I don't know if this is just a wobble or what but the last few days I've really wanted to stop BF'ing but I feel so bad about it.
My baby's just been through a period of cluster feeding so maybe it's the sleep deprivation but sometimes I feel like BF'ing is making me miserable. I feel so worn out by it, physically and mentally. As soon as she starts feeding I get in a really awful mood. I wonder if this hormonal.
I'm also feeling really tied down by it. For example, today we went shopping. I spent half an hour shopping and more than 2 hours feeding her in total and she still cried like she was hungry the whole way home even though I'd just fed and changed her. She feeds for at least 40 minutes at a time and usually every hour and a half during the day and every 2-3 hours at night. My HV says after 20 mins she's just grazing but she's still swallowing pretty often and hates coming off if I try limiting her so I don't think the HV is right in this case.
I keep thinking how nice it would be if I could have a break. Since she she feeds so often I never get the chance to express milk and the one time I did manage to, she drank the whole lot and then breastfed for 40 minutes as usual anyway.
But the idea of not BF'ing makes me feel really selfish. I don't want to give her something synthetic just because I'm feeling fed up. It doesn't seem like a good enough reason to stop. I want to do what's best for her.
Aargh I just don't know what to do. My OH just says do what I think is best. I have no idea.
Anyone else felt like this?
My baby's just been through a period of cluster feeding so maybe it's the sleep deprivation but sometimes I feel like BF'ing is making me miserable. I feel so worn out by it, physically and mentally. As soon as she starts feeding I get in a really awful mood. I wonder if this hormonal.
I'm also feeling really tied down by it. For example, today we went shopping. I spent half an hour shopping and more than 2 hours feeding her in total and she still cried like she was hungry the whole way home even though I'd just fed and changed her. She feeds for at least 40 minutes at a time and usually every hour and a half during the day and every 2-3 hours at night. My HV says after 20 mins she's just grazing but she's still swallowing pretty often and hates coming off if I try limiting her so I don't think the HV is right in this case.
I keep thinking how nice it would be if I could have a break. Since she she feeds so often I never get the chance to express milk and the one time I did manage to, she drank the whole lot and then breastfed for 40 minutes as usual anyway.
But the idea of not BF'ing makes me feel really selfish. I don't want to give her something synthetic just because I'm feeling fed up. It doesn't seem like a good enough reason to stop. I want to do what's best for her.
Aargh I just don't know what to do. My OH just says do what I think is best. I have no idea.
Anyone else felt like this?