I'm still dwelling on my labour and birth. Nothing could have prepared me for the pain of my contractions that were between 3-5 mins apart at only 1-2cm dilated. I was in agony and couldn't cope so we went to hospital. I feel like this affected my labour. Possibly lengthening it. I had gas and air and a pethadine injection, still in agony and I got an epidural which I feel also slowed labour. My epidural didn't even work properly, incomplete block. I was given pitocin which made contractions and pain worse. Started pushing for an hour before being examined to find not fully dilated and given diagnosis of cpd. I don't know how true that is. Could I have given birth vaginally had I not had the epidural? We're my contractions really that bad? Was I just being stupid?
I feel so guilty that I put baby at risk just so I was pain free. He was very affected by the drugs when he was born and I feel so guilty, I'm really struggling thinking about this right now!
I feel so guilty that I put baby at risk just so I was pain free. He was very affected by the drugs when he was born and I feel so guilty, I'm really struggling thinking about this right now!