived in our timing rather than in God's perfect timing? Ive been ttc for 2.5 years, and it's been so hard, and even though in my mind I knew that I didn't want to become pg before it was my time, it's the waiting that is so hard, but after reading that email from Sarah's laughter I feel like I can go on a little longer, I know the end result will be well worth the wait, and it will make ME a better mother for the struggles.

WillBeMom- You are right, God is in control, only he decides! I'm sorry you had that bad dream, i'm praying for you

Rdy2 Be- Good luck with the house, you are looking at it the right way, if it is meant for you guys it will happen! I know you wouldn't want it otherwise.

MrsKC - praying for you guys, you can do anything you put your mind to, and credit can be repaired. In the maintime enjoy the nice home you are currently in, just set goals for yourself and feel good everytime you make progress towards them.

A little about me, I'm cd 7 and trying to relax and enjoy my hubby! Hope this is our month.

 

[Cornbread]

Well, God answered our prayers.

 

[mrskcbrown]

Well, God answered our prayers.

OMG congrats! I am so happy for you! Praying for a happy & healthy 9 months!

 

[Guppy051708]

Congratulations cornbread!!!

 

[somedaymama]

Congrats Cornbread!! Nice temp rise today!

 

[Rdy2BaMom]

Congrats cornbread!

Ladies- I am needing prayers. We went to the FS today, and it was mostly bad news. I am fine, as we already knew, as for my DH, we got a different perspective from this Dr. She informed us that although his sperm count is higher (which is good, almost to 19m and we started at only 3mil.) most of his sperm don't swim forward, which means they can't get anywhere. This was never really brought to our attention earlier, at least not in detail. She told us we can try IUI, but because the sperm don't swim forward, it will more than likely not work. That leaves us with the only other option of IVF, and we just can't afford that. I'm so torn, I have no idea what to do, and I just wanna scream, cry, and give up. Please just pray for healing for my DH for whatever is causing this issue. I know God is big enough and He can heal my husband from his "unexplained" fertility issues. Thanks in advance. . .and I apologize if I'm not on much for a while, my emotions just can't take much more of this. Love you all!