FJL
Heartbroken after m/c
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I'm sorry if this post brings everyone else down but I just have to get it out.
Since we found out our infertility problems my life has just been one big mess.
I am so sad all the time, I don't want to be around anyone or talk to anyone (besides DH) and i'm just such a hermit...I want to do my own thing and forget about everyone else. I am very close to my family and they're all really worried about me but I can't even bring myself to talk with them on the phone. Everytime I talk about our problems I just burst into tears and i'm sick and tired of crying.
This whole thing has just gutted me beyond belief...I cannot even explain how it has affected me, not to mention DH. I think I have found a new level of rock bottom. Theres rock bottom, then 1000000 feet of shit, then there is me - thats how I feel.
I really want to get some counselling but DH doesn't want to and I don't want to go by myself.
God, I can't remember the last time I returned a friends phone call, and apart from 2 friends, the rest don't even know whats going on and I don't want to tell them because I don't want to hear those same questions and reactions all over again - 'you've got plenty of time, you're only young' or 'you should get a 2nd opinion' or 'I didn't even know you wanted kids yet' or 'you should get out of the house to make you feel better' or 'maybe you should try this and that'.
I'm just over it, over explaining it to everyone.
I'm not quite sure how I am going to pull myself out of this deep, dark place and become a normal person again...I just feel numb all the time. Numb and sad...I don't think i've laughed or smiled for quite some time.
I just had to get that out, not even sure if it made any sense![Cry :cry: :cry:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/cry.gif)
Since we found out our infertility problems my life has just been one big mess.
I am so sad all the time, I don't want to be around anyone or talk to anyone (besides DH) and i'm just such a hermit...I want to do my own thing and forget about everyone else. I am very close to my family and they're all really worried about me but I can't even bring myself to talk with them on the phone. Everytime I talk about our problems I just burst into tears and i'm sick and tired of crying.
This whole thing has just gutted me beyond belief...I cannot even explain how it has affected me, not to mention DH. I think I have found a new level of rock bottom. Theres rock bottom, then 1000000 feet of shit, then there is me - thats how I feel.
I really want to get some counselling but DH doesn't want to and I don't want to go by myself.
God, I can't remember the last time I returned a friends phone call, and apart from 2 friends, the rest don't even know whats going on and I don't want to tell them because I don't want to hear those same questions and reactions all over again - 'you've got plenty of time, you're only young' or 'you should get a 2nd opinion' or 'I didn't even know you wanted kids yet' or 'you should get out of the house to make you feel better' or 'maybe you should try this and that'.
I'm just over it, over explaining it to everyone.
I'm not quite sure how I am going to pull myself out of this deep, dark place and become a normal person again...I just feel numb all the time. Numb and sad...I don't think i've laughed or smiled for quite some time.
I just had to get that out, not even sure if it made any sense
![Cry :cry: :cry:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/cry.gif)