For the life of me...Please Help!

[babychickie]

I am getting more and more crazy and depressed and I need some advice.
I am TTC #1, and I am 32 years old. At this point we have been bding without protection for several years, but it has not been until recently that i have tried to take charge of my self and listen, test, and put forth 110%.

I have used OPK's on and off, but rarely got a positive. I tested sporadically and at different times, but never put myself on a rigorous schedule with it. Well, this month I decided to take charge....

Here are my findings so far, and for the life of me, I cannot make heads or tails of it and i was wondering if anyone knows anything more than i do about this, or is in the same boat.

My cycles are 31-36 days on average. I am type-2 diabetic, and happen to be on Metformin, which if anything has pretty much regulated my cycles, as before I would always get my period, but the length seemed to vary here and there.

I bought the clearblue advanced monitor. I was determined that this would show me I wasnt dead inside and might have some hormones or something going on inside that would show up on this test. The first few were the open circles, indicating nada, but then low and behold on day 13 of my cycle, I got a flashing smiley, and nearly fainted. The next day, boom, solid smiley! Now being that my cycles are longer than 28 days, I never really suspected I would ovulated so precisely on or around this day, but I let the bd'ing commence and we went at it like rabbits. Now, mind you in this confirmation, I had no ovulation symptoms, that I usually pick up on, soore boobs, ewcm, etc.... I was perplexed, but nonetheless, went ahead with the baby dancing.

Additionally, this cycle I started temping. I was pretty good about doing it the same time, but obviously there were some variations throughout the past month, due to unforseen things, but nonetheless, I was pretty consistent. To me, my temps looks weird. Right around my solid smile, I did get a dip in temp, and then a rise, but FF never told me I ovulated, because there after, my temps continued to rise and fall. Now, I am obssessed with temping and feel like my chart looks like I am in trouble. I never thought so much pressure could be had from a stupid little chart, anxiously waiting to awake in the morning to a steady climb of temps on the way to my BFP.

So on with the current events and why i am going nuts...

Today is CD 26 and last saturday, I noticed ewcm, as i usually see when i suspect I am ovulating. I tested on sat with my wonderful wondfo, and got nothing but a very dull line, but we dtd anyway. Throughout the week I continue to see EWCM and due to busy schedule, we did not bd, mon, tues, and wed. When the boobs started hurting, i scratched my head as to what the heck is going on here... I did a wondfo last night, and boom, darker line - CD 26! So we dtd.... Today I decided to do another wondfo, and use the digi and got a solid smiley, and dark line.

In the meantime, my temp dipped dramatically today, and that put me into even more of a tailspin. I AM SO CONFUSED! Am I going to ovulate now?? Am i not ovulating at all? What does this all indicate??!! Does anyone have any advice, or is in a similiar situation? I would love to hear from anyone!!!!

My plan at this moment, before expensive infertility testing that i really cannot afford, is to chart my temps for the next 3 months and see if any trends emerge. I will then bring this to my gyno for his advice and go from there. In the meantime, I remain desperately waiting for some kind of miracle, yet at the same time, I fear the worst. I deep down inside suspected maybe I have PCOS, based on symptoms... yet I am a hypochondriac, so....

My dh needs to get tested to, but again we haven't figured out a cheap way to do this, however we did the at home test and it was ok... Any suggestions are welcome!!!

I appreciate wholeheartedly anyone who takes the time to read my novel, and thank you in advance. I am hoping I am not alone in this situation and maybe someone out there has experienced something similar and perhaps figured it out or got some answers.

Attached is my chart so far for this month. I did get some crosshairs, but today when my temp dipped dramatically, they disappeared. I am supossed to get AF some time next week, but if I am actually ovulating NOW, is it even possible to conceive? Keep bd'ing!?

Thanks guys, and baby dust to you all

 

[slg76]

Well neither day you mentioned for possible O makes a lot of sense based on your cycle length.
Your temps won't stabilize if you aren't Oing.
Perhaps you are having LH surges but they aren't productive ones ( you aren't releasing an egg).
7 days after you think you O'd you can get your blood drawn and your progesterone level will tell you if you really did O or not.

Good luck!!! I've been through this too and am happy to answer your questions.

 

[labgal]

Sorry for all your confusions, baby. I never was a temper, but I do use OPKs and know a bit from hearing about some other ladies temping.

You get a positive on OPK typically 24-48 hours before you ovulate, so it would make sense that you had a temp drop a day or two later, because that is your ovulation dip. So as far as I can see, there is no problem or inconsistancy there as long as your dip was around that time period. .. it's possible on cd 13 you started to gear up to O but never did. Sometimes it takes the digital monitor a month you get use to your body. You wouldn't ovulate on cd 13 if you have a 31-36 day luteal phase.

You may be ovulating late, or if you do get your AF on cd 36 it looks like you have around a 10 day luteal phase, which while a bit short, it isn't so short that it would necessarily be a problem. You could try taking vixtex/soy iso to lengthen your LP.

All that said, you may want to consider having your DH have a semen analysis. It's about 200 dollars, which isn't crazy expensive. It's possible your issue is related to him. Conversely, you could have blocked tubes, endo or a progesterone issue or any number of things, but having your s/o tested is cheap and rules that aspect out right away - then you can decide whether or not you want to go to the doctor for yourself.

I hope that helps some, best of luck and baby dust to you!