Feeling very sad today

[Yam87]

Today is probably the worst I have felt since my mmc. I couldnt go to work, I sat in bed crying. I just don't feel happy or excited to be pregnant. I'm worried that something has gone wrong or something will go wrong. I have tried to be positive but the stress has built up and I can't escape the negativity today. I do acupuncture once a week to help me with stress and maintain a pregnancy. I feel like a failure because I am feeling like this and my doctor wants me to see a psychologist. I'm worried that I won't be happy for the entire pregnancy and I am only 7-8 weeks.

I have a scan tomorrow to ease my anxiety after a recent threatened miscarriage. I think I will be more shocked to see that its going well.

Not feeling as sick anymore which is contributing to my stress. Thoughts creep into my head like I wish we had never tried to get pregnant. If I'm honest, I feel like I don't want a baby anymore. I feel horrible for thinking this. hope today is a once off and I won't feel like this again. I didn't feel like this last week so hopefully next week will be all rainbows and sunshine.

Just venting, thanks for reading.

 

[ssjad]

I'm so sorry you feel this way. Hugs to you!
Have you considered seeing a therapist? They can be very useful. I know how much anxiety is produced from a miscarriage, both when ttc, and when pregnant.

 

[Yam87]

Thanks ssjad, I am going to arrange an appointment with the psychologist. I am disappointed that it has come to this really. But hoping maybe it's just hormones that have exploded today. We will see what tomorrow brings.

 

[Justkeeptryin]

Hi yam, Id say that its your hormones! Ive had so many ups and downs this pregnancy and its due to my previous 2 losses. I am a nervous wreck about it all. Not that Im coming towards the end of first trimester I should be so happy but Im now even more anxious as Im a high risk pregnancy due to having two wombs and at risk of an incompetent cervix. I think its completely normal to feel this way after having a loss/losses. It may do you good to speak with someone. Im sure it will pass. Just remember how much you've wanted this in the past and how happy you have been before.
As someone Ive spoken to has said. pregnancy is like 9 months of PMT. Take care x

 

[Yam87]

Wise words justkeeptryin, thank you. I feel a tiny bit more positive tonight. I can see a glimmer of excitement again about cuddling my baby. I think it may be my hormones as you said. Thank you for making me feel more normal too.

Hoping for a healthy pg for all of us.

 

[Justkeeptryin]

Yep your def. not alone in how you feel, it is normal. If only we could hibernate for 9 months until our babies are here x

 

[bluecathy1978]

I think it is definately your hormones that are playing a big part in the way that you are feeling. I too had a missed miscarriage at christmas and it is the worst feeling in the world, I feel it was a far worse experience than my 'normal' miscarriage the year before

It is a big thing to overcome but we are both here on the other side of it and both pregnant once again. It is completely natural to feel the way that you are. You are a few weeks ahead of me I think? Have you had a scan yet?