Feeling like white trash

[mommyoftwo84]

I apologize in advance, i just need a chance to vent.

So I met my 2 DD's father and we were together for 4 yrs before getting married. Within 6mths of being married he was deployed. I was pregnant with DD#2. Due to a rough start with the pregnacy, DD#1 and I moved home with my parents for help while he was gone. When he returned we had both changed so much it just wasn't working. We split. I honestly thought it would be a short split to work things out but within a month he had a new gf. This all happened before our 2nd yr anniversary. Yay me. Can't even stay married for 2 yrs. Anyway, i guess because he moved on i figured i needed to too. I started dating. And stupid me, ended up getting pregnant. That is not to say that i am not excited to have this baby, (due in 6 wks) just that this is not a good time. HAd major issues with this pregnancy at the beginning and the stress caused the guy i was dating and I to split. I asked for some space but he took that as call and txt literally 10-20 times a day. After losing my temper I have only heard from him about 5x since i was 12 wks pregnant. And his calls go from telling me i am the meanest person in the world and intentionally set out to break his heart to he is so inlove with me and just wants to be with me. I have always admitted that I did start dating to soon and it wasnt fair to him, but once i became pregnant i really wanted to try and make it work. Anyway I am now so close to being due, getting ready to go off on maternity leave, fighting with two baby daddies. Wondering how did my life turn into an episode of Jerry springer?!?!?!?! I am so sick and tired of feeling like a piece of white trash.

Sorry for the rant, just needed to vent.

 

[whatwillbe]

I dont really know what to say hun, part from your not the only woman out there that feels like this i have 3 kids from a previou relationhip and now expecting again, from some one else who im no longer with, i feel the same as in i cant keep a relationship together, but i believe things happen for a reason, maybe there is still a chance of you and fob working things out ? Good luck x

 

[AnnabelsMummy]

It sounds like a pain, similar position, although i have two DD's by the same father - i'd say it was easier, but it's not.
My ex has hardly even acknowledged my DD2 from day 1.. (we we're together till i was about 20 weeks!)..
My life too, felt like a bit of a soap opera, my DD2 is nearly 3 months now, and things have calmed down alot - not sure if it's due to time, due to not being pregnant and hormonal any more, but it'll get better! The battles will wear off, just don't give the battles the time of day!

x

 

[mommyoftwo84]

Thanks guys, I guess it just gets so overwhelming sometimes and of course we are always our own worst critics. I try to hold my head up and not let anyone make me feel bad because all things considered i wouldnt change my life for the world, that would mean i wouldn't have my beautiful babies, but sometimes i can't help but get pulled under. Its really nice to know I am not the only one who feels this way!
Whatwillbe- there is no chance of getting back together with the fob, things that are said can never be unsaid. Just going to stay single forever lol

 

[teal]

Sending you lots of hugs

 

[whatwillbe]

Thanks guys, I guess it just gets so overwhelming sometimes and of course we are always our own worst critics. I try to hold my head up and not let anyone make me feel bad because all things considered i wouldnt change my life for the world, that would mean i wouldn't have my beautiful babies, but sometimes i can't help but get pulled under. Its really nice to know I am not the only one who feels this way!
Whatwillbe- there is no chance of getting back together with the fob, things that are said can never be unsaid. Just going to stay single forever lol

Same here hun, i have 3 beautifull kids and another on the way, and we do tend to put ourselves down too much ! As i said things happen for a reason and i believe baby's come for a reason too, even if not in the best of circumstances, im in that position with the fob too, even though i keep wishing he'll come back to me, too much has been said and done, it would never work now even if he wanted it too wich he doesnt all we can do is pick ourselves up and get on with it x