Yesterday, my back hurt all day. Mostly my upper back. All I really wanted was my husband to rub it and make the muscles relax. He did for a little, but not long enough or hard enough. Consequently, I barely slept. Which always make things worse. I weighed myself this morning, which is something that I should stop doing. I haven't gained any weight at all. I feel terrible. I don't have morning sickness or anything, I'm just not hungry and I don't like the foods that I'm supposed to be eating. I'm trying, but sometimes I can't make myself eat enough. I feel like a failure as a mother already. I'm just feeling sorry for myself today, probably because I'm tired and my back still hurts. I'll be okay. I'm tough....sort of.