dollych
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Hi,
I'm so embarrassed to be even writing this, but I have to tell somebody, I am absolutely devastated. I had a 16 week gender scan on Monday and found out we are having another boy. I love my first little boy to bits, but all I've ever wanted is to have a little girl. I wanted a girl first time, but was so happy when my son was born because I've always wanted one of each so I was convinced this was going to be a girl. I was so excited about this pregnancy, but now I feel like all my dreams have been shattered. I have been crying for 3 days now and I really can't see me being happy about this pregnancy again. I used to get up every morning and was excited, but now I just cry.
I know you will think I'm a horrible person and I know I am because I should be happy I am pregnant with another healthy miracle, but I just can't pretend. My husband knows I'm upset, but he doesn't realize I am devastated. I feel like somebody has died and I will never get over this.
We are only having two so I will never get to have a special Mother daughter relationship or dress her in lovely clothes or help her choose her wedding dress. I'm just mortified.
It makes it worse because all my family were saying before the scan how they would love a grandaughter / niece/ cousin and all my friends and work colleagues were saying " Wouldn't it be nice to have a girl next, bet you would love a girl".
It's just so upsetting. I've been to loads of psychics over the last 10 years and they all said I would have a boy and a girl. I just can't believe I'm having another boy. I shouldn't have convinced myself it would be a girl.
I was being so healthy up until now and now I just don't care and have even thought I wouldn't be upset if anything happened to the baby, whereas before the scan I would worry about the baby and would have been devastated if I had had a miscarriage. Please don't judge me, I'm usually a happy, caring loving person so I really don't know where these feelings are coming from. I feel so unhappy, depressed, distraught and angry. I have never felt like this or had thoughts like this in my entire life before. I am even thinking of going talking to a Doctor because I am that upset and shocked at my feelings.
I am so thankful to have found this thread and to know that I'm not the only one. Does anyone have any advice?. Thanks x
I'm so embarrassed to be even writing this, but I have to tell somebody, I am absolutely devastated. I had a 16 week gender scan on Monday and found out we are having another boy. I love my first little boy to bits, but all I've ever wanted is to have a little girl. I wanted a girl first time, but was so happy when my son was born because I've always wanted one of each so I was convinced this was going to be a girl. I was so excited about this pregnancy, but now I feel like all my dreams have been shattered. I have been crying for 3 days now and I really can't see me being happy about this pregnancy again. I used to get up every morning and was excited, but now I just cry.
I know you will think I'm a horrible person and I know I am because I should be happy I am pregnant with another healthy miracle, but I just can't pretend. My husband knows I'm upset, but he doesn't realize I am devastated. I feel like somebody has died and I will never get over this.
We are only having two so I will never get to have a special Mother daughter relationship or dress her in lovely clothes or help her choose her wedding dress. I'm just mortified.
It makes it worse because all my family were saying before the scan how they would love a grandaughter / niece/ cousin and all my friends and work colleagues were saying " Wouldn't it be nice to have a girl next, bet you would love a girl".
It's just so upsetting. I've been to loads of psychics over the last 10 years and they all said I would have a boy and a girl. I just can't believe I'm having another boy. I shouldn't have convinced myself it would be a girl.
I was being so healthy up until now and now I just don't care and have even thought I wouldn't be upset if anything happened to the baby, whereas before the scan I would worry about the baby and would have been devastated if I had had a miscarriage. Please don't judge me, I'm usually a happy, caring loving person so I really don't know where these feelings are coming from. I feel so unhappy, depressed, distraught and angry. I have never felt like this or had thoughts like this in my entire life before. I am even thinking of going talking to a Doctor because I am that upset and shocked at my feelings.
I am so thankful to have found this thread and to know that I'm not the only one. Does anyone have any advice?. Thanks x