Well, I went to the bathroom today, and I was walking there, I felt as though bleeding had started, and I started thinking about how I would take it if I did get my period. Then out of no where I started remembering things like, even if I bleed, it could be just early pregnancy spotting, or some of the uterine lining shedding. So when I wiped and looked down, there was blood. Dry brown blood, but blood none the less. It was a shocking blow. I sat there for a minute not knowing what to think.
So I got up, washed my hands and went into my room and prayed. I thanked God for everything and I told him, I'm not giving up hope. I thanked him for this test of faith. I then messaged a friend of mine that I've been talking with about this, and she said a prayer for me, then told me not to worry about that at all, because lots of women bleed in early pregnancy. So I've been running to the bathroom to check like every 20 minutes, and it got darker at one point, but the next time I checked it was barely even there. So we'll see!
So basically, I haven't given up faith. I keep reminding myself of all my reassurances. And if its not THIS month, it will come soon. I just have to be patient.
I will keep you guys updated! Thank you for all your faith and support!