@danijoanne
Its not a tangent at all its actually very helpful and informative and I appreciate the support and even more-so the acknowledgement of how difficult it is! Even without the worry about my husband etc not everyone can afford to lose the thousands of dollars already spent on each of the trips (which would also add to the guilt).
As you said I think a lot of it has to do with drug companies not wanting to deal with repercussions, and I think also the inability to do research (self report bias alone can cause problems in studies done after pregnancy as well as other factors they may not look at and its not like they can test it with an outright control and test group as it would obviously be inhumane) My doctor friend outright said to me "I honestly think no one really knows what makes a healthy baby and what hurts them, its all guess work and it changes every other day".
I am considering trying acupuncture as my friend here found a good one but she is at the midwives clinic Ill start at when I see my doctor the first time, so its another thing that can't be discussed before I fly again. I also wanted to try hypnotherapy but my inability to find a good psychiatrist or psychologist here has hindered that. Id LOVE to get off the drugs and thats what people don't get. I don't use them to get high or to feel good, I use them to stop the debilitating fear. My US doctor was able to get me off my daily meds and my sleep meds (I still have insomnia but I always have but the nightmares are not as bad or frequent) but the flying issue just wont go away.
and thank you for simply just understanding and not judging me for even considering taking the meds. I was a psych major (though focused on animal behavior) and I know how much of a stigma still exists over mental health issues and just how much people don't understand and its been a really hard journey.
Its not a tangent at all its actually very helpful and informative and I appreciate the support and even more-so the acknowledgement of how difficult it is! Even without the worry about my husband etc not everyone can afford to lose the thousands of dollars already spent on each of the trips (which would also add to the guilt).
As you said I think a lot of it has to do with drug companies not wanting to deal with repercussions, and I think also the inability to do research (self report bias alone can cause problems in studies done after pregnancy as well as other factors they may not look at and its not like they can test it with an outright control and test group as it would obviously be inhumane) My doctor friend outright said to me "I honestly think no one really knows what makes a healthy baby and what hurts them, its all guess work and it changes every other day".
I am considering trying acupuncture as my friend here found a good one but she is at the midwives clinic Ill start at when I see my doctor the first time, so its another thing that can't be discussed before I fly again. I also wanted to try hypnotherapy but my inability to find a good psychiatrist or psychologist here has hindered that. Id LOVE to get off the drugs and thats what people don't get. I don't use them to get high or to feel good, I use them to stop the debilitating fear. My US doctor was able to get me off my daily meds and my sleep meds (I still have insomnia but I always have but the nightmares are not as bad or frequent) but the flying issue just wont go away.
and thank you for simply just understanding and not judging me for even considering taking the meds. I was a psych major (though focused on animal behavior) and I know how much of a stigma still exists over mental health issues and just how much people don't understand and its been a really hard journey.