GRRR! [vent]

[LilMama2be]

So saturday is the day usually me and my daddy spend time together.
we usually go skating (roller skating). but it just gets more boring everytime we go, so i wanted to do something different, but i cant think of anything.

So I went downstairs and asked him what we could do, and he just freakin sits there watching tv eating his yogurt and berries not even answering me!
what the hell!!


So then my boyfriend texts me, and asks what i'm doing, and i'm thinking oh well maybe me and him could hang out. and i told him what had just happened with my dad. and he said that i should of told him earlier and he would of stayed in town...
HE LEFT town without telling me. =[

I may sound protective but just the fact that he didn't tell me he's leaving makes me sad =[
and now i'm really in a bad mood
and my best friend is out of town too SO i have NOBODY to hang out with.


and all my mom has to say about this whole thing is "DID YOU CLEAN YOUR ROOM?"
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

 

[tasha41]

LOL. My boyfriend and I talked about this.. I made him feel awful. I broke down lol and apologized for being so clingy and for getting cranky when he goes out with his friends and explained to him that it's just because I'm always alone and have nothing to do but watch TV or go on the computer, LOL, because my friends will either be working or out partying and I really can't make myself have shifts, nor can I participate in partying..

 

[LilMama2be]

LOL. My boyfriend and I talked about this.. I made him feel awful. I broke down lol and apologized for being so clingy and for getting cranky when he goes out with his friends and explained to him that it's just because I'm always alone and have nothing to do but watch TV or go on the computer, LOL, because my friends will either be working or out partying and I really can't make myself have shifts, nor can I participate in partying..

That's how it is for me, ALL of my friends are too busy to take time out of their "busy" (not actually busy) lives to hang with me ONCE in a while. So I sit here day after day after day. I didn't think it was too much to ask for me and my dad to hang out once a week, So since he didn't answer i went upstairs, and here i've been ever since, for 2 and a half hours. Nobody has come up to say anything.
Luckily my boyfriend is understanding and he knows i'm really cranky lately :]
He's really the only person I'm friends with that I can truely TALK to. All my friends, are the problem, SO i cant really go to my best friend taylor and be like "i think taylor is being really 2-faced lately and i cant trust her" She'd probably punch me!


Ahh I hate mood swings but they're hilarious at the same time.
I feel so stupid

 

[tasha41]

I know.. half the time I don't realize it as it's happening but later if I sit back and "reflect" on my behaviour I laugh at myself, I feel crazy or something!!

Samesies with my friends.. I mean they're not that f'in busy & I know it.. I've seen most a couple times, but once or twice in SIX MONTHS OF PREGNANCY basically.. after seeing each other *every* weekend before that.. is hurtful really! The funny thing is they'll break up with their boyfriend or something and want to be around me because they know I'm just relaxing at home. Urgh.

I'm just worried things will be changed so much after the baby that I'll have no one to go out with when I've got a free night and want to go out

 

[LilMama2be]

I know.. half the time I don't realize it as it's happening but later if I sit back and "reflect" on my behaviour I laugh at myself, I feel crazy or something!!

Samesies with my friends.. I mean they're not that f'in busy & I know it.. I've seen most a couple times, but once or twice in SIX MONTHS OF PREGNANCY basically.. after seeing each other *every* weekend before that.. is hurtful really! The funny thing is they'll break up with their boyfriend or something and want to be around me because they know I'm just relaxing at home. Urgh.

I'm just worried things will be changed so much after the baby that I'll have no one to go out with when I've got a free night and want to go out

my friends are the same! I mean I don't want to be friends with some of them, but I can't really unattach myself until after january when i'm done with high school. They're carry on with high shcool.
Some of them who call themselves "real" friends, who dont really do anything who dont call me thats where i'm like k.... i lost all my friends.
I guess since i had to change my ways, and grow up a bit faster then they do, its just weird to them maybe. But i know a lot of them talk behind my back, I dont think they realize what i'm going through, at all. They just say its my fault for getting pregnant, when its not ALL my fault.
But whatever :] Hopefully i'll meet some nice young mommies around here.

As for the going out when you have a free night-
I have a feeling I'll be in the same situation. I guess i'll just be spending time with my boyfriend. I mean i already do, but sometimes i was GIRL time, but nobody wants girl time with me =[
i mean theres my mom but she isn't always good to talk to.

 

[tasha41]

I know.. half the time I don't realize it as it's happening but later if I sit back and "reflect" on my behaviour I laugh at myself, I feel crazy or something!!

Samesies with my friends.. I mean they're not that f'in busy & I know it.. I've seen most a couple times, but once or twice in SIX MONTHS OF PREGNANCY basically.. after seeing each other *every* weekend before that.. is hurtful really! The funny thing is they'll break up with their boyfriend or something and want to be around me because they know I'm just relaxing at home. Urgh.

I'm just worried things will be changed so much after the baby that I'll have no one to go out with when I've got a free night and want to go out

I guess since i had to change my ways, and grow up a bit faster then they do, its just weird to them maybe.

I mean I don't know what I was expecting, of course my friends' lives aren't going to change because I am pregnant lol, but I thought I'd be having more fun with them still.. but no, they just do the same thing they always do and whenever they talk to me they talk to me about the baby/pregnancy and ask how it's going.. never just want to talk to me lol. Ooh well we'll be lonely together, okay?

 

[LilMama2be]

I know.. half the time I don't realize it as it's happening but later if I sit back and "reflect" on my behaviour I laugh at myself, I feel crazy or something!!

Samesies with my friends.. I mean they're not that f'in busy & I know it.. I've seen most a couple times, but once or twice in SIX MONTHS OF PREGNANCY basically.. after seeing each other *every* weekend before that.. is hurtful really! The funny thing is they'll break up with their boyfriend or something and want to be around me because they know I'm just relaxing at home. Urgh.

I'm just worried things will be changed so much after the baby that I'll have no one to go out with when I've got a free night and want to go out

I guess since i had to change my ways, and grow up a bit faster then they do, its just weird to them maybe.

I mean I don't know what I was expecting, of course my friends' lives aren't going to change because I am pregnant lol, but I thought I'd be having more fun with them still.. but no, they just do the same thing they always do and whenever they talk to me they talk to me about the baby/pregnancy and ask how it's going.. never just want to talk to me lol. Ooh well we'll be lonely together, okay?

sounds good!
we can mope and complain!
Man, if i only i knew more girls here that were in this situation. Thank god for the internet and tv, otherwise i'd be lost, and very very bored. =]
Before this happened, I never really watched tv, and i was busy out having fun everyday.
Oh well =] I've gotten used to wearing my sweats and huge t-shirts.
Until my Bf comes over that is.

 

[Beth_18]

i know how you two girlies are feeling cuz i feel like that every day x x x

 

[tasha41]

Group hug..!

 

[nervouspains]

Lol awwww, the only time i see my 'friends' is to go out to eat lol other then that, i never see them! And thats like once a month at the most!
Just because I dont want to go out dancing, dont mean i dont want to spend time with them! lol
xxx

 

[meztisa]

I don't really have any girlfriends (my best friend moved to Florida a few years back) so now I am super clingy to my OH. I feel terrible but I can't help but get jealous and angry when he doesn't want to hang out. We fight about it all the time!

 

[LilMama2be]

awwuh =[

I hate how when they take it the wrong way, when we cant party and drink anymore, they just take it as we cant go out anymore. I can go out, and i want to. but i'm not going to go places by myself, that'd be boring! i miss my friends!
=[


None of them even asked me why i wasn't at school today (i was sick)
and they used to =[

I'm super clingy to my OH too :] but he likes it.
although, i do get kind of emotional sometimes when he goes out with his friends (since his friends are pretty much assholes), and i dont know why it gets to me, but it does!