So today I was going through all the social services stuff for Wisconsin, trying to find the housing assistance section. In my search, I came across the WIC program's section and was really excited to see that there were changes being made. I just quickly skimmed through it and saw that they were going to offer fruit, vegetables, and bread to the WIC packages. I also noticed that they were going to add jarred baby food and less infant cereal. I thought that was great, especially because I have 6 or 7 boxes of unused baby cereal sitting in the cupboard. Well, later, I go back and look into these changes more. Most only affect breastfeeding mothers. That really got me down. Now, here's the controversial part (and the part I'm doubting). Aiden is/was fully formula fed because within a week of having him I started getting really bad depression and I needed to go back on medication for my bi-polar disorder. The only problem he's even had was that he had a problem with milk early on (so we changed him to soy), which has corrected itself now. I enjoyed that he was formula fed because my OH could help with feedings. But I've been trying to decide on whether or not to breastfeed for this baby since before I even knew she was there (I figured I'd have more time to research and decide on this decision). And I'm still struggling. One day I want to breastfeed and the next day, I don't. I know the health benefits, but I also know formula has come a long way. I'm not sure if I could manage the time it would take because of having Aiden around (he'll be 17 months). Breastfeeding is something I would like to try, but I'm just not sure if I would be comfortable with it (as horrible as that sounds). This may also sound really bad, but if I do decide to breastfeed, I will get some more food and stuff that will help out the entire family. And we will need all the help we can get at first. I'm just so frustrated and my thoughts are all over the place. I need to make a decision soon, but I'm having such a difficult time. Can anyone help me out or give me some advice?